“The scart bears weel wi’
the winter’s cauld.
The aik wi’ the gurly win’;
But the bonny wee burds, and the sweet wee flowers,
Were made for the calm an’ the sun."—Old Ballad.
The southern Sutor
terminates, where it overhangs the junction of the Cromarty and Moray
Firths, in a noble precipice, which, planting its iron feet in the sea,
rears its ample forehead a hundred yards over it. On the top there is a
moss-covered, partially wooded knoll, which, commanding from its abrupt
height and semi-insular situation a wide and diversified prospect, has
been known from time immemorial to the town’s-people as “ the Lookout.”
It is an exquisite little spot, sweet in itself, and sublime in what it
commands;—a fine range of forest scenery stretches along the background^
while in front the eye may wander over the hills of seven different
counties, and so vast an extent of sea, that, on the soberest
calculation, we cannot estimate it under a thousand square miles. Nor
need there be any lack of pleasing association to heighten the effect of
a landscape which, among its other scenes of the wild and the wonderful,
includes the bleak moor of Culloden, and the heath near Forres.”
It is, however, to the immense tract of sea which it overlooks that the
little knoll owes its deepest interest, and when, after a storm from the
west has scattered the shipping bound for port, and day after day has
gone by without witnessing their expected return—there are wistful eyes
that turn from it to the wide waste below, and anxious hearts that beat
quicker and higher, as sail after sail starts up, spark-like, on the dim
horizon, and grows into size and distinctness as it nears tlie shore.
Nor is the rock beneath devoid of an interest exclusively its own.
It is one of those
magnificent objects which fill the mind with emotions of the sublime and
awful; and the effect is most imposing when we view it from below. The
strata, strangely broken and contorted, rise almost vertically from the
beach. Immense masses of a primary trap crop out along their bases, or
wander over the face of the precipice in broad irregular veins, which
contrast their deep olive-green with the ferruginous brown of the mass.
A whitened projection, which overhangs the sea, has been for untold ages
the haunt of the cormorant and the sea-mew; the eagle builds higher up,
and higher still there is a broad inaccessible ledge in a deep angle of
the rock, on which a thicket of hip and sloe-thorn bushes and a few wild
apple-trees have taken root, and which, from the latter circumstance,
bears among the town’s-boys the name of the apple-yardie. The young
imagination delights to dwell amid the bosky recesses of this little
spot, where human foot has never yet trodden, and where the crabs and
the wild berries ripen and decay unplucked and untasted. There was a
time, however, when the interest which attached to it owed almost all
its intensity to the horrible. The eastern turret of the old castle of
Cromarty has, with all its other turrets, long since disappeared; but
the deep foliage of the ledge mantles as thickly as ever, and the
precipice of the Look-out rears its dark front as proudly over the
beach. They were frightfully connected—the shelf and the turret—in the
associations of the town’s-people for more than a hundred years ; the
one was known as the Chaplain’s Turret—the other as the Chaplain’s Lair
; but the demolition of the castle has dissolved the union, and there
are now scarcely a dozen in the country who know that it ever existed. .
I have said that the
proprietor of the lands of Cromarty, in the early part of the reign of
Charles II., was a Sir John Urquart of Craigfintrie, celebrated by
Wodrow, though the celebrity be of no enviable character, as the person
whose advice, strengthened by that of Sir George Mackenzie of Tarbat,
led Commissioner Middleton to introduce the unhappy Act which overturned
Presbyterianism in Scotland. He was a shrewd, strong-minded man,
thoroughly acquainted with all the worse and some of the better springs
of human action—cool, and cautious, and skilful, in steering himself
through the difficulties of so unsettled a period by the shifts and
evasions of a well-balanced expediency. The current of the age had set
in towards religion, and Sir John was by much too prudent to oppose the
current. There were few men who excelled him in that most difficult art
of computation, the art of estimating the strength of parties; perhaps
he was all the more successful in his calculations from his never
suffering himself to be disturbed in them by an over-active zeal; and
believing, with Tamerlane and Sir Thomas, that the Deity usually
declares for the stronger party, Sir John was always religious enough to
be of the stronger party too.
About twelve years before
his death, which took place in 1673, there resided in his family a young
licentiate of the Scottish Church, a nephew of his own, who officiated
as chaplain. Dallas Urquhart was naturally a soft-tempered, amiable man,
of considerable attainments, and of no inferior powers of mind, but his
character lacked the severer virtues ; and it was his fate to live in an
age in which a good-natured facility of disposition was of all qualities
the worst fitted to supply their place. He was deemed a person of more
than ordinary promise in an age when the qualifications of the
Presbyterian minister were fixed at least as high as in any after
period;— there was a charm, too, in his pliant and docile disposition,
which peculiarly recommended him to his older friends and advisers; for
even the wise are apt to overvalue whatever flatters themselves, and to
decide regarding that modest facility which so often proves in after
life the curse of its possessor, according to an estimate very different
from that by which they rate the wilful, because partially developed
strength which thwarts and opposes them. Dallas therefore had many
friends ; but the person to whom he was chiefly attached was the young
minister of Cromarty—the “good Maister Hugh Anderson,” whose tombstone,
a dark-coloured slab, roughened with uncouth sculpture, and a neat Latin
inscription, may still be seen in the eastern gable of the parish
church, and to whom I have already referred as one of the few faithful
in this part of the country in a time of fiery trial. The two friends
had passed through college together, associates in study and recreation,
and, what is better still, for they were both devout young men,
companions in all those acts of religious fellowship which renders
Christianity so true a nurse of the nobler affections. And yet no two
persons could be less similar in the original structure of their minds.
Dallas was gentle-tempered and imaginative, and imbued, through a nature
decidedly intellectual, with a love of study for its own sake. His
friend, on the contrary, was of a bold energetic temperament, and a
plain, practical understanding, which he had cultivated rather from a
sense of duty than under the influence of any direct pleasure derived in
the process. But it is probable that had they resembled one another more
closely, they would have loved one another less. Friendship, if I may
venture the metaphor, is a sort of ball-and-socket connexion. It seems
to be a first principle in its economy that its agreements should be
founded in dissimilarity—the stronger with the weaker—the softer with
the more rugged. And perhaps, in looking round to convince ourselves of
the fact, we have but to note how the sexes—formed for each other by God
himself—have been created, not after a similar, but after a diverse
pattern—and that their natures piece together, not because they were
made to resemble, but to correspond with each other.
The friends were often
together; the huge old castle, grey with the lichens of a thousand
years, towered on its wooded eminence immediately over the town; and the
little antique manse, with its narrow serrated gables, and with the
triangular tablets of its upper windows, rising high in the roof,
occupied, nest-like, an umbrageous recess so directly below, that the
chaplain in his turret was scarcely a hundred yards distant from the
minister in his study. There hardly passed a day in which Dallas did not
spend an hour or two in the manse ; at times speculating on some
abstruse scholastic question with his friend the clergyman, whom he
generally found somewhat less than his match on such occasions; at times
still more pleasingly engaged in conversing, though on somewhat humbler
terms, with his friend’s only sister. Mary Anderson was a sylph-looking
young creature, rather below the middle size, and slightly though finely
formed. Her complexion, which was pale and singularly transparent,
indicated no great strength of constitution; but there was an easy grace
in all her motions, that no one could associate with the weakness of
positive indisposition, and an expression in her bright speaking eyes
and beautiful forehead, that impressed all who knew her rather with the
idea of an active and powerful spirit than of a delicate or feeble
frame. There was an unpretending quietness in her manners, and a simple
good sense in all she said and did on ordinary occasions, that seemed to
be as much the result of correct feeling as of a discriminating
intellect; but there were depths in the character beyond the reach of
the ordinary observer—powers of abstract thought which only a superior
mind could fully appreciate, and a vigorous but well-regulated
imagination that could bedeck the perfections of the moral world with
all that is exquisite among the forms and colours of the natural. No one
ever seemed less influenced by the tender feelings than Mary Anderson ;
she loved her brother’s friend—loved to study, to read, to converse with
him, but in no respect did her regard for him seem to differ from her
regard for her brother himself. She was his friend—a tender and attached
one, it is true—but his friend only. But the young chaplain, whose
nature it was to cleave to everything nobler and more powerful than
himself, was of a different temper, and he had formed a deep though
silent attachment to the highly-gifted maiden of the manse.
Troublesome times came on
; the politic and strong-minded proprietor was no longer known as the
friend of the Presbyterian Church, and the comparatively weak and facile
chaplain wavered in all the agonies of irresolution, under the
fascinating influences of the massier and wilier character. All the
persuasive powers of Sir John were concentrated on the conversion of his
nephew. Acts of kindness, expressions of endearment and good-will, and a
well-counterfeited zeal for the interests of true religion formed with
him merely a sort of groundwork for arguments of real cogency so far as
they went, and facts which, though of partial selection, could not be
well disputed. He had passed, he said, over the ground which Dallas now
occupied, and was thus enabled to anticipate some of his opinions on the
subject; he, too, had once regarded Christianity and the Presbyterian
form of it as identical, and associated the excellencies of the one with
the peculiarities of the other. He now saw clearly, however; and his
nephew, he was assured, would soon see it too, that they were things as
essentially different as soul and body, and that the Presbyterian
form—the Presbyterian body, he might say—was by no means the best which
the true religion could inhabit ! He pointed out what he deemed the
peculiar defects of Presbyterianism; and summed np with* consummate
skill the various indications of the subdued and unresisting mood which
at this period formed that of the entire country.
“Men of all classes,” he
said, “have been wearied in the long struggle of twenty years, from
which they have but just escaped, and stand in need of rest. They see,
too, that they have been contending, not for themselves, but for
others—striving to render kings less powerful, that Churchmen might
become more so. They see that they have thus injured the character of a
body of men, valuable in their own sphere, but dangerous when invested
with the power of the magistrate; and that they have so weakened the
hands of Government, that to escape from anarchy they have to fling
themselves into the arms of comparative despotism. But there are better
times coming; and the wiser sort of men are beginning to perceive that
religion must work more effectually under the peaceable protection of a
paternal Government, than when united to a form which cannot exist
without provoking political heats and animosities. Not a few of our best
men are more than prepared for the movement. You already know something
of Leighton; I need not say what sort of a man he is;—and young Burnet
and Scougall are persons of resembling character. But there are many
such among the belied and persecuted Episcopalians; and does it not
augur well, that since the one Church must fall, we should have
materials of such value for building up the other? I cannot anticipate
much opposition to the change. A few good men of narrow capacity, such
as your friend Anderson, will not acquiesce in it till they are made to
distinguish between form and spirit, which may take some time; and
leaders in the Church, who have become influential at the expense of
their country’s welfare, must necessarily be hostile to it for another
cause; for no man willingly parts with power. But certain I am it can
meet with no effectual opposition.”
Dallas had little to urge
in reply. Sir John had ever been kind to him, nor was his disposition a
cold or ungrateful one; and, naturally facile and diffident besides, he
had been invariably in the habit of yielding up his own judgment, in
matters of a practical tendency, to the more mature and powerful
judgment of his uncle. He could feel, however, that on this occasion
there was something criminal in his acquiescence; but his weakness
overcame him. He passed sleepless nights, and days of restless
inquietude; at times half resolved to seek out Sir John and say that,
having cast in his lot with the sinking Church, he could not quit her in
the day of trouble—at times groaning under a despairing sense of his
thorough inability to oppose him—yielding to what seemed to be the force
of destiny, and summing up the various arguments so often pressed upon
him, less with the view of ascertaining their real value, than of
employing them in his own defence. Meanwhile whole weeks elapsed ere he
could muster up resolution enough to visit his friend the clergyman; and
the report had gone far and wide that he had declared with his uncle for
the court religion. He at length stole down one evening to the manse
with a sinking heart, and limbs that trembled under him.
Mary was absent on a
visit; her brother he found sitting moodily in his study. The minister
had but just returned from a Presbytery, at which he had to contend
single-handed against the arguments of Sir John, and the votes of all
the others; and, under the influence of the angry feelings awakened in a
conflict so hopeless and unequal, and irritated by the gibes and taunts
of his renegade brethren, he at once denounced Dallas as a time-server
and an apostate. The temper of the chaplain gave way, and he retorted
with a degree of spirit which might have given a different colour to his
after life, had it been exerted during his earlier interviews with Sir
John. The anger of the friends, heightened by mutual reproaches,
triumphed over the affection of years; and, after a scene of bitter
contention, they parted with the determination of never meeting again.
Dallas felt not the ground, as, with throbbing pulses and a flushed
brow, he hastily scaled the ascent which led to the castle; and when,
turning round from beside the wall to look at the manse, he thought of
Mary, and thought, too, that he could now no longer visit her as before,
his heart swelled almost to bursting. “ But I am like a straw on the
current,” he said, “and must drift wherever the force of events carries
me. Coward that I am ! Why do I live in a world for which I am so
wretchedly unfitted?” .
He had now passed the
Rubicon. His first impressions he had resisted; and the feebler
suggestions which afterwards arose in his mind, only led him to entrench
himself the more strongly in the arguments of Sir John. Besides, he had
declared himself a Mend to Episcopacy, and thus barred up his retreat by
that shrinking dread of being deemed wavering and inconsistent, which
has so often merely the effect of rendering such as lie openest to the
imputation firm in the wrong place. There was a secret bitterness in his
spirit, that vented itself in caustic remarks on all whom he had once
admired and respected —all save Mary and her brother, and of them he
never spoke. His former habits of application were broken up; yet,
though no longer engrossed by the studies which it had once seemed the
bent of his nature to pursue, he remained as indifferent as ever to the
various pursuits of interest and ambition which engaged his uncle. After
passing a day of restless inactivity among his books, he walked out a
little before sunset in the direction of the old chapel of St. Regulus,
and, ere he took note of where his wanderings led him, found himself
among the graves.
It was a lovely evening
of October. The ancient elms and wild cherry-trees which surrounded the
burying-ground still retained their foliage entire, and the elms were
hung in gold, and the wild cherry-trees in crimson, and the pale yellow
tint of the straggling and irregular fields on the hill-side contrasted
strongly with the deepening russet of the surrounding moor. The tombs
and the ruins were bathed in the yellow light of the setting sun; but to
the melancholy and aimless wanderer the quiet and gorgeous beauty of the
scene was associated with the coming night and the coming winter, with
the sadness of inevitable decay and the gloom of the insatiable grave.
He passed moodily onward, and, on turning an angle of the chapel, found
Mary Anderson seated among the ruins, on the tombstone of her mother,
whom she had lost when a child. There was a slight flush on her
countenance as she rose to meet him, but she held out her hand as usual,
though the young man thought, but it might not be so, that the grasp was
less kindly.
“You have been a great
stranger of late, Dallas,” she said; “how have we been so unhappy as to
offend you?”
The young chaplain looked
as if he could have sunk into the ground, and was silent.
“Can it be true,” resumed
the maiden, “that you have left us in our distress, and gone over to the
prelates?” Dallas stammered out an apology, and reminded her that
Christianity, not Presbyterianism, formed the basis of their friendship.
“ The Church,” he said, “ had too long paid an overweening regard to
mere forms j it was now full time to look to essentials. What mattered
it whether men went to heaven under the jurisdiction of a Presbyterian
or of an Episcopalian Church.” He passed rapidly over the arguments of
Sir John.
“You are deceived, my
dear friend,” said Mary. “Look at these cottages that glitter to the
setting sun on the hillside. Eighty years ago their inmates were the
slaves of gross superstition—creatures who feared and worshipped they
knew not what; and, with no discipline of purity connected with their
uncertain beliefs, they could, like mere machines, be set in motion,
either for good or ill, at the will of their capricious masters. These
cottages, Dallas, are now inhabited by 'thinking men; there are Bibles
in even the humblest of them—in even yonder hovel where the old widow
lives—and these Bibles are read and understood. We may hear even now the
notes of the evening psalm! Wist ye how the change was wrought 1 or what
it was that converted mere animal men into rational creatures? Was it
not that very Church which you have, alas ! so rashly forsaken, and now
denounce as intolerant? A strange intolerance, surely, that delivers men
from the influence of their grosser nature, and delights to arm its
vassals with a power before which all tyranny must eventually be
overthrown. Be not deceived, Dallas ! Men sometimes suffer themselves to
be misled by theories of a perfect but impossible freedom—impossible,
because unsuited to the low natures and darkened minds of those on whom
they would bestow it—and then submit in despair to the quiet of a
paralysing despotism, because they cannot realize what they have so
fondly imagined. Know ye not that none but the wise and the good can be
truly free— that the vile and the ignorant are necessarily slaves under
whatever form of government they may chance to live? See you not that
the deprecated sway of the Scottish Church has been in truth but a
paternal tutelage—that her children were feeble in mind, and rude and
untoward, when she first laid the hand of her discipline upon them—and
that she has now well-nigh trained them up to be men And think you
that these, our poor countrymen, already occupy that place which He who
died for them has willed they should attain to 1 or that the many, no
longer a brute herd, but moral and thoughtful, and with the Bible in
their hands, are to remain the willing, unresisting slaves of the few?
No, Dallas ! when men increase in goodness and knowledge, there must be
also an onward progress towards civil liberty; and the political bias
which you denounce as unfavourable to religion, is merely the onward
groping of this principle. A strange intolerance, surely, that has
already broken* the fetters of the bondsman ; they still clank about
him, but being what he now is—intelligent and conscientious—they must
inevitably drop off, let his master fret as he may, and leave him a
freeman.”
There was a pause, during
which Dallas doggedly fixed his eyes on the ground. "I have viewed the
subject,” he at length said, “with different eyes. And of this I am
sure, there are in the Episcopal Church truly excellent men who cannot
exist without doing good.”
“But look round you,”
said Mary, “ and say whether the great bulk of those who are now
watching as on tiptoe to swell its ranks, are of the class you describe
? Can you shut your eyes to the fact, that there is a winnowing process
going on in the one Church, and that the chaff and dust are falling into
the other? But, Dallas,” she said, laying her hand on her breast, “I can
no longer dispute with you; and ’twould be unavailing if I could, for it
is not argument but strength that you want— strength to resist the
influence of a more powerful but less honest mind than your own. There
is assuredly a time of trouble coming ; but I feel, Dallas, that your
escape from it cannot be more certain than mine.”
Dallas, who had hitherto
avoided her glance, now regarded her with an expression of solicitude
and alarm. She was thin —much thinner than usual—and her cheeks were
crimsoned by a flush of deadly beauty. The anger which she had excited
—for she had convinced him of his error, despite of his determination
not to be convinced, and he was necessarily angry— vanished in a moment.
He grasped her hand, and bursting into tears, “O Mary!” he exclaimed,
“lama weak, worthless thing—pity me—pray for me; but no, it were vain,
it were vain; I am lost, and for ever!”
The maiden was deeply
affected, and strove to console him. “ Retrace your steps,” she said, “
in the might of Him whose strength is perfected in weakness, and all
shall yet be well. My poor brother has mourned for your defection as he
would have done for your death; but he loves you still, and deeply
regrets that an unfortunate quarrel should have estranged you from him.
Come and see him as usual; he has a keen temper, but need I tell you
that he has an affectionate heart ? And I did not think, Dallas, that
you could have so soon forgotten myself; but come, that I may have my
revenge.”
The friends parted, and
at this time neither of them thought they had parted for ever. But so it
was. Facile and wavering as nature had formed the young chaplain, he yet
indulged in a pride that, conscious of weakness, would fain solace
itself with at least an outside show of strength and consistency; and he
could not forget that he had now chosen his side. Weeks and months
passed, and the day arrived on which, at the instance of the Bishop of
Ross, the nonconforming minister of Cromarty was to be ejected from his
parish.
It was early in December.
There had been a severe and still increasing snow-storm for the two
previous days ; the earth was deeply covered; and a strong biting gale
from the north-east was now drifting the snow half-way up the side-walls
of the manse. The distant hills rose like so many shrouded spectres over
the dark and melancholy sea—their heads enveloped in broken wreaths of
livid cloud ; nature lay dead ; and the very firmament, blackened with
tempest, seemed a huge burial vault. The wind shrieked and wailed like
an unhappy spirit among the turrets and chimneys of the old castle.
Dallas undid the covering of the shot-hole that looked down on the
manse, and then hastily shutting it, flung himself on his bed, where he
lay with his face folded in the bedclothes. Ere he had risen, the shades
of evening, deepened by a furious snow-shower, had set in. He again
unbolted the shot-hole and looked out. The flakes flew so thickly that
they obscured every nearer object, and wholly concealed the more remote
: even the manse had disappeared; but there was a faint gleam of light
flickering in that direction through the shower; and as the air cleared,
the chaplain could see that it proceeded from two lighted candles placed
in one of the windows. Dreading he knew not what, he descended the
turret stair, and on entering the hall found one of the domestics, an
elderly woman, preparing to quit it. “This,” he said, addressing her,
“is surely no night for going abroad, Martha?” “Ah, no!” replied the
woman, “but I am going to the manse; there is distress there. Mary
Anderson died this morning, and it will be a thin lyke-wake.” “Mary
Anderson! thin lyke-wake!” said Dallas, repeating her words as if
unconscious of their meaning: “I’ll go with you.” And, as if moved by
some impulse merely mechanical, he followed the woman.
The dead chamber was
profusely lighted, according to the custom of the country, and the bed,
with every other piece of furniture which it contained,, was hung with
white. The bereaved brother had shut himself up in his room, where he
might be heard at times as if struggling with inexpressible anguish in
the agony of prayer; and only two elderly women, one of them the nurse
of Mary, watched beside the corpse. With an unsteady step and pallid
countenance, on the lineaments of which a quiescent but settled despair
was frightfully impressed, Dallas entered the apartment and stood
fronting the bed. The nurse greeted him in a few brief words, expressive
of their mutual loss; but he saw her not—heard her not. He saw only the
long white shroud with its fearfully significant outline—heard only the
beatings of his own heart. The eyes of the good old woman filled with
tears as she gazed on him, and, slowly rising, she uncovered the face of
the dead. He bent forward; there was the open and beautiful forehead,
and there the exquisite features, thin and wasted ’tis true, but lovely
as ever. A faint smile still lingered on the lip; it was a smile that
called upon thoughts and feelings the most solemn and holy, and
whispered of the joys of immortality from amid the calm and awful
sublimity of death. “ Ah, my bairn! ” said the woman, “weel and lang did
she loe you, and meikle did she grieve for you and pray for you, when ye
went o’er to the prelates. But her griefs are a’ ended now. Ken ye,
Dallas, that for years an’ years she loed ye wi’ mair than a sister’s
luve, an’ that if she didna just meet wi’ your hopes, it was only
because she kent o’er weel she was to die young?” Dallas struck his open
palm against his forehead; a convulsive emotion shook his frame; and,
bursting into tears, he flung himself out of the room.
The funeral passed over;
and the brother of Mary quitted the parish a homeless and solitary man,
with a grieving heart but an unbroken spirit. He had to mourn both for
the dead and the estranged; and found that the low insults and cruel
suspicions of the persecutor dogged him wherever he went. But his state
was one of comfort compared with that of his hapless friend. Grief,
terror, and remorse, lorded it over the unfortunate chaplain by turns,
and what was at first but mere inquietude had become anguish. He was
sitting a few weeks after the interment in the eastern turret, his eyes
fixed vacantly on the fire, which was dying on the hearth at his feet,
when Sir John abruptly entered, and drew in his seat beside him.
“Your fire, nephew,” he
said, as he trimmed it, “very much resembles yourself. There is no lack
of the right material, but it wants just a little stirring, and is
useless for want of it. It is no time, Dallas, to be loitering away life
when a bright prospect of honourable ambition and extensive usefulness
is opening full before you. Wot you not that our neighbour the bishop,
now a worn-out old man, has been confined to his room for the last week?
And should my cousin of Tarbat and myself agree in recommending a
successor, as we unquestionably shall, where think you lies the
influence powerful enough to thwart us? But a diocese so important,
nephew, can be the prize of no indolent dreamer.”
“Uncle,” said Dallas, in
a tone of deep melancholy, “do you believe that those who have been once
awakened to the truth may yet fall away and perish?”
“Why perplex yourself
with such questions?” replied his uncle. “We are creatures intended for
both this world and the next; each demands that certain duties be
performed; and of all men, woe to him of a musing and speculative turn,
who, though not devoid of a sense of duty, fails in the requirements of
the present state. His thoughts become fiends to torment him. But up,
nephew, and act, and you will find that all will be well.”
“Act! How?—to what
purpose?—how read you the text —‘It is impossible for those who were
once enlightened, if they fall away, to renew them to repentance?’ I
have fallen— fallen for ever.”
“Dallas,” said Sir John,
“what wild thought has now possessed you?—You are but one of many
thousands;—I know not a more hopeful clergyman of your standing
connected with the Church.”
“Wretched, wretched
Church, if it be so! But what are her ministers? Trees twice dead,
plucked up by the roots— wandering stars, for whom is reserved the
blackness of darkness for ever. Yes, I am as hopeful as most of her
ministers. Mary Anderson told me what was coming; and, hypocrite that I
am! I believed her, and yet denied that I did. I saw her last night;
—she was beautiful as ever—but ah! there was no love, no pity in her
eye—and the wide, wide gulf was between us.” “Dearest nephew, why talk
so wildly?” exclaimed Sir John. “Uncle, you have ever been kind to me,”
replied Dallas; “ but you have ruined—no, wretched creature! ’twas I,
myself, who have owned my soul; and there is neither love nor gratitude
in the place to which I am going. O leave me to myself! my thoughts
become more fearful when I embody them in words;—leave me to myself!
and, uncle, while there is yet space, seek after that repentance which
is denied to me. Avoid the unpardonable sin.”
The strong mind of Sir
John was prostrated before the fearfully excited feelings of his nephew,
as a massy barrier of iron may be beaten down by a cannon-ball; and he
descended the turret stair rebuked and humbled by an energy more potent
than his own—as if, for the time, he and the young man had exchanged
characters. Next morning Dallas was nowhere to be found.
He was seen about
sunrise, by a farmer of the parish, passing hurriedly along the ridge of
the hill. The man, a staid Presbyterian, with whom he had once loved to
converse, had saluted him as he passed, and then paused for half a
second in the expectation that, as usual, he would address him in turn;
but he seemed wholly unconscious of his presence. His face, he said, was
of a deadly paleness, and his pace, though hurried, seemed strangely
unequal, as if he were exhausted by indisposition or fatigue. The day
wore on; and towards evening, Sir John, who could no longer conceal the
anxiety which he felt, ordered out all his domestics in quest of him.
But the night soon fell dark and rainy, and the party was on the eve of
relinquishing the search, when, in passing along the edge of the
Look-out, one of the servants observed something white lying on the
little grassy bank which surmounts the precipice. It was an open
Bible—the gift, as the title-page intimated, of Mary Anderson to Dallas
Urquhart. Sir John struck his clenched fist against his forehead.
“Gracious heaven!” he
exclaimed, “he has destroyed himself !—to the foot of the rock—to the
foot of the rock;—and haste! for the tide is fast rising. But stay—let
me forward— I will lead the way myself.”
And, passing through his
terrified attendants, he began to descend by a path nearly invisible in
the darkness, and which, winding along the narrow shelves of the
precipice, seemed barely accessible even by day to the light foot of the
schoolboy. There was only one of the many who now thronged the rock edge
who had courage enough to follow him—a tall spare man, wrapped up in a
dark-coloured cloak. As the path became narrower and more broken, and
overhung still more and more fearfully the dizzy descent, the stranger,
who passed lightly and steadily along, repeatedly extended his arm to
the assistance of the knight, who, through agitation and the stiffness
incident to a period of life considerably advanced, stumbled frightfully
as he hurried down. They reached the shore in safety together. All was
dismally solitary. They could see only the dark rock towering over them,
and the line of white waves which were tumbling over the beach, and had
now begun to lash the base of the precipice.
“Alas! my poor lost
friend!” ejaculated the stranger—“lost, alas! for ever, when I had hoped
most for thy return. Wretched, unfortunate creature! with little care of
thine own for the things of this world, and yet ever led away by those
who worshipped them as their only god—alas! alas! how hast thou
perished!”
“Spare me, Hugh
Anderson!” said Sir John, “spare me!— do not, I implore you, add to the
anguish of this miserable night!”
They walked together in
silence to where the waves barred their further progress, and then
returned to the top of the precipice. The search was renewed in the
morning, but as ineffectually as on the preceding night—there was no
trace of the body. Seasons passed away; Sir John, as has been already
related, perished by his own act; Episcopacy fell; and Hugh Anderson,
now a greyheaded .elderly man, was reappointed, after the lapse of more
than thirty years, to his old charge, the parish of Cromarty.
He had quitted it amid
the snow-wreaths of a severe and boisterous winter; he returned to it
after a storm of wind and snow from the sea had heaped the beach with
wrack and tangle, and torn their mantles of ivy from some of the higher
precipices. He revisited with anxious solicitude the well-remembered
haunts endeared to him by so many fond, yet mournful recollections—
Mary’s favourite walks—the cliffs which he had so often scaled with
Dallas—and the path which he had descended in the darkness with the
hapless Sir John. He paused at the foot of the precipice—the storm had
swept fiercely over its iron forehead, and an immense bush of ivy, that
had fallen from the ledge of the apple-yardie, lay withering at its
base. His eye caught something of unusual appearance amid the tom and
broken foliage—it was a human skull, bleached white by the rains and the
sunshine of many seasons, and a few disjointed and fractured bones lay
scattered near it. Painfully did he gather them up, and painfully
scooping out with his pointed stick a hollow in the neighbouring bank,
he shed, as he covered them up from the sight, the last tears that have
fallen to the memory of the lost Dallas Urquhart. |