ON the morning of Sunday, the 16th
of June, 1872, Dr. Macleod of the Barony was so much better that his
brother left him in comparative comfort, and when Professor Andrew
Buchanan saw him some hours afterwards, he was surprised at the great
improvement which had taken place. He felt so refreshed after taking some
food, about seven in the morning, that he asked his wife to sit beside
him, while he told her the deeper thoughts that were possessing his soul.
"I believe I will get better," he
said, "but I wish you to record for my good, and for our good afterwards,
that in this hurricane I have had deep thoughts of God. I feel as if He
said,—’ We know one another; I love you; I forgive you; I put my hands
round you ;—just as I would with my son, Norman," and here he laid his
hand tenderly on his wife’s head, adding,—" I have had few religious
exercises for the last ten days. If my son were ill I would not be angry
with him for not sending me a letter. But I have had constant joy, and the
happy thought continually whispered, ‘Thou art with me.’ Not many would
understand me. They would put down much that I have felt to the delirium
of weakness, but I have had deep spiritual insight"
When he was speaking of God’s
dealings, the expression of his face and his accents were as if he were
addressing One actually present. Still more intimately, it seemed, than
ever, his fellowship was with the Father and the Son. He again repeated
that he believed he would get better, and that his latter days would be
more useful than any former ones.
"I have neglected many things. I
have not felt as I ought how awfully good God is; how generous and
long-suffering; how He has put up with all my rubbish. It is enough
to crush me when I think of all His mercies" (as he said this he was
melted in tears); "mercy, mercy, from beginning to end. You and I have
passed through many lifestorms, but we can say, with peace, it has been
all right." He added something she could not follow as to what he would
wish to do in his latter days, and as to how he— "Would teach his darling
children to know and realise God’s presence."
Some hours afterwards two of his
daughters came to kiss him before going to church. "He took my hands in
both of his," one of them writes, "and told me I must come to see him
oftener."
"If I had strength," he said, "I
could tell you many things that would do you good through all your life. I
am an old man, and have passed through many experiences, but now all is
perfect peace and perfect calm. I have glimpses of heaven that no tongue,
or pen, or words can describe." The daughter who communicated this, states
:— "I kissed him on his dear forehead and went away crying, only because
he was so ill. When I next saw him he was, indeed, in perfect peace and
perfect calm."
The church bells had for some time
ceased to ring, and the quiet of the Lord’s Day rested on the city. His
wife and one of his sons were with him in the drawing-room, where he
remained chiefly sitting on the sofa. About twelve o’clock Mrs. Macleod
went to the door to give some direction about food. The sudden cry,—
"Mother, mother !" startled her, and when she hurried in she saw his head
had fallen back. There was a soft sigh, and gently, as one sinking into
sleep, his spirit entered into rest.