"Alas! regardless of their fate,
The little victims play;
No sense have they of ills to come,
No cares beyond to-day."
In passing by coach to
Cheltenham, in the year 1831, I dined with a very agreeable fellow at
Carlisle. It so happened that, in the course of conversation, I discovered
that he was a class-fellow of mine some forty-five years ago. But we had
been separated ever since; nor was there a single feature by which I could
recognise his countenance. He wore a wig, was sallow, withered, and almost
emaciated; whereas Charles M’Murdo, the boy of my acquaintance, was a
chubby, rosy imp, with a heart as light as a feather, and feet as swift as
a roe. Nevertheless, if I did not recognise him, he soon discovered me:
the change upon my person being less remarkable, as I had never left my
own country, nor been any way exposed to extreme climate, either of heat
or cold. He having some business to transact in London, as I had in
Cheltenham, we agreed, before parting, and whilst the guard was blowing
its horn, to rendezvous, on my return, at Liverpool, and to proceed north
in company with each other. Accordingly, at the appointed day and hour we
met; ordered a private room and a comfortable dinner at the Saddle, a
bottle of good old port, and a strict watch upon all intrusion. What a
night we had of it! All the scenes of our youth rose into review, and, as
glass after glass, and perhaps bottle after bottle, disappeared, our souls
warmed, our imaginations fired, our memories, like the churchyard at the
day of reckoning, "gave up the dead that were in them," and at last we all
but embraced each other, shaking hands from time to time, as the toast
arose to some old remembrance, some school companion now no more. There
had been twelve of us in the same class; and my friend and I were all that
remained, (like Job’s friends,) to think or to speak of the fate of the
rest. One, two, three, had gone to Jamaica, and had perished, sooner or
later, in quest or in possession of competence or wealth; two had been
ruined by dissipated company at college, had enlisted, and perished at
Waterloo; one had done well as a surgeon at Sierra Leone, but had fevered
at last and died. In short, the roll-call was mournful—we were the
skeleton of the class, its ghost, its shadow; but we were alive, beside a
comfortable fire and a cheerful gas light, and with wine before us; and it
is wonderful how soon we forgot the mournful recollection which would ever
and anon peep in upon us through the mazes of our many-hued discourse. At
last, our enthusiasm began somewhat to subside; we ordered tumblers and
hot water, with the necessary accompaniments, drew in the table closer to
the fire, for it was the month of November, and agreed each to give the
narrative of his own life and experience. My tale was soon told, nor would
it be any way interesting to the reader to hear it. I had been a
home-bird, and had attained, without much adventure or difficulty, a
respectable position in society; but my old companion had been tossed
about in the world, as he expressed it, like a quid of hay in the
throat of a cow; and I shall endeavour to put the reader in possession of
the outline of what Charles M’Murdo, that night, betwixt the hours of
seven and eleven, related to me in large detail.
You know, said he, my
debut: I was sent out to Jamaica, by Mr Watson, a rich planter, to act as
clerk on his plantations—in other words, to keep a large and terrible whip
in constant employ. Our voyage was tempestuous; I frequently felt as if
the ship, in her lurches into the trough of the sea, would never reascend,
but would go down head foremost to the bottom of the Atlantic. But our
captain was a skilful seaman, kept his men in heart, had his orders
promptly obeyed, and we weathered the storm. Landing at Kingston, I was
received in, what was termed, a warehouse, by an overseer, who, after
reading Mr Watson’a letter, cursed me as a supernumerary, and said I might
go where I liked, but I could not be there; they had too many of my sort
already. Watson, he called an old superannuated fool, who was determined,
seemingly, to ruin the estate by the mere expense of working it. In a
little, however, the storm blew over. Having drunk prettly deeply from a
tumbler of rum and water—at least so he called it, though for my part I
never could discover any trace of the water, and think this element might
easily have proved an alibi in any court of justice—he made me partake of
his beverage, and tumble in into a corner of a counting-room, beyond a
number of chairs, desks, and old ledgers. My bed was none of the best, but
the weather was exceedingly warm, and I contrived to sleep pretty soundly
till morning. Next day I was roused betimes by a black slave, naked to the
middle, and instructed in my day’s work. I was to join some four or five
slave-drivers at a common rendezvous, and with them to march a-field,
suitably provided for my task. I saw the poor slaves hard at work—digging
the soil, and planting slips of cane, under a most oppressive sun; I saw,
likewise, my hardened and inhuman associates applying the scourge to
mothers with children at the breast, to the old, and to the infirm. I
could not stand it; my heart sank within me. Oh, how I sighed for my own
native land, with all its advantages and endearments!—and how I cursed my
ambition, that had been kindled at the wheels of the chariot of Mr Watson,
who, though born poor as I was, had realised an immense fortune in
Jamaica!
Hereupon he burst out into
a eulogy on Britain, and the administration which had given liberty to the
slaves, and, at the same time remunerated the unhallowed proprietors; but,
after a short pause, during which I expressed my anxiety tc hear the
sequel of his story, he proceeded:— Well, custom will reconcile one to
anything. You will scarcely believe me when I tell you that, though shy at
first, and backward in the active discharge of my duty, I came at last to
regard it as a matter of course, and to imagine that the poor blacks did
not feel as I did, or experience the pain which such an infliction would
have occasioned to myself. I was one day chastising a fellow, who
absolutely refused to labour, on the score of indisposition, which I knew
or believed to be put on, when a little child, of the African breed, came
up to me, and, with a look of perfect nature and simplicity, said— "Ah,
massa, you no have father—yew never knew father—you no black man’s
boy—you no born at all, massa—you made of stone--you have no pity for poor
black boy’s pa!"
The speech struck me
exceedingly. I immediately ordered the father into the sick-house, and,
patting the boy on the head, said he was a good, kind-hearted boy, and I
would look after him for this. All this was repeated at headquarters, and
was represented as neglecting my duty, and conniving at the idle and the
dissolute amongst the slaves and I being summoned into the overseer’s
presence, was examined, confessed the truth, and was immediately dismissed
the estate.
Where was I to
turn?—Without a character, no other plantation would admit my services.
The heavens over my head were iron, the earth was brass. I could get no
employment, and to beg I was ashamed. I wandered down to the sea-shore,
and in my excursion met with several ladies and gentlemen, riding on
beautiful chargers, talking and laughing loudly all the while—and I wished
to be one of them. It was this stimulus which had set me in motion made me
cross the Atlantic, and submit to great indignities—and yet here I was, an
outcast less valuable than the wrecks which lined the bay. No one of the
various cavalcades took the least notice of me; and I seated myself, at
last, on a rock, and began to plunge little water-worn pebbles into the
smooth bay. After a considerable interval of most poignant despair, the
little black boy made his appearance and told me that he had just heard of
my dismissal, and that his father wished to see me in the hospital. I went
with the boy, half stupified, and almost unconscious of either motive or
motion. The poor, grateful creature wished me to take some money, which he
had accumulated by his Sabbath afternoon industry; but I refused it at
once, though I did so with tears of gratitude in my eyes. He then informed
me that he had formerly slaved on an adjoining plantation, and that his
former master was of a more kindly disposition than the present one. He
had just heard of the death of one of his clerks, and, if I would present
myself immediately, ere the next fleet should arrive with a fresh supply
of slave-drivers, he had no doubt but, from my appearance, and my good
hand of writing, I might find employment. I took the honest creature’s
advice; and, accompanied by little Ebony, made the best of my way to
Hillside plantation, about a mile and a-half from Kingston. The
kind-hearted boy went before me, and, chancing to meet Mr Ferguson,
the proprietor of Hillside estate, he threw himself on his knees before
him, in the most imploring manner—
"Young gentleman dismissed;
but he no ill—he kind to poor father—he very kind to black man when sick.
Massa know poor Gabby."
Ere the boy had risen from
his knees, I had presented myself to Mr Ferguson, and told my own story
precisely as it stood. Luckily for me, Mr Ferguson and my former employer
were upon the worst terms possible; so I found no difficulty in getting a
temporary appointment, on trial. It is said, somewhere, that despotism is
the best of all governments, when the despot is a good man. This is truly
verified in these islands. Nothing can differ more than does the usage of
the slaves in different plantations. The overseer, Mr Handy, on Watson’s
plantation, he whom I had just left, was a brutal person, almost
constantly under the excitement or reaction of rum, and his slaves were
constantly beaten, and ill-used in every way; whereas the Hillside slaves
were allowed all possible indulgences, and really seemed quite happy. They
used to go about, on the fine Jamaica evenings, singing, dancing, and
playing upon instruments, visiting and returning visits, and enjoying all
the happiness of which their state was susceptible. I lived two years on
this plantation, and was handsomely paid as a clerk. I now for the first
time began to think of accumulating money, with the view of purchase or
partnership. But an incident occurred at this stage of my fortunes, which
gave them an unforeseen turn. I was kidnapped, whilst walking on the
sea-shore, rather late one evening, and immediately carried on board a
vessel, which sailed ere morning. This had been done, as I afterwards
understood, under the direction of Handy; who, having heard of my good
fortune and prosperity, persuaded a brother of his, who traded to Hudson’s
Bay in the fur trade, to carry me there, and keep me out of his sight. He
could not bear to think that I might possibly one day come to effect an
establishment in his immediate neighbourhood. Captain Handy was a cruel,
despotic, weatherbeaten piece of mortality; he carried me in a few months
to Hudson’s Bay, and had me introduced into a great house in the fur
trade. In vain, when I got ashore, did I remonstrate against the violence
which had been used in regard to me; I was immediately clothed in warm
garments, armed with a musket, and marched over-land, along with about ten
or twelve copper-faced Indians, towards the upper lakes of the St
Lawrence. Our ultimate destination was Lake Superior. There we were
commissioned to trade with the Indians, exchanging muskets, spirits, and
various kinds of cutlery, for fur skins. There was a small settlement in
the centre of the lake, but there were not sufficient provisions for the
additional numbers during winter; so we were expected to return on land,
to the settlement on Hudson’s Bay ere the winter set in. But, this year,
the American winter commenced a month earlier than usual, and with
unprecedented severity. We had nothing but one log-house to accommodate
upwards of thirty people but this erection was of considerable extent, and
leaned against several growing trees. Our situation became immediately all
but desperate. You can have no idea of an American winter in such
latitudes. (Hereupon I stirred the fire, and helped myself to a glass of
toddy.) The snow comes on at once, and the atmosphere is so loaded and
thickened with drift, that you may out it into cubes with a knife. And
then the snow, which in a few hours accumulates over your dwelling to the
very roof, penetrates everywhere through your wooden erection. In spite of
a blazing hearth, you are shivering almost in the midst of the flame. The
horrors of that winter I can never forget; we were, long ere New Year’s
Day, reduced to our daily shifts for our daily food. Had it not been for
our Indian friends, we should have perished of hunger to a man; but their
skill in archery, and even in ball shooting, is altogether incredible.
Nothing borne on wings over our heads escaped them. The bow was lifted
immediately to the eye, the arrow was pointed, and followed for a small
space the course of the bird; it flew, but apparently not straight for the
object, but greatly in advance of it; but, ere it had gained its utmost
ascent, the winged and the feathered-objects had crossed on their courses,
and the prey fell immediately, transfixed by the arrow. We broke the ice,
too, of the lake, which was often three feet in thickness, and, with bait
prepared by the Indians, of the seeds of trees, decoyed occasionally some
half-starved fish to our lines. But with all appliances and means to boot,
we became perfect skeletons, several died of various complaints, all
brought on by cold, and spare as well as unwholesome diet. Oh, what would
I then have given for a dinner such as we have enjoyed this day! But, not
to fatigue you with exclamations and with representations of suffering
which to you must seem incredible, the winter gave way at last, and its
departure was agreeably unexpected with its approach; the thaw came as
much earlier as the frost had anticipated its average approach. Our boats
were again on the lake, and we were enabled to ship off our skins for
their ultimate destination, Montreal. As I had shown considerable talents,
and what they termed mettle, during the winter trials, the commander of
the party had me boated off, along with the skins, for Mr Syme’s
warehouse, at Montreal. Here I met with a friend, in a cousin of my
mother. He immediately took me into his warehouse.
By this time I was
sufficiently tired of a moving life; like the rolling stone of the
proverb, I had gathered no fog— "movebam, sed nil promovebam." I
was very happy, therefore, when Mr Syme proposed my remaining at least
some time with him, in the capacity mentioned. Montreal, as everybody
knows, is situated upon an island in the St Lawrence, and few places could
be more advantageous for trade, or more picturesque in appearance. In the
centre of the island, there rises a beautiful eminence, still covered with
trees of the primeval American forests; and towards the eastern skies lies
the town itself, upper and lower, adorned with public buildings, and
presenting, as you approach it, a very prepossessing aspect. Mr Syme had a
warehoume, at a place called Chine, about eight miles up, and immediately
upon the river. Here the furs were shipped for Europe, and Britain in
particular; and here it was my duty to remain, except on Sundays, when I
constantly dined with my kind relative. Mr Syme had an only daughter, two
sons having died, and the mother likewise, whilst being delivered of the
last. This daughter was now a young woman of nineteen, and sufficiently
handsome for matrimony, considering that she was to inherit her father’s
wealth and business, which was itself a mine of gain. Her father, who in
many respects was a kind-hearted and a prudent man, was as obstinate as an
old oak-trunk when he took it into his head to be so. Most people have
some weak side or other—and this was his. He had determined, from the time
when Samuel Horseman, the rich merchant (the richest, it was supposed, in
the island,) had rocked his Nancy in the cradle, and had suffered himself
to be scorned with the child, that Nancy should one day or other be Mrs
Horseman; and that thus, by the union of their families and their
fortunes, there should not be a firm in Montreal that would once be spoken
of in the same day with Horseman, Syme, & Co. This idea had grown with the
growth of the child, and had strengthened with her strength—it was never
twenty-four hours out of his head. But, one dreadful afternoon, Horseman
arrived from Quebec, with a little pretty French milliner, whom he had
married. This was death to Syme’s plans and prospects, and so he set
immediately about cutting Horseman, and looking out for some other
advantageous way of disposing of his article, which had now seen
some fourteen summers. But before he could settle upon any particular
individual, he was relieved from his disappointment, and restored to his
intercourse with Horseman, by a gallant serjeant, who claimed Mrs Horseman
as his lawful and married wife; in fact, there were several claimants; but
one was as good as a hundred to Horseman, who, by this time, was heartily
tired of his partner, and would have willingly seen her attempting a
voyage of discovery over the falls of Niagara. Syme soon redoubled his
diligence, and gave his daughter to understand that, so soon as she had
attained the age of nineteen, the age of her mother when she became a
bride, she should be exalted to all the honours and privileges of Mrs
Horseman.
There are two, it is said,
at a bargain-making; but that is merely the minimum; in this case,
there were three, and ultimately four. Miss Syme had been exceedingly
annoyed by her father’s unreasonable arrangement; she, of course, disliked
Horseman, as she did everything old, ugly, snuffy, and bandy-legged; but
her father was incessant in his importunities, or rather --commands, and
matters were in this state when the friend now addressing you made his
appearance, and took up his principal residence at Chine. It was not long
before Miss Syme and I came to understand each other. I do not know how it
was—I was not romantically in love—perhaps it is not in my nature; but I
was willing to hear the poor girl’s story, and to mingle tears with hers.
We never talked of love; but yet, somehow or other, it made an inroad upon
the debateable territory on both sides, til we felt that we were assuredly
over head and ears, from the circumstance that, like Darby and Joan, "we
were ever uneasy asunder." The father began to smell a rat, as they say—at
least you and I have often said whilst at school—and he was in a furious
passion, threatened dismissal to me and imprisonment to Nancy. In the
meantime, death, in the shape of an ague, carried Horseman beyond the
reach of matrimony—he went to that land where there is neither marrying
nor giving in marriage; and I became every day more and more useful to my
employer. It was manifest to all that his heart had now softened, and that
he had come to see the utter folly of human schemes when controverted by
the decrees of heaven. One day he was up at Chine, seeing some furs
shipped for London; when, in passing from the shore to the ship, he
slipped a foot, and fell into the water. There was no one who observed
this but myself; as all the men were busily engaged. I immediately plunged
headlong into the somewhat rapid stream. He was not to be found. The
current had borne him downwards, and a water-dog, which was kept on
purpose on board, was in the act, as I perceived, of dragging the body
ashore. I assisted the animal, and got the credit of saving my friend.
I need not delay you
longer. I married Mr Syme’s daughter, and succeeded, at his death, to the
whole concern, which I have just wound up; and, having left my wife and an
only daughter in London, I am on my way to visit, by surprise, my aged
mother, who still lives in the place of my birth, and to purchase, if
possible, a property in the neighhourhood, there to spend in peace, and
affection, and domestic love, the evening of my days.—Will you go with me
to Lastcairn?
I agreed. We drove up the
glen, by Croalchapel; and my friend was all absence, and inward
rumination, and anticipated delight. But the footsteps of death were in
the threshold. His aged parent was still alive and sensible, but
manifestly fast going. She was made sensible that her long, lost Charlie,
who had been so kind to her in her old age, was before her. She tried to
stretch forth her withered arm, but it was scathed by death. She received
the last embrace of her son, said something about "depart in peace," and
fell asleep. |