‘Latin to him’s no more difficil,
Than for a blackbird ‘tis to whistle.’
The classics, indeed, were
his particular hobby; and, though I was proud o’ Sandy, I often wished
that I could direct his bent to studies o’ greater practical utility. His
exercises showed that he had an evident genius for poetry, and that o’ a
very high order; but his parents were poor, and I dinna see what poetry
was to put in his pocket. I, therefore, by no means encouraged him to
follow out what I conceived to be a profitless though a pleasing
propensity; but, on the contrary, when I had an opportunity o’ speakin’ to
him by himsel’, I used to say to him—
‘Alexander, ye have a happy
turn for versification, and there is both boldness and originality about
your ideas— though no doubt they would require a great deal of pruning
before they could appear in a respectable shape before the world. But you
must not indulge in verse-writing. When you do it, let it only be for an
exercise, or for amusement when you have nothing better to do. It may make
rhyme jingle in your ears, but it will never make sterling coin jink in
your pockets. Even the immortal Homer had to sing his own verses about the
streets; and ye have heard the epigram—
‘Seven cities now contend for
Homer dead,
Through which the living Homer begged
his bread.’
Boethius, like Savage in
our own days, died in a prison; Terrence was a slave, and Plautus did the
work of a horse. Cervantes perished for lack of food, on the same day that
our great Shakspeare died; but Shakspeare had worldly wisdom as well as
heavenly genius. Camoens died in an alms-house. The magical Spenser was a
supplicant at Court for years for a paltry pension, till hope deferred
made his heart sick, and he vented his disappointment in these words—
‘I was promised, on a time,
To have reason for my ryhme:
From that time unto this season,
I received not rhyme nor reason.’
Butler asked for bread, and
they gave him a stone. Dryden lived between the hand and the mouth. Poor
Otway perished through penury; and Chatterton, the inspired boy,
terminated his wretchedness with a pennyworth of poison. But there is a
more striking example than these, Sandy. It was but the other day, that
our immortal countryman, Robbie Burns—the glory o’ our age—sank, at our
very door neglected and in poverty, wi’ a broken heart, into the grave.
‘Sandy,’ added I, ‘never think o’ being a poet. If ye attempt it, ye will
embark upon an ocean where, for every one that reaches their desired
haven, ninety and nine become a wreck.’
On such occasions, Sandy
used to listen most attentively an’ crack to me very auld-farrantly. Well,
sir, it was just after ye went to learn to be a doctor, that I resolved to
try an’ do something to push him forward mysel, as his parents were not in
ability; and I had made application to a gentleman on his behalf, to use
his influence to procure him a bursary in ane e’ the universities, when
Sandy’s faither died, and, puir man, left hardly as meikle behind him as
would pay the expenses o’ his funeral. This was a death-blow to Sandy’s
prospects an’ my hopes. He wasna seventeen at the time, and his widowed
mother had five bairns younger. He was the only ane in the family that she
could look up to as a bread-winner. It was about harvest; an’, when the
shearing commenced, he went out wi’ ithers an’ took his place on the rig.
As it was his first year, an’ he was but a learner, his wages were but sma’;
but, sma’ as they were, at the end o’ the season he brought them hame, an’
my puir blighted scholar laddie thought himsel’ a man, when he placed his
earnings, to a farthing, in his mother’s hand.
I was sorry for Sandy. It
pained me to see one by whom I had had so much credit, and who, I was
conscious, would make ane o’ the brightest ornaments o’ the pu’pit that
ever entered it, throwing his learning and his talents awa, an’ doomed to
be a labouring man. I lost mony a night’s sleep on his account; but I was
determined to serve him if I could, and I at last succeeded in getting him
appointed tutor in a gentleman’s family o’ the name o’ Crompton, owre in
Cumberland. He was to teach twa bits o’ laddies English and arithmetic,
Latin and Greek. He wasna out eighteen when he entered upon the duties o’
his office; and great cause had I to be proud o’ my scholar, an’ satisfied
wi’ my recommendation; for, before he had been six months in his
situation, I received a letter from the gentleman himself, intimating his
esteem for Sandy, the great progress his sons had made under his tuition,
and expressin’ his gratitude to me for recommending such a tutor. He was,
in consequence, kind and generous to my auld scholar, and he doubled his
wages, and made him presents beside; so that Sandy was enabled to assist
his mother and his brethren.
But we ne’er hae a sunny
day, though it be the langest day in summer, but, sooner or later, a rainy
ane follows it. Now, Mr. Crompton had a daughter about a year younger than
Sandy. She wasna what people would ca’ a pretty girl, for I hae seen her;
but she had a sonsy face and intelligent een. She also, forsooth, wrote
sonnets to the moon, and hymns to the rising sun. She, of a’ women was the
maist likely to bewitch him. A strong liking sprang up between them. They
couldna conceal their partiality for ane anither. He was everything that
was perfect in her een, an’ she was an angel in his. Her name was Ann; and
he had celebrated it in every measure, from the hop-and-step line of four
syllables to that o’ fourteen, which rolleth like the echoing o’ a
trumpet.
Now, her faither, though a
ceevil, an’ a kind man, was also a shrewd, sharp-sighted, and determined
man; an’ he saw the flutter that had risen up in the breasts o’ his
daughter and the young tutor. So he sent for Sandy, and without seeming to
be angry wi’ him, or even hinting at the cause—
‘Mr. Rutherford," said he,
‘you are aware that I am highly gratified with the manner in which you
have discharged the duties of tutor to my boys; but I have been thinking
that it will be more to their advantage that their education, for the
future, be a public one, and to-morrow I intend sending them to a
boarding-school in Yorkshire.’
‘To-morrow!’ said Sandy,
mechanically, scarce knowing what he said, or where he stood.
‘To-morrow,’ added Mr.
Crompton, ‘and I have sent for you, sir, in order to settle with you,
respecting your salary.’
This was bringing the
matter home to the business and the bosom of the scholar somewhat
suddenly. Little as he was versed in the ways of the world, something like
the real cause for the hasty removal of his pupils to Yorkshire, began to
dawn upon his mind. He was stricken with dismay and with great agony, and
he longed to pour out his soul upon the gentle bosom of Ann. But she had
gone on a visit, with her mother, to a friend in a different part of the
country, and Mr. Crompton was to set out with his sons for Yorkshire on
the following day. Then, also, would Sandy have to return to the humble
roof of his mother. When he retired to pack up his books and his few
things, he wrung his hands—yea, there were tears upon his cheeks; and, in
the bitterness of his spirit, he said—
‘My own sweet Ann! and I
shall never see thee again— never hear thee—never hope!’ And he laid his
hand upon his forehead, and pressed it there, repeating as he did s0—
‘never! oh, never!’
I was surprised beyond measure when
Sandy came back to Annan, and, wi’ a wo-begone countenance
called upon me. I thought that Mr. Crompton was not a man of the
discernment and sagacity that I had given him credit to be, and I desired
Sandy not to lay it so sair to heart, for that something else would cast
up. But, in a day or two, I received a letter from the gentleman himself,
showing me how matters stood, and giving me to understand the why
and the wherefore.
‘O the gowk!’ said I, ‘what
business had he to fa’ in love, when he had the bairns an’ his books to
mind.’
So I determined to rally
him a wee thought on the subject, in order to bring him back to his
senses; for, when a haffins laddie is labouring under the first dizziness
o’ a bonny lassie’s influence, I dinna consider that he is capable o’
either seeing, feeling, hearing, or acting wi’ the common-sense discretion
o’ a reasonable being. It is a pleasant heating and wandering o’ the
brain. Therefore, the next time I saw him—
‘Sandy,’ says I, ‘wha was’t
laid Troy in ashes?’ He at first started and stared at me, rather vexed
like, but at last, he answered, wi’ a sort o’ forced laugh—
‘A woman.’
‘A woman, was it?’ says I;
‘an’ wha was the cause o’ Sandy Rutherford losing his situation as tutor,
an’ being sent back to Annan?’
‘Sir!’ said he, and he
scowled down his eye-brows, and gied a look at me that would hae spained a
ewe’s lamb. I saw that he was too far gone, and that his mind was in a
state that it would not be safe to trifle wi’; so I tried him no more upon
the subject.
Weel, as his mother, puir
woman, had enough to do, and couldna keep him in idleness, and as there
was naething for him in Annan, he went to Edinburgh to see what would cast
up, and what his talents and education would do for him
there. He had recommendations from several gentlemen, and also from
myself. But month after month passed on, and he was like to hear of
nothing. His mother was becoming extremely unhappy on his account, and the
more so because he had given up writing, which astonished me a great deal,
for I could not divine the cause of such conduct as not to write to his
own mother, to say that he was well or what he was doing; and I was the
more surprised at it because of the excellent opinion I had entertained of
his character and disposition. However, I think it would be about six
months after he had left, I received a letter from him; and, as that
letter is of importance in giving you an account of his history, I shall
just step along to the school for it, where I have it carefully placed in
my desk, and shall bring it and any other papers that I think may be
necessary in giving you an account of your other schoolfellows."
Thus saying, Dominie
Grierson, taking up his three-cornered hat and silver-mounted
walking-stick, stalked out of the room. And, as people generally like to
have some idea of the sort of person who is telling them a story, I shall
here describe to them the appearance of Mr. Grierson. He was a
fine-looking old man, about five feet nine inches high—his age might be
about threescore and fifteen, and he was a bachelor. His hair was as white
as the driven snow, yet as fresh and as thick as though he had been but
thirty. His face was pale. He could not properly be called corpulent, but
his person had an inclination that way. His shoes were fastened with large
silver buckles; he wore a pair of the finest black lambs’-wool stockings;
breeches of the same colour, fastened at the knees by buckles similar to
those in his shoes. His coat and waistcoat were also black, and both were
exceedingly capacious; for the former, with its broad skirts, which
descended almost to his heels, would have made a greatcoat now-a-days; and
in the kingly flaps of the latter, which defended his loins, was cloth
enough and to spare to have made a modern vest. This, with the
broad-brimmed, round-crowned, three-cornered hat, already referred to, a
pair of spectacles, and the silver-mounted cane, completed the outward
appearance of Dominie Grierson, with the exception of his cambric
handkerchief, which was whiter than his own locks, and did
credit to the cleanliness of his housekeeper, and her skill as a
laundress.
In a few moments he
returned with Sandy’s letter and other papers in his hand, and helping
himself to another glass of wine, he rubbed the glass of his spectacles
with his handkerchief, and said—
‘Now, doctor, here is poor
Sandy’s letter; listen and ye shall hear it.’
‘Edinburgh, June
10, 17—.
‘HONOURED SIR,—I fear that, on
account of my not having written to you, you will, ere now, have accused
me of ingratitude; and when I tell you that, until the other day, I have
not for months even written to my mother, you may think me undutiful as
well as ungrateful. But my own breast holds me guiltless of both. When I
arrived here I met with nothing but disappointments, and those I found at
every hand. For many weeks I walked the streets of this city in despair;
hopeless as a fallen angel. I was hungry, and no one gave me to eat; but
they knew not that I was in want. Keen misery held me in its grasp—ruin
caressed me, and laughed at its plaything. I will not pain you by
detailing a catalogue of the privations I endured, and which none but
those who have felt and fathomed the depths of misery, can imagine.
Through your letter of recommendation, I was engaged to give private
lessons to two pupils, but the salary was small, and that was only to be
paid quarterly. While I was teaching them, I was starving, living on a
penny a-day. But this was not all. I was frequently without a lodging; and
being expelled from one for lack of the means of paying for it, it was
many days before I could venture to inquire for another. My lodging was on
a common stair, or on the bare sides of the Calton; and my clothes from
exposure to the weather, became unsightly. They were no longer fitting
garments for one who gave lessons in a fashionable family. For several
days I observed the eyes of the lady of the house where I taught, fixed
with a most supercilious and scrutinizing expression upon my shabby and
unfortunate coat. I saw and felt that she was weighing the shabbiness of
my garments against my qualifications, and I trembled for the consequence.
In a short time, my worst fears were realized; for, one day, calling as
usual, instead of being shown into a small parlour, where I gave my
lessons, the man-servant, who opened the door, permitted me to stand in
the lobby, and, in two minutes, returned with two guineas upon a small
silver plate, intimating, as he held them before me, that ‘the services of
Mr. Rutherford were no longer required.’ The sight of the two guineas took
away the bitterness and mortification of the abrupt dismissal. I pocketed
them, and engaged a lodging; and never, until that night did I know or
feel the exquisite luxury of a deep, dreamless sleep. It was bathing in
Lethe, and rising refreshed, having no consciousness, save the grateful
feeling of the cooling waters of forgetfulness around you. Having, some
weeks ago, translated an old deed which was written in Latin, for a
gentleman who is what is called an in-door advocate, and who has an
extensive practice, he has been pleased to take me into his office, and
has fixed on me a liberal salary. He advises me to push my way to the bar,
and kindly promises his assistance. I shall follow his advice, and I
despair not but that I may one day solicit the hand of the only woman I
ever have loved, or can love, from her father, as his equal.—I am, Sir,
yours indebtedly,
‘ALEX. RUTHERFORD.’
Now, sir (continued the
dominie), about three years after I had received this letter, my old
scholar was called to the bar, and a brilliant first appearance he made.
Bench, bar, and jury, were lost in wonder at the power o’ his eloquence. A
Demosthenes had risen up amongst them. The half o’ Edinburgh spoke o’
naething but the young advocate. But it was on the very day that he made
his first appearance as a pleader, that I received a letter from Mr.
Crompton, begging to know if I could gie him ony information respecting
the old tutor o’ his family, and stating, in the language of a
broken-hearted man, that his only daughter was then upon her death-bed,
and that before she died she begged she might be permitted to see and to
speak with Alexander Rutherford. I enclosed the letter, and sent it off to
the young advocate. He was sitting at a dinner-party, receiving the homage
of beauty, and the congratulations of learned men, when the fatal letter
was put into his hands. He broke the seal—his hand shook as he read—his
cheeks grew pale—and large drops of sweat burst upon his brow. He rose
from the table. He scarce knew what he did. But, within half-an-hour, he
was posting on his way to Cumberland. He reached the house, her parents
received him with tears, and he was conducted into the room where the
dying maiden lay. She knew his voice as he approached.
‘He is come!—he is come!—he
loves me still!’ cried the poor thing, endeavouring to raise herself upon
her elbow.
Sandy approached the
bedside—he burst into tears—he bent down and kissed her pale and wasted
cheeks, over which death seemed already to have cast its shadow.
‘Ann! my beloved Ann!’ said
he, and he took her hand in his, and pressed it to his lips; ‘do not leave
me; we shall yet be happy!’
Her eyes brightened for a
moment—in them joy struggled with death and the contest was unequal. From
the day that he had been sent from her father’s house, she had withered
away as a tender flower that is transplanted to an unkindly soil. She
desired that they would lift her up, and she placed her hand upon his
shoulder, and, gazing anxiously in his face, said—
‘And Alexander still loves
me—even in death!’
‘Yes dearest—yes!’ he
replied. But she had scarce heard his answer, and returned it with a smile
of happiness, when her head sank upon his bosom, and a deep sigh escaped
from hers. It was her last. Her soul seemed only to have lingered till her
eyes might look on him. She was removed a corpse from his breast; but on
that breast the weight of death was still left. He became melancholy—his
ambition died—she seemed to have been the only object that stimulated him
to pursue fame and to seek for fortune. In intense study he sought to
forget his grief—or rather he made them companions—till his health broke
under them; and, in the thirtieth year of his age, died one who possessed
talents and learning that would have adorned his country, and rendered his
name immortal. Such, sir is the brief history o’ yer auld class-fellow,
Solitary Sandy.