In the present paper we
will endeavour to record the history, so far, of two human beings, in
which a sacrifice of the most generous character appears, with its
results—a sacrifice which is not uncommon; but which, we trust, is seldom
called for to the extent which it assumes in the case before us.
Mr Wilson was, at one time,
a thriving merchant in an extensive manufacturing town in England. He was
a man of middle age, of a cheerful disposition; and he was the pride of a
little circle of friends, of cultivated tastes and liberal acquirements.
Among the pleasures which he enjoyed, and had a passion in the pursuit of,
was the truly innocent and fascinating one of a love for the fine arts. He
drew beautifully, and painted well; and his patronage of those who
followed painting as a profession, was liberal as it was well-judged. Of
many who felt the effects of his generosity, was a poor, widowed lady, who
taught drawing in his neighbourhood. This lady had one child—a little girl
of about twelve years of age, whose father had died while she was but an
infant. Accustomed to mingle in scenes of fashionable life, the mother, on
a reverse of fortune, which overtook her at the death of her husband,
retired, with her child, to the busy town of which Mr Wilson was a
denizen, and there devoted her talents as a teacher of drawing—in which
art she was no mean proficient—to the honourable purpose of supporting
herself and little girl. Mr Wilson, to whom she had been introduced, was
of much service to this amiable woman, in recommending pupils to her care,
and in furnishing her with many comforts and conveniences at her outset in
her new line of life. He also became a father to her child; and, in her
twelfth year, he resolved to educate and adopt her as his heir. Jane
Fitzwilliam—for that was the favoured girl’s name— was a most affectionate
creature, and dearly did she repay the kindness, in her latter years,
which was lavished on her youth. Since ever she could distinguish betwixt
one individual and another, she had been accustomed to recognise Mr Wilson
as her father; and when she lost the society of her mother, who was
carried away from her by death, about two years after the period of her
adoption, she was received into his family, and placed at the head of his
establishment.
Jane had a lover, unknown
to her protector, in a young man, an assistant in one of the schools where
she had received part of her education. He was poor, and she was the
presumed heir to considerable wealth; but this did not hinder her from
giving up her affections into the scholar’s keeping. The two, it might be
said, were formed for each other. He was of a bold, resolute character,
and a person of considerable natural ability. Not decidedly handsome, he
could, when he chose to exert himself, be perfectly fascinating in the
presence of the fair sex—a power which is often bestowed on those who have
been denied mere beauty of face or form, as if in indemnity for nature’s
niggardliness otherwise. Jane, on the other hand, was a retiring little
creature, simple, modest unpretending, and secretly proud of the talents
of her lover. Hers was not a mind of that strong and decided cast out of
which one could make a heroine for a novel. She was rather being formed
for dependence on one her superior in bodily and mental capacity. From
this it is not meant to be inferred that she was incapable of entertaining
a sincere and lasting affection; on the contrary, such a character is in
general the opposite, when put to the test.
Things ran on in an even
current of happiness and prosperity with Mr Wilson and his adopted
daughter. She was now a woman of nineteen, and had received several offers
of marriage, which she invariably refused; affirming that she would never
leave the house of her benefactor until he was tired of her company—a
thing not very likely ever to take place. He set down her refusals to
enter the married state, to a very different reason from the right one;
which was her love for the poor tutor, who was still unable to support a
wife, but who ardently looked forward to the time when fortune would prove
more propitious, and enable him to open an academy on his own account. Mr
Wilson, knowing nothing of this, began to suspect that his ward’s
affections were fixed upon himself; and, although the disparity in their
ages might have opened his eyes to a different conviction, still, as
nothing transpired to whisper to him the true state of the matter, he
indulged in the delightful dream, until it became to him an all-engrossing
attachment.
There is nothing so
fluctuating as prospects of human happiness. A single day will often bring
about the most distressing results to families, in the commercial world.
So did it with the amiable gentleman whom we have introduced under the
name of Mr Wilson. One day made him a poor man—poorer even than when he
first began business as a merchant. How this came about, is of little
consequence to the facts of the story. Losses at sea, and failures at
home—unsuccessful speculation—a turn of the card; these have ruined
hundreds before, and, some of them combined, did so in his case. With that
spirit of honesty, which had hitherto been his pride, he disposed of his
handsome house furniture, pictures, everything that could remind him of
his former position in society, and prepared to travel to Scotland, where
he intended following some calling, in an humble way, among strangers who
could not know his past history. It was now that he was tempted to offer
marriage to Jane Fitzwilliam; for he now felt, and said so, that her
cherishing care and kindness were necessary to his existence. What an
unenviable position for a young woman so circumstanced as she was! Had he
asked her hand during his prosperity, she might, perhaps, at once have
decided on a refusal; but now. when he was bowed down by sorrow—deserted
by the world—almost helpless but for her—how could she act? She had never
told him of her young love—and could she tell him now? Could she otherwise
than show him in this that he had been nursing a viper in his bosom, only
to sting him incurably at the last? But who can tell her thoughts, her
feelings, or paint the agony of her mind! She was bound to her benefactor
for a thousand kindnesses, which all claimed her gratitude. Yet, again,
her poor scholar—had he no right to be consulted? She scarcely dared to
think of him—gratitude triumphed over love—she did not dare to see him!
Perhaps the fact that she was about to leave the scenes of her youth, and
could be no more haunted by the upbraiding presence of her lover—that she
had now, at least, an opportunity of returning a portion of that almost
paternal love which had been lavished on her since infancy, as the wife of
his bosom—might have swayed her in the reply she made to the wishes of Mr
Wilson. They were married, and reached Scotland together.
Whatever may be said of the
step taken by this young woman—whether it may be said that she acted
unjustly towards her lover, or disingenuously towards both lover and
husband—there is this much certain, that she looked herself; on her
conduct, in the light of a merited and meritorious sacrifice; and she was
now to show that she felt it to be no such thing. This was, perhaps, the
most trying difficulty of all; yet most nobly did she fulfil all the
duties of a kind and affectionate wife. In consequence of a farewell
letter which she received from the poor tutor, after reaching Scotland,
her husband, to whom she showed it, was made aware, for the first time, of
all that she had done, and must have suffered for his sake, and the
knowledge, although painful, was not without a favourable effect. It made
him renew every effort to gain the station in society which misfortune had
deprived him of, and do everything in his power to make life pleasant to
his wife.
Some years ago, I had the
good fortune to become acquainted with this amiable family. Mr Wilson was
then not an old man; but, placed beside his wife, he looked like one who
might be her father rather than her husband. He was at that time in easy,
if not comfortable circumstances, and his wife had made him the happy
father of three fine children. Wilson was an agreeable conversationist,
had seen much and read a good deal, and his society was always inviting.
Many a pleasant chat we have had together in his little parlour, which was
tastefully ornamented with many of his own productions with the pencil. It
was quite a treat to spend an evening in his house. His wife, if not
buoyant in spirits, looked always pleased and happy; and so fond of her
old man, as she playfully called him, that one who did not know the early
history of the pair, could not but say, judging from every appearance,
that theirs had been quite a love match. What I liked best about her, was
her unaffected sincerity of welcome to all her husband’s friends. Nor did
this extend to mere words of course, and the ordinary hospitalities of
friendly intercourse; she was constantly devising some simple enjoyment
with which to take her husband and his friends by surprise. Thus, on a
Christmas eve, has she led a little party, headed by the "old man," who
had been perhaps engaged in business all day and knew nothing of her
arrangements, into her parlour, which was pleasantly surrounded with
evergreens, the tables well filled with dishes of her own preparing—pure
English dishes! How she did enjoy the look and the smile of her husband on
such occasions!—and how her heart beat in unison with his, as he would
exclaim—"Ay, this does bring me in mind of England!"—And then he would
kiss his youngest boy, and tell him to kiss mamma, for being so very kind!
I have just now a card of invitation to one of these happy parties lying
before me—the turning up of which the other day, among some old letters,
set me to write thus far. On reperusing it, I am reminded of the joyous
night I spent with Wilson and his friends on the occasion. There was
music, and dancing, and conversatioo, and fruits, and flowers, and faces
beaming with happiness. Four years have not elapsed since then. That night
seems but a dream; and these faces are all gone, or scattered over the
world—some of them in distant lands.
Poor Wilson was seized with
a lingering illness, which confined him to bed. The devotedness and
attention to his every wish and want, which his kind wife then displayed,
were beyond anything that could be fabled. In that last, painful hour of
his pilgrimage on earth, it was permitted him to receive a full reward for
all his kindness to the widow and the orphan.
Why do I dwell on this part
of the history of my friend! I laid his head in the grave, and then
returned, with a sad heart indeed, to the house of mourning, and
lamentation, and woe—to the mother and her destitute children. Among those
who attended the funeral, was a near relation of the deceased—a cold,
heartless wretch, who left the procession ere it had reached twenty yards
from the house. He had learned enough, while in the house, waiting till
the corpse should be lifted, to convince him that his relative had died in
straitened circumstances—and it could not well be otherwise, considering
that Wilson could not for a twelve-month before attend to business. This
man, this relative, this summer fly, whom I had seen partake, again and
again, of the kindness and hospitality of the deceased and his wife, was
the first to turn his back upon the bereaved family. It was little,
indeed, that would have been asked, or that could have been expected at
his hands, but advice and consolation; for, as it was, one or two
acquaintances stepped forward, and relieved the family of their pecuniary
troubles.
Here, now, was she who was
once the lovely young Jane Fitzwilliam, alone in the world, surrounded by
strangers, who knew nothing, or cared little about her. Here was she, with
three children to provide for—and she was for the first time in her life
called to exert herself for her own and their support. Such situations
are, alas! too common—so much so, that they make but a sorry figure in a
tale, and even in real life seldom arrest the attention of mankind. Did a
thought of her first lover now intrude upon her mind? In all that
interval, since the farewell letter, she had never heard of him; and I am
not sure but she entertained for him a yearning and lingering affection.
The poor scholar had made
his sacrifices too. On the occasion of his severe disappointment, he had
departed from his native town, and, under feelings of excitation, he
entered the service of the army. There was nothing congenial to his tastes
in this situation. He deserted, and wandered about the country, a beggar,
reckless and desperate. On one occasion he had the good fortune to
introduce himself favourably to a gentleman who had made some improvements
in a machine connected in some way with reed-splitting. Our student had a
taste for mechanics, and, from being employed first as a common labourer,
he raised himself to the rank of engineer and overseer in the extensive
establishment carried on by the gentleman alluded to. Such was his
situation at the period of Wilson’s death. That event came to his ears,
and he, with a generosity worthy of a noble nature, wrote a letter to the
widow, in which he offered to protect and support herself and children. I
know not how she felt on the receipt of this letter; but this I know—and
it is one of the few romances of real life that have come under my
observation—that she is now the wife of her first lover. Such is a brief
history of a sacrifice, which produced much misery to more than one party;
and in which we have seen that same misery amply compensated for, by a
sort of retributive mercy, and by the bringings about of a kind
Providence.