The window of the lonely cottage of
Hilltop was beaming far above the highest birchwood, seeming to
travellers at a distance in the long valley below, who knew it not, to
be a star in the sky. A bright fire was in the kitchen of that small
tenement; the floor was washed, swept and sanded, and not a footstep had
marked its perfect neatness; a small table was covered, near the ingle,
with a snow-white cloth, on which was placed a frugal evening meal; and
in happy but pensive mood sat there all alone the woodcutter's only
daughter, a comely and gentle creature, if not beautiful—such a one as
diffuses pleasure round her hay-field, and serenity over the seat in
which she sits attentively on the Sabbath, listening to the word of God,
or joining with mellow voice in His praise and worship. On this night
she expected a visit from her lover, that they might fix their
marriage-day; and her parents, satisfied and happy that their child was
about to be wedded to a respectable shepherd, had gone to pay a visit to
their nearest neighbour in the glen.
A feeble and hesitating knock was at
the door, not like the glad and joyful touch of a lover's hand ; and
cautiously opening it, Mary Robinson beheld a female figure wrapped up
in a cloak, with her face concealed in a black bonnet. The stranger,
whoever she might be, seemed wearied and worn out, and her feet bore
witness to a long day's travel across the marshy mountains. Although she
could scarcely help considering her an unwelcome visitor at such an
hour, yet Mary had too much disposition—too much humanity,—not to
request her to step forward into the hut; for it seemed as if the
wearied woman had lost her way, and had come towards the shining window
to be put right upon her journey to the low country.
The stranger took off her bonnet on
reaching the fire; and Mary Robinson beheld the face of one whom, in
youth, she had tenderly loved; although for some years past, the
distance at which they lived from each other had kept them from meeting,
and only a letter or two, written in their simple way, had given them a
few notices of each other's existence. And now Mary had opportunity, in
the first speechless gaze of recognition, to mark the altered face of
her friend,—and her heart was touched with an ignorant compassion. "For
mercy's sake! sit down Sarah, and tell me what evil has befallen you;
for you are as white as a ghost. Fear not to confide anything to my
bosom: we have herded sheep together on the lonesome braes; —we have
stripped the bark together in the more lonesome woods; — we have played,
laughed, sung, danced together; —we have talked merrily and gaily, but
innocently enough surely, of sweethearts together; and, Sarah, graver
thoughts, too, have we shared, for when your poor brother died away like
a frosted flower, I wept as if I had been his sister ; nor can I ever be
so happy in this world as to forget him. Tell me, my friend, why are you
here ? and why is your sweet face so ghastly?"
The heart of this unexpected visitor
died within her at these kind and affectionate inquiries; for she had
come on an errand that was likely to dash the joy from that happy
countenance. Her heart upbraided her with the meanness of the purpose
for which she had paid this visit; but that was only a passing thought;
for was she, innocent and free from sin, to submit, not only to
desertion, but to disgrace, and not trust herself and her wrongs, and
her hopes of redress, to her whom she loved as a sister, and whose
generous nature, she well knew, not even love, the changer of so many
things, could change utterly. though, indeed, it might render it colder
than of old to the anguish of a female friend?
"Oh! Mary, I must speak—yet must my
words make you grieve, far less for me than for yourself. Wretch that I
am, I bring evil tidings into the dwelling of my dearest friend ! These
ribbons, they are worn for his sake— they become well, as he thinks, the
auburn of your bonny hair;—that blue gown is worn to-night
because he likes it;—but, Mary, will you curse me to my face, when I
declare before the God that made us, that that man is pledged unto me by
all that is sacred between mortal creatures ; and that I have
here in my bosom written promises and oaths of love from him, who, I was
this morning told, is in a few days to be thy husband? Turn me out of
the hut now, if you choose, and let me, if you choose, die of hunger and
fatigue in the woods where we have so often walked together;
for such death would be mercy to me, in comparison with your marriage
with him who is mine for ever, if there be a God who heeds the oaths of
the creatures He has made."
Mary Robinson had led a happy life,
but a life of quiet thoughts, tranquil hopes, and meek desires. Tenderly
and truly did she love the man to whom she was now betrothed ; but it
was because she had thought him gentle, manly, upright, sincere, and one
that feared God. His character was unimpeached —to her his behaviour had
always been fond, affectionate, and respectful; that he was a
fine-looking man, and could show himself among the best of the country
round at church, and market, and fair-day, she saw and felt with
pleasure and with pride. But in the heart of this poor, humble,
contented, and pious girl, love was not a violent passion, but an
affection sweet and profound. She looked forward to her marriage with a
joyful sedateness, knowing that she would have to toil for her family,
if blest with children; but happy in the thought of keeping her
husband's house clean, of preparing his frugal meals, and
welcoming him when wearied at night to her faithful, and
affectionate, and grateful bosom.
At first, perhaps, a slight flush of
anger towards Sarah tinged her cheek; then followed in quick succession,
or all blended together in one sickening pang, fear, disappointment, the
sense of wrong, and the cruel pain of discs teeming and despising
one on whom her heart had rested with all its best and purest
affections. But though there was a keen struggle between many feelings
in her heart, her resolution was formed during that very conflict, and
she said within herself, "If it be even so, neither will I be so unjust
as to deprive poor Sarah of the man who ought to marry her, nor will I
be so mean and low-spirited, poor as I am, and dear as he has been unto
me, as to become his wife."
While these thoughts were calmly
passing in the soul of this magnanimous girl, all her former affection
for Sarah revived; and, as she sighed for herself, she wept aloud for
her friend. "Be quiet, be quiet, Sarah, and sob not so as if your heart
were breaking. It need not be thus with you. Oh, sob not so sair! You
surely have not walked in this one day from the heart of the parish of
Montrath?"—"I have indeed done so, and I am as weak as the wreathed
gnaw. God knows, little matter if I should die away; for, after all, I
fear he will never dunk of me for his wife, and you, Mary, will lose a
husband with whom you would have been happy. I feel, after all, that I
must appear a mean wretch in your eyes."
There was silence between them; and
Mary Robinson, looking at the clock, saw that it wanted only about a
quarter of an hour from the time of tryst "Give me the oaths and
promises you mentioned, out of your bosom, Sarah, that I may show them
to Gabriel when he comes. And once more I promise, by all the sunny and
all the snowy days we have sat together in the same plaid on the
hillside, or in the lonesome charcoal plots and nests o' green in the
woods, that if my Gabriel—did I say my Gabriel?—has forsaken you and
deceived me thus, never shall his lips touch mine again—never shall he
put ring on my finger—never shall this head lie in his bosom—no, never,
never; notwithstanding all the happy, too happy, hours and days I have
been with him, near or at a distance—on the corn-rig—among the meadow
hay, in the singing-school—at harvest-home—in this room, and in God's
own house. So help me God, but I will keep this vow!"
Poor Sarah told, in a
few hurried words, the story of her love and desertion—how
Gabriel, whose business as a shepherd often took him into Montrath
parish, had wooed her, and fixed everything about their marriage, nearly
a year ago. But that he had become causelessly jealous of a young man
whom she scarcely knew ; hud accused her of want of virtue, and for many
months had never once come to see her. "This morning, for the first
time, I heard for a certainty, from one who knew Gabriel well and all
his concerns, that the banns had been proclaimed in the church between
him and you; and that in a day or two you were to be married. And though
I felt drowning, I determined to make a struggle for my life—for oh!
Mary, Mary, my heart is not like your heart; it wants your wisdom, your
meekness, your piety; and if I am to lose Gabriel, will I destroy my
miserable life, and face the wrath of God sitting in judgment upon
sinners."
At this burst of passion Sarah hid her
face with her hands, as if sensible that she
had committed blasphemy. Mary, seeing her wearied, hungry, thirsty, and
feverish, spoke to her in the most soothing manner, led her into the
little parlour called the spence, then removed into it the table, with
the oaten cakes, butter, and milk; and telling her to take some
refreshment, and then lie down in the bed, but on no account to leave
the room till called for, gave her a sisterly kiss, and left her. In a
few minutes the outer door opened, and Gabriel entered.
The lover said, "How is my sweet
Mary?" with a beaming countenance; and gently drawing her to his bosom,
he kissed her cheek. Mary did not— could not—wished not—at once to
release herself from his enfolding arms. Gabriel had always treated her
as the woman who was to be his wife; and though, at this time, her heart
knew its own bitterness, yet she repelled not endearments that were so
lately delightful, and suffered him to take her almost in his arms to
their accustomed scat. He held her hand in his, and began to speak in
his usual kind and affectionate language. Kind and
affectionate it was, for though he ought not to have done so, he loved
her, as he thought, better than his life. Her heart could not, in one
small short hour, forget a whole year of bliss. She could not yet fling
away with her own hand what, only a few minutes ago, seemed to her the
hope of paradise. Her soul sickened within her, and she wished that she
were dead, or never had been born.
"O Gabriel! Gabriel! well indeed have
I loved you ; nor will I say, after all that has passed between us, that
you are not deserving, after all, of a better love than mine. Vain were
it to deny my love, either to you or to my own soul. But look me in the
face—be not wrathful— think not to hide the truth either from yourself
or me, for that now is impossible—but tell me solemnly, as you shall
answer to God at the judgment-day, if you know any reason why I must not
be your wedded wife." She kept her mild moist eyes fixed upon him; but
he hung down his head and uttered not a word, for he was guilty before
her, before his own soul, and before God.
"Gabriel, never could we have been
happy; for you often, often told me, that all the secrets of your heart
were known unto me, yet never did you tell me this. How could you desert
the poor innocent creature that loved you ; and how could you use me so,
who loved you perhaps as well as she, but whose heart God will teach,
not to forget you, for that may I never do, but to think on you with
that friendship and affection which innocently I can bestow upon you,
when you are Sarah's husband. For, Gabriel, I have this night sworn, not
in anger or passion—no, no—but in sorrow and pity for another's
wrongs—in sorrow also, deny it will I not, for my own— to look on you
from this hour, as on one whose life is to be led apart from my life,
and whose love must never more meet with my love. Speak not unto me—look
not on me with beseeching eyes. Duty and religion forbid us ever to be
man and wife. But you know there is one, besides me, whom you loved
before you loved me, and, therefore, it may be better too; and that she
loves you, and is faithful, as if God had made you one, I say without
fear—I who have known her since she was a child, although, fatally for
the peace of us both, we have long lived apart. Sarah is in the house; I
will bring her unto you in tears, but not tears of penitence, for she is
as innocent of that sin as I am, who now speak."
Mary went into the little parlour, and
led Sarah forward in her hand. Despairing as she had been, yet when she
had heard from poor Mary's voice speaking so fervently, that Gabriel had
come, and that her friend was interceding in her behalf, the poor girl
had arranged her hair in a small looking-glass—tied it up with a ribbon
which Gabriel had given her, and put into the breast of her gown a
little gilt brooch, that contained locks of their blended hair. Pale but
beautiful—for Sarah Pringle was the fairest girl in all the country—she
advanced with a flush on that paleness of reviving hope, injured pride,
and love that was ready to forgive all and forget all, so that once
again she could be restored to the place in his heart that she had lost.
"What have I ever done, Gabriel, that you should fling me from you? May
my soul never live by the atonement of my Saviour, if I am not innocent
of that sin, yea, of all distant thought of that sin, with which you,
even you, have in your hard-heartedness charged me. Look me in the face,
Gabriel, and think of all I have been unto you, and if you say that
before God, and in your own soul, you believe me guilty, then will I go
away out into the dark night, and, long before morning, my troubles will
be at an end."
Truth was not only in her fervent and
simple words, but in the tone of her voice, the colour of her face, and
the light of her eyes. Gabriel had long shut up his heart against her.
At first, he had doubted her virtue, and that doubt gradually
weakened his affection. At last he tried to believe her guilty, or to
forget her altogether, when his heart turned to Mary Robinson, and he
thought of making her his wife. His injustice—his wickedness—his
baseness —which he had so long concealed, in some measure, from himself,
by a dim feeling of wrong done him, and afterwards by the pleasure of a
new love, now appeared to him as they were, and without disguise. Mary
took Sarah's hand and placed it within that of her contrite lover; for
had the tumult of conflicting passions allowed him to know his own soul,
such at that moment he surely was, saying with a voice as composed as
the eyes with which she looked upon them, "I restore you to each other;
and I already feel the comfort of being able to do my duty. I will be
brides-maid. And I now implore the blessing of God upon your marriage.
Gabriel, your betrothed will sleep this night in my bosom. We
will think of you, better, perhaps, than you deserve. It is not for me
to tell you what you have to repent of. Let us all three pray for each
other this night, and evermore, when we are on our knees before our
Maker. The old people will soon be at home. Goodnight, Gabriel." He
kissed Sarah; and, giving Mary a look of shame, humility, and reverence,
he went home to meditation and repentance.
It was now midsummer; and before the
harvest had been gathered in throughout the higher valleys, or the sheep
brought from the mountain-fold, Gabriel and Sarah were man and wife.
Time passed on, and a blooming family cheered their board and fireside.
Nor did Mary Robinson, the Flower of the Forest (for so the woodcutter's
daughter was often called), pass her life in single blessedness. She,
too, became a wife and mother; and the two families, who lived at last
on adjacent farms, were remarkable for mutual affection throughout all
the parish, and more than one intermarriage took place between them. at
a time when the worthy parents had almost forgotten the trying
incident of their youth.