"This is the evening on which, a few
days ago, we agreed to walk to the bower at the waterfall, and look at
the perfection of a Scottish sunset. Everything on earth and heaven
seems at this hour as beautiful as our souls could desire. Come then, my
sweet Anna, come along, for by the time we have reached the bower, with
your gentle steps, the great bright orb will be nearly resting its rim
on what you call the Ruby Mountain. Come along, and we can return before
the dew has softened a single ringlet on your fair forehead." With these
words, the happy husband looked kindly within his own the arm of his
young English wife; and even in the solitude of his unfrequented groves,
where no eye but his own now beheld her, looked with pride on the
gracefulness and beauty that seemed so congenial with the single-ness
and simplicity of her soul.
They reached the bower just as the
western heaven was in all its glory. To them, while they stood together
gazing on that glow of fire that burns without consuming, and in whose
mighty furnace the clouds and the mountain-tops are but as embers, there
seemed to exist no sky but that region of it in which their spirits were
entranced. Their eyes saw it—their souls felt it; but what their eyes
saw or their souls felt they knew not in the mystery of that
magnificence. The vast black bars, the piled-up masses of burnished
gold, the beds of softest saffron and richest purple, lying surrounded
with continually fluctuating dyes of crimson, till the very sun himself
was for moments unheeded in the gorgeousness his light had created; the
show of storm, but the feeling of calm, over all that tumultuous, yet
settled world of cloud, that had come floating silently and majestically
together, and yet in one little hour was to be no more;—what might not
beings endowed with a sense of beauty, and greatness, and love, and
fear, and terror, and eternity, feel when drawing their breath together,
and turning their steadfast eyes on each other's faces, in such a scene
as this?
But from these high and bewildering
imaginations, their souls returned insensibly to the real world in which
their life lay; and, still feeling the presence of that splendid sunset,
although now they looked not towards it, they let their eyes glide, in
mere human happiness, over the surface of the inhabited earth. The green
fields, that in all varieties of form lay stretching out before them,
the hedgerows of hawthorn and sweetbrier, the humble coppices, the
stately groves, and, in the distance, the dark pine-forest loading the
mountain side, were all their own—and so, too, were a hundred cottages,
on height or hollow, shelterless or buried in shelter, and all alike
dear to their humble inmates, on account of their cheerfulness or their
repose. God had given to them this bright and beautiful portion of the
earth, and he had given them along with it hearts and souls to feel and
understand in what lay the worth of the gift, and to enjoy it with a
deep and thoughtful gratitude.
"All hearts bless you, Anna; and do
you know that the Shepherd Poet, whom we once visited in his shieling,
has composed a Gaelic song on our marriage, and it is now sung by many a
pretty Highland girl, both in cottage and on hillside? They wondered, it
is said, why I should have brought them an English lady; but that was
before they saw your face, or heard how sweet may be an English voice
even to a Highland ear. They love you, Anna— they would die for you,
Anna; for they have seen you with your sweet body in silk and satin,
with a jewel on your forehead and pearls in your hair, moving to music
in your husband's hereditary hall; and they have seen you, too, in
russet garb and ringlets unadorned, in their own smoky cottages, blithe
and free as some native shepherdess of the hills. To the joyful and the
sorrowful art thou alike dear ; and all my tenantry are rejoiced when
you appear, whether on your palfrey on the heather, or walking through
the hay or harvest-field, or sitting by the bed of sickness, or
welcoming, with a gentle stateliness, the old withered mountaineer to
his chieftain's gate."
The tears fell from the lady's eyes at
these kind, loving, and joyful words; and, with a sob, she leaned her
cheek on her husband's bosom. "Oh! why— why should I be sad in
the midst of the undeserved goodness of God? Since the furthest back
time I recollect in the darkness of infancy, I have been perfectly
happy. I have never lost any dear friend, as
so many others have done. My father and mother live, and love me well;
blessings be upon them now, and for ever! You love me, and that so
tenderly, that at times my heart is like to break. But, my
husband—forgive me—pity me—but upbraid me not, when I tell you that my
soul of late has often fainted within me. as now it does—for oh!
husband! husband! the fear of death is upon me; and as the sun sank
behind the mountain, I thought that moment of a large burial-place, and
the vault in which I am to be interred."
These words gave a shock to her
husband's heart, and for a few moments he knew not how to cheer and
comfort her. Almost before he could speak, and while he was silently
kissing her forehead, his young wife, somewhat more composedly, said, "I
strive against it—I close my eyes to
contain—to crush the tears that I feel gushing up from my stricken
heart; but they force their way through, and my face is often ruefully
drenched in solitude. Well may I weep to leave this world—thee—my
parents—the rooms in which, for a year of perfect bliss, I have walked,
sat, or slept in thy bosom—all these beautiful woods, and plains, and
hills, which I have begun to feel every day more and more as belonging
unto me, because I am thy wife. But, husband! beyond, far, tar beyond
them all, except him of whose blood it is, do I weep to leave our baby
that is now unborn. May it live to comfort you—to gladden your eyes when
I am gone—yea, to bring tears sometimes into them, when its face or form
may chance to remember you of the mother who bore it, and died that it
might see the day."
The lady rose up with these words from
her husband's bosom; and as a sweet balmy whispering breath of wind came
from the broom on the river's bank, and fanned her cheeks, she seemed to
revive from that desponding dream; and, with a faint smile, looked all
round the sylvan bower. The cheerful hum of the bees, that seemed to be
hastening their work among the honey-flowers before the fall of dark—the
noise of the river, that had been unheard while the sun was setting—the
lowing of the kine going leisurely homewards before their infant
drivers—and the loud lofty song of the blackbird in his grove—these, and
a thousand other mingling influences of nature, touched her heart with
joy, and her eyes became altogether free from tears. Her husband, who
had been deeply affected by words so new to him from her lips, seized
these moments of returning peace to divert her thoughts entirely from
such causeless terrors. "To this bower I brought you to show you what a
Scottish landscape was, the day after our marriage; and from that hour
to this, every look, smile, word, and deed of thine, has been after my
own heart, except these foolish tears. But the dew will soon be on the
grass— so come, my beloved—nay, I will not stir unless you smile. There,
Anna! you are your beautiful self again!" And they returned, cheerful
and laughing, to the Hall; the lady's face being again as bright as if a
tear had never dimmed its beauty. The glory of the sunset was almost
forgotten in the sweet, fair, pensive silence of the twilight, now fast
glimmering on to one of those clear summer nights which divide, for a
few hours, one day from another with their transitory pomp of stars.
Before midnight, all who slept awoke.
It was hoped that an heir was about to be born to that ancient house ;
and there is something in the dim and solemn reverence which invests an
unbroken line of ancestry, that blends easily with those deeper and more
awful feelings with which the birth of a human creature, in all
circumstances, is naturally regarded. Tenderly beloved by all as this
young and beautiful lady was, who, coming a stranger among them, and as
they felt from another land, had inspired them insensibly with a sort of
pity, mingling with their pride in her loveliness and virtue, it may
well be thought that now the house was agitated, and that its agitation
was soon spread from cottage to cottage, to a great distance round. Many
a prayer, therefore, was said for her; and God was beseeched soon to
make her, in His mercy, a joyful mother. No fears, it was said, were
entertained for the lady's life ; but after some hours of intolerable
anguish of suspense, her husband, telling an old servant whither he had
gone, walked out into the open air, and in a few minutes, sat down on a
tombstone, without knowing that he had entered the little
churchyard, which, with the parish church, was within a few fields and
groves of the house. He looked around him; and nothing but
graves—graves—graves. "This stone was erected by her husband in memory
of Agnes Ilford, an Englishwoman, who died in childbed, aged nineteen."
The inscription was, every letter of it, distinctly legible in the
moonlight; and he held his eyes fixed upon it, reading it over and over
with a shudder; and then rising up and hurrying out of the churchyard,
he looked back from the gate, and thought he saw a female figure all in
white, with an infant in her arms, gliding noiselessly over the graves
and tombstones. But he looked more steadfastly—and it was
nothing. He knew it was nothing; but he was terrified, and turned his
face away from the churchyard. The old servant advanced towards him, and
he feared to look him in the face, lest he should know that his wife was
a corpse.
"Life or death?" at length he found
power to utter. "My honoured lady lives, but her son breathed only a few
gasps—no heir, no heir! I was sent to tell you to come quickly to my
lady's chamber."
In a moment the old man was alone,
for, recovering from the torpidity of fear, his master had flown off
like an arrow, and now with soft footsteps was stealing along the
corridor towards the door of his wife's apartment. But as he stood
within a few steps of it, composing his countenance, and strengthening
his heart to behold his beloved Anna lying exhausted, and too probably
ill, ill indeed,—his own mother, like a shadow, came out of the room,
and not knowing that she was seen, clasped her hands together upon her
breast, and lifting up her eyes with an expression of despair,
exclaimed, as in a petition to God, "Oh! my poor son!—my poor son! what
will become of him! She looked forward, and there was her son before
her, with a face like ashes, tottering and speechless. She embraced and
supported him—the old and feeble supported the young and the strong. "I
am blind, and must feel my way; but help me to the bed-side, that I may
sit down and kiss my dead wife. I ought to have been there, surely, when
she died."
The lady was dying, but not dead. It
was thought that she was insensible, but when her husband said—"Anna,
Anna!" she fixed her hitherto unnotic-ing eyes upon his face, and moved
her lips as if speaking, but no words were heard. He stooped down and
kissed her forehead, and then there was a smile over all her face, and
one word, "Farewell!" At that faint and loving
voice he touched her lips with his, and he must then have felt her
parting breath; for when he again looked on her face, the smile upon it
was more deep, placid, steadfast, than any living smile, and a mortal
silence was on her bosom that was to move no more.
They sat together, he and his mother,
looking on the young, fair, and beautiful dead. Sometimes he was
distracted, and paced the room raving, and with a black and gloomy
aspect. Then he sat down perfectly composed, and looked alternately on
the countenance of his young wife, bright, blooming, and smiling in
death; and on that of his old mother, pale, withered, and solemn in
life. As yet he had no distinct thoughts of himself. Overwhelming pity
for one so young, so good, so beautiful, and so happy, taken suddenly
away, possessed his disconsolate soul; and he would have wept with joy
to see her restored to life, even although he were to live with her no
more, though she were utterly to forget him; for what would that be to
him, so that she were but alive! He felt that he could have borne to be
separated from her by seas, or by a dungeon's walls; for in the strength
of his love he would have been happy, knowing that she was a living
being beneath heaven's sunshine. But in a few days is she to be
buried!—And then was he forced to think upon himself, and his utter
desolation, changed in a few hours from a too perfect happiness into a
wretch whose existence was an anguish and a curse.
At last he could not sustain the
sweet, sad, beautiful sight of that which was now lying stretched upon
his marriage-bed; and he found himself passing along the silent
passages, with faint and distant lamentations meeting his ear, but
scarcely recognised by his mind, until he felt the fresh air, and saw
the gray dawn of morning. Slowly and unconsciously he passed on into the
woods, and walked on and on, without aim or object, through the solitude
of awakening nature. He heard or heeded not the wide-ringing songs of
all the happy birds; he saw not the wild - (lowers beneath his feet, nor
the clew diamonds that glittered on every leaf of the motionless trees.
The ruins of a lonely hut on the hill-side were close to him, and he sat
down in stupefaction, as if he had been an exile in some foreign
country. He lifted up his eyes, and the sun was rising, so that all the
eastern heaven was tinged with the beautiful-ness of joy. The turrets of
his own ancestral mansion were visible among the dark umbrage of its
ancient grove : fair were the lawns and fields that stretched away from
it towards the orient light, and one bright bend of the river kindled up
the dim scenery through which it rolled. His own family estate was
before his eyes, and as the thought rose within his heart, "All that I
see is mine," yet felt he that the poorest beggar was richer far than
he, and that in one night he had lost all that was worth possessing. He
saw the church tower, and thought upon the place of graves.
"There will she be buried— there will she be buried," he repeated with a
low voice, while a groan of mortal misery startled the little moss-wren
from a crevice in the ruin. He rose up, and the thought of suicide
entered into his sick heart. He gazed on the river, and, murmuring aloud
in his hopeless wretchedness, said, "Why should I not sink into a pool
and be drowned? But oh! Anna, thou who wert so meek and pure on earth,
and who art now bright and glorious in heaven, what would thy sainted
and angelic spirit feel if I were to appear thus lost and wicked at the
judgment-seat?"
A low voice reached his ear, and,
looking round, he beheld his old, faithful, white-headed servant on his
knees— him who had been his father's foster-brother, and who, in the
privilege of age and fidelity and love to all belonging to that house,
had followed him unregarded—had watched him as he wrung his hands, and
had been praying for him to God while he continued sitting in that
dismal trance upon that mouldering mass of ruins. "Oh! my young master,
pardon me for being here. I wished not to overhear your words; but to me
you have ever been kind, even as a son to his father. Come, then, with
the old man back into the hall, and forsake not your mother, who is sore
afraid."
They returned, without speaking, down
the glens and through the old woods, and the door was shut upon them.
Days and nights passed on, and then a bell tolled; and the churchyard,
that had sounded to many feet, was again silent. The woods around the
hall were loaded with their summer glories; the river flowed on in its
brightness; the smoke rose up to heaven from the quiet cottages; and
nature continued the same—bright, fragrant, beautiful, and happy. But
the hall stood uninhabited; the rich furniture now felt the dust; and
there were none to gaze on the pictures that graced the
walls. He who had been thus bereaved went across seas to distant
countries, from which his tenantry, for three springs, expected his
return; but their expectations were never realised, for he died abroad.
His remains were brought home to Scotland, according to a request in his
will, to be laid by those of his wife; and now they rest together,
beside the same simple monument.