During her mother’s
illness, Annie had had a long continued time of fatigue and anxiety;
and, though shared as much as possible by Jessie, vet still it
materially affected her health, and increased the uneasiness which Mrs.
Beaumont had for some time felt on that account. She had walked down one
morning to Glenlyn, merely to get a little air, while Jessie sat with
her mother. When she entered Mrs. Beaumont’s room, she looked so pale
and exhausted, that her kind friend could not help asking her if she
felt ill, or had any particular complaint
“No, dear madam, I have no regular complaint, though to you I have
wished to mention what is the conviction of mv own mind —I firmly
believe that I am not long for this world. A feeling of weakness and
inward sinking has been for some months growing upon me; yet I have no
formed illness; and so far as I can recollect, from having seen so much
of Janet Finlay, I am exactly in the same sort of decline that at last
carried her off. The fear of alarming my dear mother, in her present
weak state, has prevented me from mentioning to any one my own opinion,
but I feel it must be done soon, or the truth may break upon the minds
of my parents and sister so suddenly, as to endanger their precious
lives. You see, dear Mrs. Beaumont,” continued she, faintly smiling,
“what a conceited girl I am, notwithstanding all your care and
instruction; but our family are so knit in the bonds of true affection,
that a separation between us will, if not cautiously communicated, go
hard with us all. My own mind, thanks to those who have trained me in
the paths of righteousness, is, in some degree, prepared for whatever is
the will of my Heavenly Father. Yet, the thought of the distress which
my death will occasion in the family, almost distracts my mind from the
serious reflection which every sinful creature ought to bestow on the
near prospect of so great a change. I have, therefore, ventured to come
at last to you, and to solicit that you would break the matter to my
father and dear Jessie. They love me too well to make me a witness of
their first sufferings ; and, after a few hours’ reflection, I hope we
may meet, and part no more, till the hour that I am called into the
presence of my Maker.”
Mrs. Beaumont at first listened with composure to Annie’s history of her
feelings; but, as it went on, she burst into an agony of tears, and
could scarcely command herself sufficiently to answer her. Annie seemed
prepared for this; she did not shed a tear, though her lips trembled a
little as she said, “Dear, dear madam, spare me, if possible; I have
much to go through, and if I do not school my feelings to some degree of
subjection, they will hasten on the event before my parents are prepared
to bear it.”
Completely recalled to self-possession by this mild appeal, Mrs.
Beaumont instantly dried up her tears; and then endeavoured, by
examining the dear girl as to the symptoms of her malady, to understand
fully the degree of danger she was really in. All she told her, tended
to alarm her; but she insisted on applying instantly for medical advice.
“I must see your father, Annie, this very evening; and I think, with his
help, I can manage to take you to Edinburgh, without exciting any
suspicion in your mother’s mind; it would be very wrong to alarm her in
her present weak state, at least till we have ascertained the extent of
the threatened danger.”
“I thank you sincerely, my dear madam, for this consideration of my poor
mother’s feelings. If you and my father wish me to go to Edinburgh for
advice, I shall make no opposition to the plan. Life has many charms to
one so blest with friends and relatives as I am; and, therefore, to
refuse compliance .with any means pointed out by them, as likely to
re-establish my health, would be both foolish and wicked. Yet I own, I
have no hope myself, that any thing can now save me; and though I will
comply with whatever is advised, I shall keep steadily in view the
termination which I believe to be inevitable.”
After a good deal of conversation, Mrs. Beaumont said, that till they
had had medical advice, none of her family should be informed of her
illness, except her father. “It would be only harassing the minds of
your brothers and Jessie to make them acquainted with the object of our
journey, till we know the result. I shall tell them that I have business
which may detain me a week or ten days; and that, as you have never seen
Edinburgh, I prefer having you with me, and leaving Jessie (who has been
there often) to take care of your mother.”
This being settled, Mrs. Beaumont proposed walking home with her. Annie
agreed, and they set out; but had only gone a very short way, when they
were forced to stop, to allow the poor girl to rest, as the least
exertion almost deprived her of breath. With much difficulty, Mrs.
Beaumont contrived at last to get her Home, where Jessie had been busily
engaged at her work on a little stool, by the side of her mother,
singing at the same time the beautiful airs of her native country. She
had just finished “Lewie Gordon,” when, looking up, she observed her
mother drowned in tears.
“What is the matter, dear mother?” exclaimed she; “has my foolish music
made you cry?”
“It has indeed, dear girl,” answered Jane, looking earnestly at her:
“for, oh! how forcibly has it brought to my recollection the last time I
heard my own dear lady sing that very song!”
“And who was your own lady?” asked Jessie. “I have often heard you
express your attachment to some lady, but I do not remember ever hearing
you mention her name.”
“Hush, Jessie, ask me no questions,” said June, in a whisper; “I have
done wrong in even mentioning that I ever had a lady. William would
never forgive me, if he knew that I had been so imprudent; but you are
scarcely less dear to me than she was. God forbid that you should ever
be the cause of so much care and grief as she, poor soul I was the
innocent means of bringing on her servant!”
At that moment, Mrs. Beaumont and Annie entered the house, and put an
end to a conversation which Jane, for many weeks, regretted she had ever
been led into; but finding that Jessie never recurred to it, she
gradually began to hope, that she had forgotten all that had then
passed. This was, however, very far from being the case; but though the
circumstances mentioned so mysteriously, had greatly excited Jessie’s
curiosity, her sense of rectitude and honour made her repress all
inquiries upon the subject, as she thought it would be unpardonable in
her to press her mother to disclose what she distinctly told her would
offend her father.
Annie, in order to avoid the observation of her mother, retired into the
next room, and reclined upon her bed; while Mrs. Beaumont sat chatting
with Jane, to give her daughter time to recover from the effects of the
exertion she had gone through. When Mrs. Beaumont rose to go, she left a
message with Jane for William, desiring to see him that evening. She
then begged that Jessie would get her bonnet, and come away at once, as
she had some idea of going to Edinburgh the next day, and had several
things to arrange at home, in yrhich she should want her assistance. As
they walked on their way home, she said, “Jessie, my dear, Annie has
been greatly fatigued during your mother’s illness; I think, if I can
persuade your father to allow her to go with me to-morrow, a little
change will be of service to her, and her affectionate attention, during
so long a period of illness, deserves some reward. You will, I am sure,
not object to take her place at the cottage for the few days she will be
away.”
“Certainly not, dear aunt. On the contrary, it will give me the greatest
possible pleasure to have her enjoy a, little relaxation from the
fatigue she even yet has with my mother; but I fear that you will find
it more difficult than you imagine to prevail with my father to allow
her to accompany you, or to permit me to remain in the cottage. I have
urged every thing I could think of to induce him to permit me to stay
and share Annie’s nightly fatigue; for, to own the truth, I have, for
some weeks, been quite sensible that it was too much for her health; but
nothing I have been able to say, would make him listen a moment to the
proposal; though, I believe, since I have spoken to him, he has taken
the whole care of my mother, during the night, upon himself, in the fear
that it was injuring Annie’s health.” “I think, nevertheless, that I
shall prevail,” replied her aunt u Your father cannot be so unreasonable
as to refuse my request, whatever he may do as to yours. But there is
Mr. Brown; I should not be much surprised, if he had been to Linton, and
had Drought our letters from the post; as he knew that he would be here
an nour sooner than little Tom.”
Mrs. Beaumont was right. Mr. Brown was the bearer of a large despatch
from India. After pressing him to dine with her, she left him, m order
to examine her husband’s letter; and was soon followed by Jessie, eager
to hear of her ever-loved Arthur. Having given her a packet from him,
Mrs. Beaumont shut herself in her dressing-room, and proceeded to read
her own. After relating all the various occurrences that he thought were
likely to interest her, the General continued, u Arthur is still the
comfort and solace of my present banishment. No son could more
completely devote himself to my service than he does; and he really
often makes me proud to be connected with him. His conduct was so
exemplary during our late campaign, that I have reported it to
government; and if the praise of his commander, and the testimony of all
his brother officers, have any weight, he is likely to be a very rising
man. What particularly drew forth his strong recommendation, was the
following circumstance:—
“The evening before the last engagement, one of the scouts that I had
sent to reconnoitre the enemies’ position, returned hastily, and told me
that there was a small post lately fortified, which if not taken, would
effectually prevent our advancing in sufficient strength to attack the
town. It was of the utmost importance, I immediately saw, either to get
possession of this post before the hour when the soldiers were to begin
to move, or, at least, to conceal from them the difficulty they were
likely to encounter.
“The only troops I could spare, were those under the command of Colin
Monteith; and although I had no great opinion either of his courage or
of his judgment, I had no alternative but to send him forward, with
directions to storm the post, and get possession of it at all hazards. I
therefore sent for him to give him his instructions. It was some time
before he came to me. When he arrived, it was nearly dusk, and I had
laid down, overcome with the heat and fatigue of the day, on the couch
in my tent; I raised myself on my elbow, and inquired what had
occasioned his delay in answering my summons. He stammered something
about being asleep, much as he used to do when reprimanded for any
fault. I then proceeded to state why I had sent for him, and told him
fairly that I was afraid it was rather a dangerous duty, but that I
hoped he would, both for his honour, and the preservation of his own
life, act with prudence and circumspection; and if he had the good
fortune to succeed in taking the post, he might depend on my using my
interest for his immediate promotion.
“He made no answer, but by a bow, as in token of obedience; but before
quitting the tent, he sprang forward, and kneeling before my couch,
kissed my hand, while he placed his hat over his eyes, to prevent, as I
thought, my seeing the tears which I felt moistened his cheek. Much
affected, I spoke kindly to him, hoping that the next time we met he
would have raised his name as a soldier, and increased the desire I had
ever felt to serve him.
“I saw him no more, as he instantly departed, covering his face with his
handkerchief. The next morning, on inquiring for Arthur, his servant
said that he had left his tent, and was with the troops, who were now in
motion. During the battle I was surprised that I never saw him; and my
astonishment was greatly heightened by perceiving Colin Monteith m
Arthur’s cap and uniform, endeavoring to escape from the sword of a
native soldier. I made at the black fellow, and having succeeded in
rescuing Monteith, I loudly inquired how he came to be there, instead of
being with his detachment where I had sent him r He hesitated and
stammered so much that I could make nothing of him; but as I was
convinced that he had by some means evaded the dangerous enterprise, I
ordered him iDto the rear, till I should be at leisure to examine into
the business. We were fast approaching upon the town, and whatever had
been the fate of the fortified post, it was now too late to attempt to
retreat. With fear and apprehension, I continued to advance, expecting
every moment that a fire would be opened on our flank from this post,
which I now perceived completely commanded the principal gate that we
had to force; but, to my great relief as soon as we drew near it, the
English colors were hoisted, and a volley was fired over the gate into
the town. This had the happiest effect, as it intimidated the besieged,
and gave our troops, who were nearly exhausted with fatigue, fresh
spirits. The result was soon visible. The enemy fled in all directions,
leaving their walls almost deserted, and before evening we found
ourselves in quiet possession of the town, with much less bloodshed than
we had dared to anticipate.
“As soon as the immediate hurry and confusion had in some degree abated,
I became seriously alarmed at seeing nothing of Arthur, and began to
make inquiries regarding him among the officers of his regiment All
looked confused, as if unwilling to speak, when at last one of them
stepped forward, and said, that all they knew of Major Mathieson was,
that the evening before, whilst they were sitting together in the tent
where they had dined, a message was sent from me to Captain Monteith,
desiring to see him directly. We were greatly alarmed (continued the
narrator) on hearing this message, as the feet was, that Monteith had
become quite intoxicated, and had been carried to nis bed only a few
minutes before the message arrived; but Major Mathieson, more collected
than any of us, answered, tell the Genera! I will be with him
immediately. The messenger left us, and we all asked what he meant by
sending such an answer. ‘ I mean, gentlemen/ answered he, ‘ to try and
save this infatuated young man from certain disgrace. General Beaumont,
the very last time the same thing happened, solemnly declared to him in
my presence, that if he ever knew of his again oeing guilty of such
conduct during the time he was on service, he would instantly place him
under arrest, and send him to Madras to be tried bj a court-martial. I
dare say the General has nothing very particular to communicate to him
at present, and, perhaps, only wishes to keep his eye upon him. I will,
therefore, make an attempt to pass for him; I am nearly of the same age
and height, and some folks even say we bear a resemblance to each other.
I think he is so much overcome by liquor, that I may easily take his
coat and hat, and as it is getting dusk, I hope I may succeed in saving
him this time.7 He left the tent, and, after a few minutes, returned,
dressed in Monteith’s coat buttoned close round him, as the other was
accustomed to wear it. 'None of you, I hope,’ said he, 'will ever betray
this secret, as my attempt would then be of no service; and it really
appears painful to think of this poor young man’s being disgraced and
turned out of the regiment if we can prevent it.’ All promised silence,
provided it led to no misfortune to himself and throughout this eventful
day we have kept our word, hoping that Mathieson would appear when the
battle was over, but now that he is not to be found, I do not think I am
bound to conceal the truth any longer, for, perhaps the orders you gave
him, believing nim to be Monteith, may explain the meaning of his
absence.
“It does, indeed,” answered I, “and I now know whom we have all to thank
for the ease with which we got possession of the town. I gave, as I
thought, the command of the detachment to Monteith, and was highly
displeased to see him with the army, as I never doubted that he had
entrusted the care of the expedition to Campbell, his next in command,
who is an active young man, and naturally wishes for an opportunity of
distinguishing himself.
“I instantly sent to inquire if Arthur was in safety. In about an hour
afterwards he was brought in, in a litter, having received a wound in
his shoulder in storming the post. This wound he had the resolution to
conceal for several hours, in which time he had completely dislodged the
enemy, and had taken every precaution for keeping possession of the
place till our troops came up to attack the town. Till then he ordered
that no signal should be given of its having changed its masters, as he
hoped that the appearance of the English colors might, if well timed,
strike a panic into the enemy, which would greatly facilitate the fall
of the town. All turned out as he had foreseen, but almost as soon as
the army came in sight he had fainted from loss of blood and fatigue,
and was carried into a small guard-house, and laid on a mattress, where
he had continued until my messenger arrived. I had him instantly placed
in an apartment near my own, and his wound examined by a skilful
surgeon, who relieved my mind greatly by reporting that it was not
dangerous, though by being so long left undressed it might give him some
months’ confinement.
“His prophecy has in some degree been fulfilled, for though it is now
nearly three months since the taking of the town, Arthur is not yet
strong enough to be put upon active duty, but is gaining strength daily,
arid there is no reason for his father making himself at all uneasy
about him, as I have no doubt that in a few weeks he will be perfectly
restored to health. At his earnest request, I have so far forgiven
Monteith, as to allow him to retire from the army, without bringing him
to a court-martial. He will return to England by the next ship. How his
father will relish the letter I have written concerning him I cannot
say, but it is quite impossible to act .more leniently than I have done.
I cannot yet exactly inform you what share of prize-money will fell to
us, but it must be very considerable. Arthur has not only the prospect
of being promoted to the rank of lieutenant-colonel, but likewise of
getting a very handsome fortune, sufficient to make him independent for
life.”
“I am glad that this letter has come today,” thought Mrs. Beaumont, as
she folded it up; “it will help to comfort poor William under the great
affliction which is too surely falling upon him.” She put up her
despatches, and joined Jessie, who was musing over the account her
brother gave her of his having been wounded.
“Oh, foolish girl!” said Mrs. Beaumont, “how can you think of crying
now, when you are assured of Arthur’s safety, and of all the honours
that are likely to be showered upon him? We shall have him among us a
rich nabob before we know where we are; and see,” continued she,
glancing over the letter Jessie still held in her hand, “a confirmation
of what I am saying, for he tells you here that this silly lad, Colin
Montfeith, is entrusted with shawls, and I don’t know what, as presents
to all his friends. Really, I think I shall wear a shawl of his
presenting with greater pride than I ever did any piece of finery in my
life. He is a soldier of my own making, and even Beaumont writes he is
proud to be connected with him.”
“Ah! dear Aunt,” answered Jessie, “my tears flow, believe me, in
thankfulness to God, for having preserved a life so precious to us all.
You know not how much depends on his returning here in safety; but I am
thoroughly convinced, from observations I cannot help making, that my
dear father’s life depends on Arthur’s. He never showed partiality to
any of us in his conduct, when we were all with him; but since my
brother has been gone, I have observed even his very name, mentioned
suddenly, makes the blood desert his cheek; and the tremulous quivering
of his voice in asking about the news, when you have had letters, too
plainly shows how much his heart is in his eldest son. And no wonder
that it should be so, for Arthur is one among ten thousand. From his
earliest days he has outstripped every boy in the village, and even I,
who must feel very differently from his father, believe that the fixture
happiness of my life must depend greatly on him.”
Mrs. Beaumont kissed her cheek, saying it was indeed not surprising that
all his friends looked up to him for comfort and happiness. “You shall
go in the evening, my dear, and cheer the hearts of your mother and
Annie with the news, and carry your brothers their letters. Allen’s is a
very large packet, and contains, I dare say, a great deal of
confidential information. I shall, however, keep your father’s, and give
it him myself, as I expect him here during the time of your absence.”
Jessie left Glenlyn early in the evening, and she had been gone but a
very little while when her father called on Mrs. Beaumont With caution
she informed him of her fears regarding poor Annie’s health, and
proposed the plan sne had settled for getting the best advice for her
immediately. He was at first greatly shocked, and could scarcely believe
that Mrs. Beaumont had not exaggerated her danger; but after hearing all
the circumstances, he bowed his head upon his breast, and said, “God’s
will be done, if it really so should seem' best to try his servants by
this great and unlooked-for affliction! We have been mercifully dealt
with in all other trials, and received many multiplied blessings at his
hand; why should we not bear chastening with patience and resignation?
My dear child’s early death will no doubt deeply afflict us who are left
behind, but for herself her loss will be great gain. As far as a sinful
mortal can be said to be pure, she, of all my family, is the most
faultless. Mild, pious, and dutiful, she has grown up in the fear of
God, and in uniform obedience to her parents; beloved and respected by
all who knew her, charitable and kind to those who required her
assistance I To such a spirit death can have but few terrors, but, oh I
the- agony of losing such a child can only be known and felt by those
who must meet it”
Poor William’s resolution here gave way, and he burst into a flood of
tears. Mrs. Beaumont thought it best not to attempt to interrupt him, as
she hoped they would relieve him, and she was right; for, after a few
minutes he recovered himself and holding out his hand to her, he said:
“Pardon, dear madam, my distressing you by my weakness; I will act in
future, believe me, as becomes a Christian father, but nature must feel,
and that most deeply, at such a time. I will retire for an hour or two,
to enable me to meet my poor wife with composure, for I quite approve of
your plan of concealing from her my child’s illness till we are sure of
the extent of her danger. Then, indeed, if your fears are just, we must
break it to her as gently as we can, and God enable her to support the
afflicting information!”
“Stay, my friend,” said Mrs. Beaumont to to him, as he rose to leave
her, “I have been so unfortunate as to be obliged to give you much pain
by what I have thought necessary for you to be informed ofj regarding
one dear child; I have now a cordial in reserve for you, in what relates
to another. Here are despatches from the General, 'in which he speaks in
the highest possible terms of our dear boy, who will soon be a colonel,
and rich enough to return and comfort his parents for the rest of their
lives. Here are his own letters, and if you will be seated for a few
minutes, I will read you what the General says of him.” She then read
what we have already related. William’s agitation, as she went on,
became almost insupportable; and at the account of his wound, he fell
back in his chair, nearly fainting. Mr. Beaumont hastened to assure him
of his son’s safety and success. He clasped his hands in thankfulness,
and in an under tone, said, “His death I might have borne, if it had so
pleased God; but to have fallen in such a cause, would have been more, I
fear, than either my resolution or strength could* have endured I thank
God, however, there is an end to my apprehensions on that account I
These young men are now separated for life.”
Mrs. Beaumont was at first surprised; but afterwards supposed that
Arthur had been more communicative with regard to the character of his
fellow-soldier, Colin Monteith, to his father or brothers, than he had
been to her, and therefore imagined that William was pleased to find
they were finally separated. He now took leave, and retired into the
woods which surrounded Glenlyn, endeavouring, by prayer and reflection,
to fortify his mind against the storm which threatened him.
Next morning, Mrs. Beaumont drove to Lochmore for Annie, on her way to
Edinburgh. She brought Jessie with her, and told Jane she meant to
exchange daughters for a week, as William had agreed to allow Annie to
go with her, to see a little of the world.
“I am very glad of it, answered Jane, “I hope it will do her good; for,
somehow, I think of late, she has been looking very pale, and has been
less cheerful than she commonly is; but William tells me, he is going
with you himself, if you will allow him, as he has some business about
the last year’s hay to settle; and he thinks this is so good an
opportunity, he would like to take it Jessie and I can manage very well
together till you return.” “O, yes, dear aunt,” said Jessie, “we shall
get on nicely; it is quite a treat to me to be allowed to spend a few
days with my mother and brothers; we shall ail be as merry and happy as
possible.”
William now came from the other room, ready equipped for the journey. “I
ask your pardon, madam, for being so bold as to propose going with you;
but I really have business; and, if you could only take me within a few
miles of Edinburgh, I can walk the rest of the way without being seen by
any one in your carriage.”
“Come, then, William,” answered Mrs. Beaumont, “I shall never be
ashamed, believe me, to be seen to have so honest a man by my side.” On
getting to Edinburgh, they lost no time in obtaining the best advice it
afforded for Annie. Alas! the physicians could give them no hopes of her
recovery. Her case was declared to be a confirmed decline ; and, they
were told, that though, with care, she might linger on a few months, it
would be next to a miracle if there should be any permanent amendment
Annie, who insisted on knowing exactly what was their opinion, only
smiled when informed of it; and, leaning her head on her father’s
shoulder, said, “Oh! weep not for me, my beloved parent I trust that in
the mercy of God I may be pardoned, and received, through the
intercession of his dear Son, into everlasting peace; there, in his good
time, to be again united to all I now must leave on earth, who are so
dear to me. In my brothers and dear Jessie, I am sure you will find
comforters and supporters in your old age, who will abundantly supply my
loss; but it is from you alone that my mother can receive support m this
season of affliction; and I freely own, it is the fear of witnessing her
grief, that alone makes me a coward. Oh! in pity to my weakness, exert
your strong and virtuous mind to save me, as far as yon possibly can,
from that agony; for I dread it more than I can well express, and
perhaps more than a dying Christian should permit any worldly trial to
affect her.” w My child! my child!” exclaimed her poor father, clasping
her to his breast, “you show me the path of .duty, which I ought and
will pursue. Fear no suffering on the part either of your mother, or
myself, that I can guard you from; and though the trial is, if possible,
more severe, from knowing the great worth of the dear child, we must, I
fear, lose; yet we will remember in our grief that from God we received
her, and bless him, even now when he again requires her at our hands.”
Mrs. Beaumont remained nearly a fortnight in Edinburgh, in the vain hope
that Annie might receive benefit from constant medical attendance.
William, meanwhile, had been persuaded to return to Lochmore, Mrs.
Beaumont promising to give him daily information how nis dear child went
on. At last, finding that there was little or no change, or, if any,
that it was for the worse, she, at Annie’s request, agreed to return to
Glenlyn with her; but settled with her father, that, till his wife had
been informed of her daughter’s danger, and had, in some degree,
recovered from the first shock that such intelligence must naturally
give her, Annie should remain under her care. This plan, when
communicated to the poor invalid, appeared greatly to relieve her mind
She grasped Mrs. Beaumont’s hand, saying, “What a blessing, dear madam,
have you been to us all, from the first evening of our acquaintance. In
comfort and happiness have we lived ever since; and now, in the hour of
trial, you do not forsake us.”
“Never, my dear Annie, shall I forsake, never shall I forget her who has
so largely contributed to my happiness and comfort in the retired life I
have led. I have, for many years, been your instructress, and never, in
one single instance, have had reason to regret my taking on me the
arduous employment. Now, our situations are changed: for now, my prayer
to God is, to be able to profit by the example you set, in showing me
the fruits of an humble, pious, and religious life, when laid on a sick
bed, and looking forward to the grave.”
Annie was quite exhausted by the journey; and for some days after her
return to Glenlvn, she was unable to leave her bed. During this time,
the scene that was passing at Loch-more, was truly affecting. Jane’s
health had been nearly re-established before it became necessary to
inform her of her daughter’s danger. She bore it better than William had
expected at first; but the restraint that she put upon herself before
him produced a fever, which laid her again in her bed. Jessie’s grief)
on the contrary, was ungovernable for a few hours; but she was too
sensible a girl to allow herself to indulge long in useless sorrow. She,
therefore, listened in the evening to her father’s arguments; and, by
the next morning, had schooled her feelings so far as to be able to go
to Glenlyn, and see Annie, with apparent composure. She then returned to
her poor mother; and, for nearly a week, was never able to quit her. At
last, the fever left Jane; and Jessie rejoiced to see that her mind was,
in some degree, reconciled to what she feared was rapidly approaching.
Annie had become extremely anxious to be allowed to return to Lochmore;
and though, from the exhaustion which even the moving from one room to
another produced, her friends feared what she must suffer in so much
longer a passage, she yet seemed so much set upon dying in her father’s
house that they were unwilling to refuse her that melancholy
gratification. As soon, therefore, as William thought his wife could
bear to see her, she was removed home in the carriage, and laid upon her
little bed, which, for some days, it was doubtful if she would ever
leave again. She did, however, revive at the end of a week; and, for
nearly a month afterwards, was able to be removed, every day, into the
next room, and laid on a sofa, which Mrs. Beaumont had kindly sent her
from Glenlyn. During the whole period, from her return to Lochmore,
Jessie never quitted her, Except through the night, when her aunt and
father made a point of her returning to sleep at Glenlyn. The idea of
the kind girl’s catching the infection, was so strongly impressed upon
her aunt’s mind, that she trembled even to allow her to be with her so
much through the day. William, to whom she ventured to hint her fears,
had none on the subject. Annie’s family, by tjie mother’s side, had been
consumptive, and, therefore, her illness was not surprising; but he knew
well, though*he could not tell Mrs. Beaumont so, that all Jessie’s
family had been remarkably healthy, and inherited no such unhappy
constitution. He was, therefore, easy on her account, and allowed her to
be with his daughter, in the day time, as much as she pleased. The
conduct of Allen and Jamie, during this long illness of their sister,
was most exemplary. No attention, of whatever kind, was spared, that
they thought could, in any way, alleviate her sufferings. Day after day
did Allen sit by her couch, reading the Scriptures, and explaining to
her any text on which she expressed a wish for information; and never id
he, even by an impatient look, appeared to be tired of the employment.
Jamie would walk for miles, in search of any dainty he could think of,
to tempt her sickly appetite; and deemed himself amply rewarded by the
look of affection that was sure to greet him on his return.
Jessie sat constantly at the side of the couch, her hand clasped in her
sister’s; who, whenever she had strength to speak, conversed with her on
religious subjects; pointing out with fervour the great advantages they
had reaped from having been blessed with parents and friends who had not
only instilled into their young minds a knowledge of divine truths, buff
had led them, both by precept and example, to practise all Christian
duties fitted to their age; till, by constant habit, and the conviction
of their more ripened years, they were enabled to follow the footsteps
of their Redeemer, in all meekness and lowliness of mind, with a firm
faith in his love and mercy.
"Be steady, my beloved Jessie,” said she one day, “in pursuing the race
you have begun, whatever temptations may yet be thrown in your way.
Remember, always, that without perseverance in godliness, there can be
no safety for a Christian; and that, when the tour of death draws nigh,
no cordial can so powerfully soothe the sinking spirit as the assurance
of having made your peace with God, and kept fast your reliance on the
merits of your Saviour.”
Jessie composedly thanked her sister, promising, faithfully, that
through life she would religiously attend to her advice. “I have a
commission, dear Jessie,” answered Annie, “which I must leave you to
execute. Alas! it is not permitted me to do it myself; for I have tried
once or twice to sit up long enough to write, but my strength fails. It
is to take leave of my dear Arthur. He is the only one of my friends who
is now absent; but though at so great a distance, tell him, dear sister,
that he has never been out of my thoughts, and that my prayers have been
offered up for him constantly, morning and evening, from the day we have
been separated. Tell him, (because I know it will comfort him,) that I
have been greatly supported through my long illness by the Holy Spirit;
and greatly assisted in my preparations for my awful change, by the
kindness and superior knowledge of our dear Allen, who has enlightened
my mind, and encouraged my heart, by explaining the great truths of the
Gospel more fully than my own limited acquirements allowed me to do. And
when my brother returns to comfort the declining years of his parents,
and to gladden the hearts of you all, give him this Bible, as the last
gift of a sister, who loved him with the truest affection, and who prays
that it may conduce as much to his comfort in his latter days, as it has
done to lighten the pains of her own.”
Her lips slightly quivered as she finished the last sentence, ana, for
some minutes she was silent; then opening her eyes, she spoke a^ain: 11
Another request, dear Jessie, I have still to make; for I would rather
explain my wishes fully to you, than to any one else; and I do not wish,
after this time, to allow my thoughts to mix again with earthly cares.
When the last awful debt is paid, will you, my sister, cut from my head
a lock of my hair; divide it into parts, and when you can spare as much
of your pocket-money as to pay for it, get them enclosed in small plain
lockets, with merely my initials on them. Give them to my parents and
brothers, as a small memorandum of Annie, whom they all loved so dearly.
Mrs. Beaumont has already got my last legacy to my sister, which she
will give you when all is over. Will you promise me, Jessie, to do this?
It is in the hope, that, by-daily seeing these little remembrances,
their thoughts may be the oftener recalled to the time when they must
prepare to follow me, that I have wished them to wear them; for then I
shall be of service to them, even in the grave.”
Jessie pressed her hand to her lips, and answered, "I promise you, my
beloved sister, to fulfil your slightest wish in this, and all other
points, as faithfully as if you were still in being.”
“Enough, dear Jessie. When my father comes home, leave us for a few
minutes together; but do not stay n^re than a quarter of an hour from
the room; that will be long enough for us both to bear such an
interview.”
Jessie did as she had been requested, and William went to his daughter,
where one of the most gratifying moments of his life, though the most
difficult and painful to sustain, was prepared for him. Annie said she
had sent for him to tell him herself that she felt convinced her end was
now rapidly approaching, and to beg that he would, in the way he thought
best, prepare her mother for what a few hours would infallibly produce.
She thanked him, in the warmest and most affectionate terms, for all the
tenderness and care he had bestowed on her; entreated him to forgive
whatever omissions she had been guilty of during her life; and then
requested that he would, for the last time, bestow on her a father’s
blessing.
William was too much awed
by the astonishing and beautiful composure of the dying girl, to refuse
complying with her request; though his heart felt pained, almost to
bursting. He knelt down by her side, and prayed that he might be enabled
to fulfil the duties of a parent to his dying child; and then placing
his hand on her head, which was meekly bent down towards him, he
pronounced his blessing, and prayed that the pains of death might be
lightened to his dutiful and obedient child.
Annie merely answered, “Amen, my father!” and from that moment was
silent for several hours. Towards morning she opened her eyes; when
seeing her mother and Mrs. Beaumont watching by her, whilst Allen was on
his knees by her bedside, she held out her hand, and said, “My mother,
behold the death of the Christian you have reared. ‘O death, where is
thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?’ Thanks be to God, who# giveth
us the victory, through our Lord Jesus Christ I” She was again silent;
but in a few minutes she grasped Mrs. Beaumont’s hand hastily, saying,
44 Lord Jesus, receive my spirit I” and sunk down upon her pillow, a
lifeless corpse.
Poor Jane instantly fainted; she was gently raised from the bed on which
she had fallen, and carried into her own room by Allen, who continued to
watch by her till she revived, when he was rejoiced to see her burst
into an agony of tears, and in a few minutes he ventured. to leave her,
and return to assist in comforting his equally dear father, who,
from-the moment of his child’s death, had sat almost insensible in a
chair by the side of her bed. Allen spoke to him for a considerable
time, without being able to rouse him; till fearing to allow him to
remain longer in that state, he said, “Father, let us pray that our end
may be like hers.” William instantly rose, and kneeled down, while Allen
prayed for a few minutes, in a most impressive manner, for grace to be
enabled to prepare for death, and that comfort might visit the house of
affliction.
When they arose from their knees, William had regained his usual
composure, and kissing Allen, said, “My son, I thank you; I am now,
through your means, what a suffering Christian ought to be — submissive
to the will of God.” |