Sir Walter Scott.
In the southern part of an obscure country parish, in
one of the midland counties of Scotland, there is a deep ravine called
"The Rasp-berry Den." At the head of it a spring of limpid water
bubbles up, producing a stream which traverses its bottom for the whole
length—here fretting and brawling, with angry din, among the rough
pebhles—and there
--------in pools as clear as glass,
Kissing, with easy whirls, the bordering grass.
After
escaping from this narrow gorge, it traverses corn fields and way-sides,
for nearly half a mile, and then loses itself in a lake.
On one side the den has been ploughed to the very
margin of the stream. But the other, which is as steep as an earthen
bank can well be, offering but little temptation to the agriculturist,
has been allowed to remain in a state of nature. Thu primrose peeps
forth in the early spring time; and the raspberry bushes, from which it
derives its name, mingle with the darker green, and gayer blossoms, of
the tall broom which luxuriates along the bank—offering to holiday
ramblers a delightful shade from the rays of the summer sun. There, as
it chanced, on the afternoon of a beautiful summer's Sabbath day, sat
together an individual of either sex whom the ripe raspberries had lured
to the spot.
In a certain sense of the word, both might be said to
be young, yet not alike in youth. The maid could scarcely be more than
eighteen, and the other was at least twenty-six. What were they?,
does the reader ask. Nothing very extraordinary—neither heroes nor
heroines—princes, nor people of illustrious lineage; but common folk,
and come of common parents. The one was the daughter of a laborious
widower, whose mother had died when she was yet an infant, and she now
kept her father's house. The other was a farm-servant on the next
estate, and a native of a different county.
The two beings whom we have just introduced had
frequently met before; a manly figure, a ready wit, and au honesty of
purpose easily discovered, in the one; and an unobtrusive feminine
beauty, gentleness of manner, and sensibility of heart, the prevailing
attributes of the other, had given birth to » mutual esteem.
Their conversation turned upon the things of another
world —the sermon, and other familiar topics—then changed, as
conversations must, till at last they talked of the affections and
passions of the human heart—its deceit, disappointments, and sorrows.
This was a dangerous subject for those at the age of at least one of the
parties, perhaps for both. A strange feeling, which showed itself in her
countenance, almost overpowered the half girlish heart of Emily; and the
other, as he looked on her, felt embarrassed, he knew not how. He
thought of love —of domestic comfort—of the affections of woman, and the
happiness of those who are fortunate enough to possess them— and so
absorbing were his thoughts, that he had nearly forgotten to speak. The
emotions of both appeared to grow too strong for utterance; and their
observations became shorter, less connected, and less frequent.
In this lapse of conversation, Emily remarked that
she had often felt as if she could confide in those around her: and yet
she had seen others so often deceived, and been so often deceived
herself, that she never could speak her thoughts with freedom; and thus
she had been under the necessity of keeping them, whether pleasing or
painful, for the most part to herself.
"They do not deserve to be trusted," said her
companion, taking her hand as he spoke; while the tone of his voice, and
a sudden flush in his countenance, bespoke the depth of his emotion.
"Yet there is at least one honest heart," he continued, "which you might
trust if ever you should need a friend; and believe me when I say that I
would be proud to be thus trusted. Hark !" he added after a short pause,
and pressing her hand close to his bosom as he spoke—"hark! it beats
high at the thought."
She made no effort at resistance—she was a stranger
to art— tier heart was full—and her hand was passive. They sat for some
time in silence. He pressed her hand yet more close; then, as if
impelled by a feeling which he could not control, he raised it to his
lips, and kissed it with tremulous tenderness. But ere his emotion could
have subsided, he suddenly dropped her hand, rose hurriedly, and said he
must leave her. He had only proceeded a few steps, however, when he
turned to look again. Emily sat motionless as a statue, and her eyes
were fixed on him with a look which went to his heart. Their glance sank
to the ground with the quickness of lightning the moment they met his;
but they had already told too much. His step faltered, and he stopped.
He was in love — he acknowledged it to himself; and he began slowly and
hesitatingly to retrace the few onward steps which he had made, with the
intention of declaring it, and conjuring her, by all that was sacred, to
promise that she would yet be his wife. Already he had drawn in his
breath to speak; but emotion choked his utterance, and he stood
speechless. Previous to this period, his head had been filled with
schemes of ambition which were incompatible with marriage. There was a
struggle between the passions in his bosom, and, ashamed of standing
still and saying nothing, he once more moved slowly away.
Both went home that evening with hearts full,' and
neither slept; so that, after a night of restlessness, when morning
came, the recollection, or rather the feeling, of "those deep and
burning moments" were alike fresh in either heart. But ere evening came
again there was a difference between them. Emily had learned to conceal
her emotion, to subdue all outward signs of inward grief, and to laugh
and talk as usual. Her companion had nearly supplanted his by day-dreams
of the wealth and the name he would make in the world. Love and ambition
seldom exist long together—and ere a week had elapsed a dim reminiscence
was all that remained with him of those once warm feelings. He carefully
avoided her company; for he had learned his own weakness, and determined
not to trust his cherished dreams of future eminence with such
temptation. With Emily it was otherwise. To have known that her
affection was returned—that she was beloved by him, and to have heard
him say as much, would have consummated her utmost wishes. As the stream
wears its channel the deeper for being confined by its banks, her
affection had only concentrated itself for being narrowed by the bounds
of concealment. Hopes and fears fed it alternately, and uncertainty
fanned the secret flame. Wherefore is it that the warmest and best
affections so seldom meet a suitable return?
The year wore by, and Emily removed with her father
to a distance of many miles, leaving behind her that magnet to which her
soul still turned with the quivering fervour of first love. After
another year she saw him again in a public market; but then he regarded
her with the look of a stranger.
Thus it is with the different sexes. With man love is
a feeling which overflows his heart only at intervals; and,
though its sway may be despotic for the time, the thousand pursuits of
his life; the every-day projects to which his attention is called; the
cares and the bustle to which he is continually engaged,—to these, soon
or late, it must yield, and he is left again-a free agent. But with
woman, love is a component part of her existence—one of the elements of
her being. She was sent into the world to love, and to be beloved; and
constancy, which. even reason cannot change, is too often a feature in
her character.
Years rolled on and Emily was forgotten; though
she could not so readily forget. She heard nothing of the man to
whom she had unconsciously given her heart—who had been her happiness
and her heaven for a few brief moments; and of whom, despite herself,
she still continued to think. Notwithstanding, she also knew the
ridicule which is so often and undeservedly heaped upon old maids, and
the helpless condition to which single women among the lower orders are
often reduced in the decline of life—their dependence upon the charity
of friends, and frequently on the still colder charity of the parish,
for a wretched home and a scanty subsistence. She knew all this; and to
avoid such scenes of misery and wretchedness she had reconciled herself
to the idea of becoming the wife of another—any one, in short, who could
.offer her the prospect of a comfortable home. But even in this she
seemed destined to be unfortunate; for, though she was not without
lovers, they one by one gradually dropped off without assigning any
reason. That she was beautiful they all confessed; that her deportment
was modest and becoming they could not deny. But somehow there was a
something awanting to fix their affections; and what that something was
they could not tell—it was her heart, which was already another's. This
being the case, the only effect produced by her beauty was somewhat
similar to that of a frozen lake when the smooth ice is, as it were,
kindled into flame by reflecting the light of the sun. Every one can
admire the brilliancy and splendour of such a scene, though no one would
care for breaking the ice and plunging in, conscious as he must be that
cold water awaited him beneath. Emily could speak of love as she had
heard others speak—she could reflect the language, so to speak, as ice
reflects light; but for- all save one the cold water was beneath. The
bright spirit of affection failed to sparkle in her eye—the heart sent
no fresh colour to her cheek—the mighty charm was awanting.
There are some who suppose it quite possible for a
woman, by the mere fascination of her face and person, to. keep love
alive in one of the other sex for any length of time. Instances of this
kind may have occurred, but they are rare. Man is a calculating being,
and even where he is most disinterested he always expects something in
return. His benevolence is the hire of gratitude, paid in advance; his
generosity is bestowed to buy fame; his friendship is conferred that he
may have friends; and his heart, when he gives it, is only given in
exchange for another. His love may live long upon little, and Hope may
feed it for a time with fantasies of its own forming; but deprive it of
that little, and those fantasies, and the sentiment will soon cease to
exist, though the dregs which it often leaves behind it,—regret, shame,
indignation, despair—either or all of these may, in effect, resemble it
so closely as to he mistaken for it by the individual himself.
Emily, after various flittings, now lived in a
house on the outskirts of a small village, or rather group of houses,
called the Grange, in the immediate neighbourhood of the extensive
Limeworks of P------. Most of the young women here were weavers; and
Emily, from necessity or some other reason, had also "learned the loom."
From the proximity of the Lime-works, many of these female artisans had
sweethearts among those who were employed in blasting and burning the
rock; and this being the case, it was to be expected that they should
take a sort of interest in the gossip and whatever else was going on in
the quarries. But Emily, though among them, was not of their number. She
had reached her twenty-fourth year with her heart still faithful to its
first impression; and at this age, early as it was, she had
wholly abandoned the thought of marriage.
While matters stood thus, a sort of sensation was
given to the place, and a fresh subject for conversation afforded, by
the arrival of a new workman at the quarries. He had been brought from a
distance by the master quarryman, and received high wages for the
purpose of introducing an improved method of blasting the rock. He was a
stout, well-built man, muscular and handsome; and though computed to he
nearly thirty years of age, his looks, which were not the worse for
wear, were such as to procure him very general admiration among the
female part of this little community. Those who had conversed with him
said he was quick-witted, affable, and obliging. But what served to give
a double interest to his arrival, and make him ten times more spoken of
than otherwise he would have been, was the circumstance of his being
silent as to his friends and connections, and his former place of
residence; he had not oven told his name, and no one as yet had ventured
to inquire it of him. This mystery, it was surmised by the more
discerning part of the community, he kept up merely for the purpose of
making a wonder. And if such were his intention, he perfectly succeeded;
for the Stranger, as he was called, with all his sayings and
doings, became the subject of more frequent conversation and conjecture
than King Solomon would have been, though he had come hack with a
cart-load of wisdom in his train. He had told that he was not married;
and more than one of the young women, while they manifested no small
anxiety and wonderment about his parentage and the place of his
nativity, had already formed designs upon his heart, and wished secretly
for opportunities of becoming acquainted with the Stranger. If any two
of them met, ten to one but the Stranger was, if not the first, at least
the second or third word which was spoken; in short, the Stranger seemed
to have possessed them with a sort of mania.
Emily saw and heard all this without any anxiety or
wonder about the matter; and of the young women of the Grange she alone
had not seen him. "What was the Stranger to her?"
On the forenoon of the fourth day from his arrival,
as he was employed in driving a charge, the powder ignited, and it went
off, throwing him, along with several large fragments of rock, into the
air., After the smoke and dust had cleared away, he was found lying,
apparently lifeless, on a heap of sharp splinters and loose stones at
some distance. He soon began to breathe; but his head, face, and other
parts of his body, were so fearfully scorched, and the blood flowed with
such rapidity from a number of deep wounds, that there was scarcely any
hopes of his surviving beyond an hour at most. His fellow-workmen,
however, made what haste they could to remove him from the cairn on
which he had been thrown; and that he might not "die in the fields like
a beast," as they expressed it, one of the stoutest of them, after
wrapping a mat around him to prevent the blood from smearing his
clothes, took the corpse-like figure on his back, and they proceeded in
a body to the Grange. The house in which Emily lived happened to be the
nearest, and to it they brought him. So convinced were they of the
hopelessness of his case, that they had deemed it unnecessary to send
for medical assistance. But as fortune would have it, just as they
brought the bloody, mangled, and scarcely breathing form of the Stranger
up to the door, a surgeon chanced to pass, who kindly offered to examine
and dress his wounds, which done, he retired, promising to return on the
morrow to see what would be the issue.
From the moment the Stranger was brought in, Emily
had taken a deep interest in his fate. Dismay, surprise, and sympathy,
were portrayed in the countenances of all who were present; and in these
feelings she was only a participator with the others. But her heart beat
violently with some unwonted and strong emotion, as he was laid on the
bed; and after the surgeon, and most of his fellow-labourers had left
him—when his moanings intermitted, and he sunk into a state of
comparative quiet — she watched his troubled rest and heavy breathing
with an anxiety as intense as if he had been her brother. And ever and
anon, as the sigh of pain convulsed his bosom, or the shade of increased
suffering passed over his swollen and distorted countenance, her silent
but earnest prayer would ascend to the throne on high, to plead with Him
who sitteth thereon, for the recovery of the Stranger.
After a few hours of that stupor which had been
occasioned l<y the complete exhaustion of nature, he awoke in a state of
mind similar to what may be supposed of one awaking from a trance, or—if
such a thing could be—from the dead. All was confusion and chaos. The
deprivation of sense had been so sudden, and his brain so much stunned
by the concussion, that he could recall nothing distinctly. A sense of
pain, and a confused recollection of a stupifying shock, blended with a
dim idea of his having been far from home, and among strangers, was all
he possessed. He had been, moreover, totally blind from the moment at
which the explosion happened, and, consequently, could obtain no
information from sight of what was passing. In this strange state, he at
last found strength to inquire "what had befallen him, and where he
was?" But how was the interest which Emily had taken in him increased,
and the wild beat of her heart renewed, when in these accents, now
tremulous and weak, she recognised the same voice which had once told
her, in tones of emotion never to be forgotten, "that there was at least
one honest heart which she might trust." Alas the change! She had been
but too rash and ready to trust; and now the man who could forego the
faith and the affection of a heart worth more than all he had to give in
exchange, was thrown upon her care in such a state that a single rude
breath would have sufficed to extinguish the feeble flickerings of
life's taper in his bosom, and leave him a prey for the worms to fatten
on.
If he had been regarded with feelings of sisterly
affection when he was a stranger, now that he was known, he was watched
and nursed with all the tenderness and care with which a mother watches
and nurses her sick infant. His case was an extraordinary one, and as
such excited general sympathy. Cordials, to prevent nature from sinking
under the pain he endured, and clothes to keep him warm in his exhausted
and almost bloodless condition, were contributed in abundance by the
people around; and the Stranger was cared for as if he had been the
patriarch of the place.
In a few days the surgeon, who had visited him
regularly from the time of his misfortune, pronounced him free from
fever, and in a fair way of recovery. The swelling, too, of his head and
face, began to abate a little, and he could partially open his eyelids.
On the following day, the surgeon, after examining them, gave it as his
opinion, that though they might continue weak for a time, they would
ultimately recover from the injury they had sustained. When he heard
this, his spirits seemed to be relieved from the burden which hitherto
had pressed on them—the fear that though he might live, he would be an
object for life; and a bright expression grew upon his countenance, as
he raised his dim eyes, for the first time, to that face and form, which
was again hending over him, as if to be satisfied of the truth of what
the surgeon had said.
Though he was now considered out of danger, he still
continued to suffer acute pain; and as lying in one position often
became irksome, Emily would sometimes sit behind him for hours
supporting him in bed, with his head resting on her bosom, and her hands
thrown across his breast, to keep the clothes close about him. One day
as she sat there, after heaving a deep sigh, he once more took her hand,
but he took it with feelings widely different from those with which he
had grasped it on a former occasion. Then he was an object of general
admiration among women. The symmetry of his form, and the healthy hue of
his manly countenance, secured to him their favour wherever he came, and
he' felt confident of success wherever he might choose to apply as a
suitor. But his heart was the theatre of ambitious schemes; and though
neither dead to feeling, nor deaf to the voice of nature, he was too
busy to appreciate the worth of woman's love, or to relish the soft
endearments of domestic affection. Such was he, and such were his hopes
and prospects then. But now, his ambitious schemes had vanished—death
had been before his eyes, and the grim phantom had hunted them out of
sight. He was feeble as a child—his face ploughed with scars—his vanity
subdued— with much in his appearance to excite pity, and nothing to draw
the admiring gaze, or fascinate the heart of a female. And in this
state, he felt that the care and- tenderness of Emily were worth more
than worlds to him; and he would have given worlds, had he been
possessed of them, in exchange for the prospect of living and dying
beside her. He knew that she had once loved him : her look had told it—a
look which his weakness had summoned from the oblivion in which it had
long lain, and again placed before him with accusing accuracy. But how
could she endure the idea of such a wreck as he now was for her future
husband? The question staggered him. Though he had fancied
himself more than equal to the task, for a time he could find no words
to tell her that his only hope of happiness lay with her. And at last,
when he could speak—in broken and unconnected sentences, such as have
ever formed the language of the deepest and most heartfelt affection,
and in faltering tones, such as have often been found more eloquent in
woman's ear, than all the tropes and figures of speech put together—when
he could speak, she was silent. But though she did not
answer him in words, he felt the wild beat of her heart at his back, and
did not drop her hand, but continued to hold and press it, and entreat
her to pity, if she could not love him, till the maid, with deep
blushes, and in tones as tremulous as his own, had promised to be the
wife of the Stranger.
His recovery, though slow, was perfect. His looks,
though considerably injured, are still the index of his heart; and when
his face, brightened with the beam of affection, is turned on the woman
who is now his wife, to her it seems to possess all the beauty she could
wish, and even more than its former fascination. They live together
blessed in the reciprocity of love, which has stood the test of years
and intimate acquaintance—that test of all others the most trying;
rich in reflected smiles and mutual confidence ; and strangers
only to the curse which prevents many people from being happy, because
they cannot be miserable in a fashionable way.