In a beautiful Town in
the south of Scotland, distinguished by the noble river that Sweeps by
its gardens, its majestic bridge, its old crumbling tower, and a
Grandee’s princely domains that stretch with their single gigantic
trees, and many spacious groves, all around the clustered habitations,
resided, for one-half year, an English Officer of Cavalry and a young
and lovely woman, who was—not his wife. He was the youngest son of a
noble family, and, with some of the vices, possessed many of the virtues
of his profession.
That he was a man of weak principles, he showed by having attached to
him, by the tenderest ties, one who, till she had known him, had been
innocent, Happy, and respected; that he was not a man of bad principles,
he showed by an attention to her as gentle, refined, and constant as
ever husband paid to wife.
He loved her truly and well. She was his mistress
—degraded—despised—looked on with curious and scornful eyes—unspoken to
but by his voice, solitary indeed when he was absent, and revived by his
presence into a troubled and miserable delight, that even more than her
lonely agonies told her that she was for ever and irretrievably lost.
She was his mistress— that was known to the grave who condemned, to the
gay who connived, and to the tender-hearted who pitied them both, her
and her seducer; but though she knew that such was her odious name, yet
when no eyes were upon her but those of Marmaduke Stanley, she forgot or
cared not for all that humiliation, and conscious of her own affection,
fidelity, and, but for him, innocence too, she sometimes even admitted
into her heart a throb of joy and of pride in the endearments and
attachment of him whom all admired and so many had loved. To be
respectable again was impossible—but to be true to the death unto her
seducer, if not her duty, was now her despair—and while she prayed to
God for forgiveness, she also prayed that, when she died, her head might
be lying on his guilty but affectionate bosom. To fly from him, even if
it were to become a beggar on the high-w ay, or a gleaner in the field,
often did her conscience tell her; but though conscience spoke so, how
could it act, when enveloped and fettered in a thousand intertwisted
folds of affections and passions, one and all of them as strong as the
very spirit of life?
Helen Eyre prayed that she might die: and her prayer was granted. He who
should have been her husband, had been ordered suddenly away to
America,— and Helen was left behind, (not altogether friendless, as her
health was delicate, and she was about to become a mother, They parted
with many tears—as husband and wife would have parted—but dearly as she
loved her Marmaduke, she hoped that he might never see her more, and in
a few years forget that such 'a creature had ever been. She blessed him
before he went away even upon her knees, in a fit of love, grief, fear,
remorse, and contrition; and as she beheld him wave his white plumes
towards her from a distance, and then disappear among the trees, she
said, “Now I am left alone for repentance, with my God!”
This unfortunate young creature gave birth to a child ; and after
enjoying the deep delight of its murmuring lips for a few days, during
which the desire of life revived within her, she expired with it asleep
in her bosom. Small/ indeed, was the funeral of the English officer’s
fair English mistress. But she was decently and quietly laid in her
grave ; for, despised as she had been when living, she was only pitied
now, and no one chose to think but of her youth, her beauty, her pale
and melancholy face, her humble mien, and acts of kindness and charity
to the poor, whom she treated always as her superiors—for they, though
in w ant, might be innocent, and she had gone far astray. Where, too,
thought many, who saw the funeral pass by, where are her relations at
this moment? No doubt, so pretty and elegant a being must have had many
who once loved and were proud of her —but such thoughts past by with the
bier,—she was buried, and a plain stone laid over her, according to her
own desire: “Here lies Helen Eyre, an Orphan, Aged Twenty-two Years.”
There was one true Christian who had neither
been afraid nor ashamed to visit Helen Eyre during the few last weeks of
her life, when it seemed almost certain that life was near its close.
This was Mrs Montgomery, the widow of a country gentleman of good
family, who had for some years resided in the town. This excellent woman
knew Marmaduke Stanley; and was not a stranger to the circumstances of
this unfortunate and guilty connection. On his departure she had
promised to take care that Helen Eyre should be looked after in her
illness,—and, when the hand of death lay upon the poor friendless
Orphan, she was frequently with her -at her bedside, administering
comfort and consolation. Such kindness from such a person, at such a
time, supported the soul of the dying mother when it was most
disconsolate; it quieted all the natural fears of dissolution; and when
she, whose own life had been a model of all that was good and beautiful
and lofty in the female character, bent down over the penitent sinner
and kissed her fair young brow, now cold and clammy in the death-throes,
that Christian kiss seemed to assure her that she might be forgiven;
and, if God, as we believe, beholds the creatures he has made, it was
registered in Heaven.
Mrs Montgomery took the infant into her own house—and had written, to
inform its father of what had happened, when she read in a newspaper
that, in a skirmish, Major Marmaduke Stanley had been killed. She then
opened a letter he had left with her on his departure—and found that he
had bequeathed his small fortune of four thousand pounds to Mrs
Montgomery, that she might settle it properly on the mother of his child
if she survived, if not, upon the infant. The infant Orphan was
christened Helen Eyre, after its mother, whom, frail as she had been,
there was no need that her child, at least, should ever disown. No one
wished to have the baby that now belonged to none. And this excellent
lady, from no whim, no caprice, no enthusiasm, but touched at the heart
with its utter aud forlorn helplessness, by sorrow for its poor mother's
transgression and early fate,-and by something of a maternal affection
for its dead father, resolved to adopt Helen Eyre as her own child, and
to educate her in a woman’s accomplishments, and a Christian’s faith.
Some smiled—some disdained—and a few even blamed—the kindness that could
rescue an orphan from an orphan’s fate. Many, too, wondered, they knew
not why, when it was known that Mai or Stanley had left all his fortune
to Mrs Montgomery for behoof of the child. But in a few months it was
felt by every one, whatever they might choose, to acknowledge, that the
brave soldier had had a good heart, and that he had committed the
interests of his Orphan, even before she was born, to one whose
character was summed up in that one word—a Christian.
It often seems as if those children who have fewest to love them in the
world grow up the most worthy of love. Here was an Orphan—born in sin,
in shame, and in sox*row—and now left alone on the earth—who grew up
beautiful to all eyes, and captivating to all hearts. Before five
summers had shone upon Tier blue eyes, the child was noticeable among
all other children. Her mother had been lovely, and there was a time,
too, it was said, when her presence had been welcome in the halls even
of the noble, who had visited her parents in their pleasant dwelling
beside their own Church. Her, father, however deficient in more solid
worth, had been the ornament of polished: life; and it seemed as if
nature preserved in this small and beautiful and graceful image the
united attractions of both the unfortunate dead. The very loneliness of
the sweet child, without a natural home in the world, could not but
interest every good heart; but her ex-1 ceeding beauty made an
impression almost like that of love even upon the heartless—and “<
English Helen”—so she was familiarly called, to distinguish her from
another child of the same Christian name at school, was a favourite with
all. Besides, she was' the adopted daughter of Mrs Montgomery, and that
added a charm even to her beauty, her sweetness, and her innocence.
The heart of Helen Eyre expanded, month after month, in the joy of its
innocence, and felt the holy voice of nature whispering to' it new
feelings of love and affection. The children w ith whom she played had
fathers and mothers, brothers and sisters, and many other friends. She
had none. She loved the Lady who was so good to her, and by whose bed
she slept at night on her own small couch. But she knew that it was not
her mother with whom she lived. She had been told that both father and
mother were dead; and sometimes the sweet child wept for those she had
never seen, and of whom she knew nothing but that they had both been,
buried long ago. Something sad and-melancholy, therefore, mixed itself
with youth’s native gladness, and a corresponding expression settled
itself about her eyes, and often smoothed the dimples on her smiling
cheeks. “English Helen’s” own heart told her what she had often heard
her childish companions say, that she was an orphan; but she knew that
though that was something mournful, it could not be wicked, and that',
therefore, people would pity, her more—not love her less—because her
father had been killed in the wars, and her mother had died soon after
she was born of a broken heart One day Helen Eyre had wandered with some
of her companions into the church-yard, near the Old Tower, and,
attracted by the murmuring blossoms of a shady horse-chesnut tree, that
hung its branches over several tombs and grave-stones, in a comer near
the river side, she tripped into the shade, and letting fall her eyes
upon a grey slab, she read there her own name, the inscription on her
mother's grave. She went home drowned in tears, and asked her guardian,
if that was not the stone under which her mother was buried. The good
old Lady went with her to the church-yard, and they sat down together
upon that stone. Helen was now ten years, old; and perhaps had heard,
although she scarcely knew that she had, some dim intimations in the
language of her playfellows, which they themselves had not understood,
that she was “a natural child.” Mrs Montgomery spoke to her about her
parents; and while the sweet child kept her weeping eyes fixed upon her
face, as she spoke in a bewildered and perplexing grief, she came to
know at last that her mother had been guilty of a great sin, but had
been forgiven by God, and had died happy. The child was told, too,
although that she could scarcely ^believe, that some might love herself
less for that reason; but that the truly good would love her the more,
if she continued to be what she now was, innocent, sweet tempered, and
obedient to God’s holy laws. “Your mother, Helen, was a kind, gentle,
and religious being; and you must always think so, when you weep for
her, here beside her grave, or elsewhere. When you are older, I will
tell you more about her, and about your birth. But my beloved, my good,
and my beautiful child, for I do not fear to call thee so, even to thy
sweet face— , be not ashamed—hold up your head, Helen, among your
companions, and my hands, as long as I live, will dress for thee that
guileless bosom, and tend the flowing of that glossy hair. I am your
mother now, Helen, are you not willing to be my child?” The orphan could
make no reply, for her little heart was full, almost to breaking—and she
could only kiss the hand that took hers gently into it, and bathe it w
ith happy and affectionate tears. They left the church-yard ; and before
they reached the sweet cottage on the river’s side, Helen was gazing
with delight on the queen butterflies, as they for a moment expanded the
rich, brown, mottled, and scarlet wings on the yellow lustre of the
laburnums, and then glanced, careering away over the fruit trees into
other gardens, or up into the sunshine of the open day.
In Scotland there prevails, it is believed, a strong feeling of .an
indefinite kind towards those whose birth has been such as that of poor
Helen Eyre. This feeling is different in different minds; but, perhaps,
in very few, such as seems reconcileable with a true Christian spirit.
Scorn and aversion towards the innocent, however modified, or restrained
by better feelings, is not surely; in any circumstances, a temper of
mind any where expressly recommended, or indirectly instilled by any
passages in the New Testament; "and with reverence be it spoken, if we
could magine ourselves listening to the Living Christ, we should not
expect to hear from his lips lessons of contumely, or hard-heartedness
to poor, simple, innocent, orphan children.
The morality of society is not to be protected by the encouragement of
any feelings which Christianity condemns; and as such is the
constitution of this world, that the innocent often suffer for the
guilty, that is an awful consideration to deter from vice, but surely it
is no reason for. adding to the misfortunes of virtue. In coarse and
vulgar minds this feeling towards illegitimate children is a loathing
repugnance, and a bitter and angry scorn. And the name by which they
call them is one that comes from their mouths steeped in inhuman pride,
as if there were in it an odious contamination. Alas! who are they that
thus turn away with loathing from beings formed by God in his own
language? Are they all pure—and innocent—and aloof from transgression?
Or may not in such cases the scorn of the despicable, .the mean, the
cruel, the ignorant, and the licentious, fall upon the head of the
generous, the just, the pure, the intelligent, the refined and the pious
? It is often so. Now, society has its own laws, and they are often
stern enough; but let them never, with the good, prevail against the
laws of nature; and let every mind that entertains the feeling now
alluded to, be cautious, in justice to itself and to a fellow creature,
and in due reverence of a common Creator, to separate from it all
undeserved .virulence, all unchristian contumely—all unbrotherly or
unsisterly hatred, and then they will know to how little it amounts, and
how easily it must be forgotten in the contemplation of excellence;—and
then, too, will they feel a far deeper compassion for them in whose
minds that other rooted passion of contempt so rankly grows. There were
many who wondered that Mrs Montgomery could have adopted such an Orphan.
And with that coarse wonder they turned away from that noble, highborn,
high-bred' and, what was far better, tenderhearted, compassionate, and
pious lady, and from the beautiful creature at. her side rejoicing in
protected innocence and awakened intelligence, beneath the light of her
gracious affection.
As Helen Eyre grew out of her sweet girlhood into the ripening beauty of
her virgin prime, this feeling regarding her became somewhat stronger.
For now there was the jealousy—the envy—and the spite of little minds,
painfully conscious of their inferiority, and impatient of total
eclipse. They had the tone of the world’s most worldly heart on their
side; and it was easy, pleasant, safe, and satisfactory, to hang a cloud
over her by one single word that could not be gainsay fed, when it was
felt that in itself the flower was fragrant and most beautiful. Campbell
has, in the simple words of genius, spoken of the “ magic of a name”—so
likewise is there a blight in a name— a blight which may not fall on its
object, but which can wither up the best feelings of our nature which
the sight of that object was formed to cherish and expand. Helen by
degrees instructed her heart in this knowledge, which from nature alone
she never could have had—her guardian had told her the story of her
birth—she read in books of persons situated as she was —and although
sometimes" her heart rebelled at what could not but appear to her most
impious injustice, and although even sometimes she felt a sort of angry
and obstinate pride which she knew was wrong—yet such was the felicity
of her nature, that the knowledge wrought no disturbance in her
character; and she was now in her undisputed beauty, her acknowledged
accomplishments, and her conscious innocence, humble but happy, sedate
but not depressed, not too ready either with her smiles or tears, but
prodigal of both 'when nature knocked at her heart, and asked admission
there for grief or for joy.
Helen Eyre was no object of pity; for her bark had been drawn up into a
quiet haven, and moored to a green shore overspread with flowers. Yet
still she was an Orphan, and the world wore a different aspect to. her
eyes from that which it presented to other young persons, with troops of
friends and relations, bound to them by hereditary connections, or by
the ties of blood. They had daily presented to them food for all the
affections of the heart; their feelings had not either to sleep or else
to be self-stirred, for a thousand pleasant occurrences were constantly
touching them with almost unconscious delight Life to them offered a
succession of pleasures ready made to their hands, and they had but to
bring hearts capable of enjoyment. Little demand is made on such as
those, so long as health continues, and their worldly affairs are
prosperous, to look often, or deeply,' or steadily, into their own
souls. But with this Orphan the case was very different. She was ofiten
left alone to commune with her own heart; and unless thoughts, and
feelings, and fancies rose up there, she must have been desolate. Her
friends were often not living beings of the same age, and with the same
pursuits as herself, for of them she came at last to have but few, but
they were still, calm, silent, pure, and holy thoughts that passed in
trains before her, when the Orphan was sitting in her solitude, with no
one near to cheer her, or to disturb. When she read in the history of
real life, or in the fictions of poetry, of characters who acted their
parts well, and walked in the light of nature beautiful and blest, or
tried and triumphant in the fires of affliction, these she made the
friends of her heart, and with these she would hold silent communion all
the day long. No eyes seemed averted from her, no faces frowned, nor did
any harsh voices rise up among the dead. All the good over whom the
grave had closed were felt to be her friends ; into that purified world
no unkind feelings could intrude; and the Orphan felt no bar to
intervene between her beating heart, and those who were the objects of
her profound and devout affection. From the slights, or the taunts, or
the coldness of living acquaintances, Helen Eyre could always turn to
these sacred intimacies and friendships, unbroken and unimpaired; she
could bring a tender light from the world of memory to soften down the
ruggedness or the asperities of present existence, and thus while she
was in one sense an Orphan, almost alone in life, in another she w as
the child of a family , noble, rich powerful, great, and good.
Of such a happy nature, and trained by the wisdom of her youthful
innocence to such habits of emotion and thought, Helen Eyre felt—but not
keenly—the gradual falling off and decay of almost all her
school-friendships., Some of her companions left that part of the
country altogether, and she heard of them no more—some went home in the
neighbourhood, and in a short time recogized her when they chanced to
meet by a civil smile, question, curtesy, or shake of the hand, and no
more—-some seemed to forget her altogether, or to be afraid to remember
her—and some treated her with a condescending, and patronizing, and
ostentaious kindness, which she easily understood to be a mixture of
fear, shame, and pride. Such things as these Helen generally felt to be
trifles; nor did they permanently affect her peace. But sometimes, when
her heart, like that of others, desired a homely, a human, and a lowly
happiness, and was willing to unite itself in that happiness with one
and all of its youthful friends, whoever they might be, poor Helen could
not but feel the cruelty and injustice of such alienation, and perhaps
may have wept unseen, to think that she was not allowed to share the
affection even of the vulgar, the ignorant, and the mean. Many who at
school, before they had learned the lessons of the world, truly and
conscientiously loved her, and were grateful to “English Helen” for the
assistance she lent them in their various tasks, and for her sweet and
obliging disposition in all things, began now to keep down their natural
emotions towards her, and to give way to the common sentiment. Tawdry
Misses, destitute of all accomplishments, and ignorant of all knowledge
needful or graceful to woman’s soul, were ashamed to be thought friends
of Helen Eyre, and thought it necessary to explain, that she was only an
acquaintance when they were at the Olivers Boarding-school, adding, that
she was to be pitied, for that although, like all persons in her
situation, she was excessively proud, yet she was certainly very clever,
and did not want heart.
No doubt, it would have been nothing very remarkable, laid Helen Eyre,
under such circumstances, become what such excellent judges esteemed her
to be, irritable, unamiable, and proud. This treatment might have soured
her disposition, and armed her again of an unjust and cruel world. Some
struggles she may have lied against such feelings, for she was not
without her frailties and imperfections; her cheek may have flushed, and
her heart beat with indignation, when insulted by overweening civility,
or spiteful scorn Though she felt pride to be a vice, so was meanness;
and Orphan as she was, and illegitimate too, conscious innocence and
virtue, good-will for her fellow-creatures, and piety to her Creator,
gave her rights and privileges which were entitled to respect, and
which, without blame, she might vindicate, when slighted, insulted, or
abused. Therefore, though humble, she was not abased, and a mild pensive
dignity overspread all her demeanour which abashed the mean, and won the
commendation of all whose souls possessed a single spark of native
nobility. Indeed, in her presence .it was no. easy matter to maintain or
put into practice those unchristian principles which, when she was
absent, burst forth in all their abject and slavish violence.
Her guardian, protector, and mother, Mrs Montgomery, was a woman who did
not pretend to be. altogether free from those prejudices, or
feelings—-which she knew were too often carried to a wicked, and sinful
degree. But having had Helen put into her arms when an infant, out of
the yet warm bosom of her dead mother, she had then felt but as a human,
being and a Christian towards a helpless child. Affection kept pace with
Helen’s growth, beauty, virtues, and accomplishments; and not the
slightest shade of this feeling now overcast her love. It had long been,
extinguished by the power of innocence arid joy; ;md the knowledge of
the strength of such prejudices, in the minds of others had now only thp.
effect of i% creasing her pride in her dear Orphan, and of adding a
holier tenderness to her protecting love. ff Shall she be despised whom
every morning and every night, I see on her knees before her God—she
whom that God has created so good and so beautiful—and who would die for
the sake of my old grey hairs!” There was no occasion to conceal one
thought from Helen Eyre—she knew her situation now perfectly and
wisely—she acknowledged that her parents' sins were a misfortune to
her—she was willing to bear the burden of their errors—to suffer what
must be suffered— and to enjoy meekly, humbly, and gratefully, what
might be enjoyed. Were all the world to despise her —such was her
gratitude and affection to her mother, that in that alone she could be
satisfied—to live for her—to tend her declining age—and if surviving
her, to dedicate the holiest thoughts of her retired life to her memory.
But there was one whom Helen Eyre could call her friend, one as young,
as innocent, almost as beautiful as herself, and that was Constance
Beaumont. Constance was the daughter of an old, indeed a noble family,
and her mother, although justly proud of her rank in society, had not
discountenanced her childish friendship with Helen, who lived under the
roof of one of her own most respected friends. Still, this was a
friendship which she had wished in her heart might insensibly fade away
as her daughter advanced in life; for although her nature was above all
miserable scorn towards a young creature so worthy of all love, yet she
properly wished that the heart of her only daughter should be among her
own kin, and that its deepest and tenderest sympathies should not be
drawn away from the bosom of her own family. She had cheerfully allowed
Constance to bring Helen to the Hirst during the vacations, and she
could not but love the sweet Orphan. She saw that her daughter could
never learn anything bad, or mean, or vulgar, from such a companion,
but, on the contrary, could „not fail to have every virtue-expanded, and
every accomplishment heightened, by communication with one to whom
nature had been so-lavish in her endowments. Mrs Beaumont had too much
good feeling, and too much good sense, to seek to break off such a
friendship in their riper years ; but it could' scarcely be called
blameable if she wished and, hoped in her heart, that its passionate
warmth might-be abated. She had another reason for desiring this, which
she scarcely yet owned to her own heart—she had an only Son, whose
education in England was now completed, and who, she feared, might love
Helen Eyre. The thought of such an alliance was unendurable—and Mrs
Beaumont believed, that, dearly as she loved her Son, she would rather
see him in his grave, than married to an illegitimate orphan.
That such was the state of this Lady’s mind, Helen Eyre had too true a
sense of her own condition not to know. Of her thoughts respecting her
Son, indeed, she in her thoughtless innocence could suspect nothing, nor
had she ever seen him but once when he was a. schoolboy. But she knew
that Mrs Beaumont was proud —though not offensively so—of her own
ancestry and of her dead husband’s; indeed, her stately manners were
slightly tinged -with pride—and Helen had never left the spacious and
rich rooms of the Hirst, and its gallery of old ancestral Portraits,
without a feeling, not of depression arising from her own
insignificance, but of the wide distance at which she stood in rank from
her best-beloved friend and sister, the amiable and graceful Constance.
Neither could she help feeling that Constance must feel this too; and
every time she met or parted with her, there was now a faint sadness at
her heart, and something that seemed to forebode separation.
But Constance Beaumont was too high-born to fear making a friend of one
on whose birth there was a stain, even if she had not been too
high-minded to suffer such a cause to interrupt their friendship. Strong
and secure in her own high rank, and stronger and more secure still in
her noble nature, no sooner did she discern the full extent of the
general sentiment entertained towards Helen Eyre on the. score of her
birth, than every warm, pure, disinterested, and passionate emotion of
her soul rose up y earning towards her, and she vowed, that as Helen had
been the delight and blessing of her childhood and early youth, so
should her heart be bound to her all life long, and own her at ah times
and in all places, with affection, gratitude, and pride. Accordingly,
she never was in the town where Helen resided without visiting her—she
kept up a constant and affectionate correspondence with her—she insisted
on seeing her frequently at the Hirst— and often, often, with all' the
eager joyfulness of lovers did these two beautiful and happy young
creatures meet, almost by stealth, in the woods and groves, and among
the gently sloping hills, to enjoy a solitary hour of impassioned
friendship. Constance would not have disobeyed her mother in any
positive injunction; of these sisterly assignations she was conscious
that her mother would not have approved; but were the best and sweetest
of all natural feelings to give way to a faint consideration of a
doubtful duty? Could such disobedience be called wrong? And if it were
so, might not the fault be repeated over and over again without remorse
or self-upbraidmg? So Constance felt and so she acted—nor in thus being
a dutiful friend, is there any reason to believe that she was an
undutiful daughter.
Thus was opening upon her the sweet and dewy prime of the Orphan’s life,
wThen an annual Meeting took place of all the first Families in the
county, and indeed of people of all ranks and conditions, on a large
meadow by the river side, near the town, to witness the skill of the
“Ancient Band of Border Bowmen.” The sunny day flowed on in joyful and
exhilarating pastimes, and in the evening there was a splendid Assembly.
Mrs Montgomery was there, and Helen Eyre by her side. All the youth,
beauty, and grace of the south of Scotland were present together, and
although Helen Eyre was certainly one of the loveliest of the lovely, it
could not be said that she attracted universal attention. There were
many circles formed round many attractive centres—none shone exactly
like the moon among the lesser stars—but of these stars themselves some
were brighter than others, or diffused a mellower lustre. Helen Eyre
knew her own situation—neither proud nor ashamed; her dress was simpler
than tliat of many others, but such as it became a lady to wear on such
an occasion—a few pearls were round her soft auburn hair—and no eye
looked upon her once, sitting half retired in her modest loveliness,
without looking again and again—no heart, perhaps, but felt,.after
ranging over all the splendid galaxy, that there was. one who had only
to come forward, and seek, in order to gain the prize of grace,
elegance, and beauty. The music —the dancing—the stir—the waving of
plumes— the sparkling of gems—smiling countenances, and happy voices—all
touched the Orphan to the very heart—that heart kindled with the -joy of
youth, and scarcely ever had Helen Eyre felt so happy and so embued
with, the bliss of life. All thoughts were banished but those of
exhilaration and gladness— she surrendered up her spirit to the gaiety,
the, mirth, and the glee that were sparkling, and whispering, and moving
all around her—and she felt that a Ball was ndeed one of, the most
delightful things in this world.
Mrs Montgomery had her pride, too, in her Orphan, as well as any mother
in her child; and she took care that Helen Eyre should either have
respectable friends—or none. This was the' first Public Meeting at which
Helen had been present,* and when she saw every one dancing around her,
her light heart longed to join the groupe. She looked with sparkling and
delighted eyes on her sweet Constance, distinguished wherever she moved
along; and at length that beautiful Girl came up to her, and whispered
in her ear, that her brother, who liad arrived from England too late for
the archery, desired to be made acquainted with one of whom he had heard
so much—Helen Eyre. Helen looked to Mrs Montgomery, and rising up,
blushing, but unembarrassed, joined the dance with Henry Beaumont. As
they took their place in the good old country-dunce, (not very far from
the top,) there was much tossing of heads—pursing of mouths—bridling up
of elegant and inelegant figures—loud whispering—considerable
tittering—and some little downright rudeness. But beauty will have its
triumph; and Helen Eyre stood unruffled in that small storm. Henry
Beaumont, too, was a young man of birth and great estates—by far the
most elegant and accomplished person in the room, and an Officer in the
Guards; and it was soon understood by the male part of the scorners,
that it might not be quite prudent to express scorn or slight towards
any body who stood opposite to him in the dance. There was a haughtiness
in his eye somewhat distressing to upstart people, and he carried
himself in a way not very describable, but quite intelligible to the
meanest and most vulgar capacity. He was likewise upwards of six. feet
high—and when it was his turn to lead off with Helen Eyre, there was a
most polite attention shown to all their movements. It is no great
merit, surely, to dance well; but now it seemed as it were—for every eye
was turned upon that graceful pair, and even the most senselessly and
basely proud felt that it was a pity Helen Eyre had been so born, for
that she excelled in every thing she tried, and was, indeed, most truly
beautiful. Helen felt, and she enjoyed her triumph. To herself she
attributed little of the politeness shown by young Beaumont; but her
heart overflowed with gratitude towards Constance; and when she again
took her seat beside Mrs Montgomery, scarcely could she refrain from
tears, so touched was she by the noble, kindness of her friend. The
evening past away delightfully—Helen did not dance again—but she was
frequently spoken to by young Beaumont, and whether her happiness gave a
colour to every thing around her, or it was really so, she thought that
all her acquaintances looked less coldly and distantly upon her, and
that little or no distinction seemed now to exist between herself and
the other young and happy creatures laughing and talking on every side.
She even dreamt of this meeting in her sleep; and in that dream it was
not probable that' she should see every body except young Henry
Beaumont.
Henry Beaumont never concealed his feelings; and next day he declared to
his mother, that all Scotland did not hold such another delightful
creature as Helen Eyre! The old Lady heard these words with great
gravity and solemnly, and said that she hoped her son would remember his
birth, and not fall in love with such a person as poor Helen Eyre,
however good and beautiful. “Fall in love, mother—who-talks of falling
in love? I have not fallen ox love— not I—but this much is certain, that
I must inquire of all my partners how they are this morning—and with
that he flung out of the room, mounted his horse, and galloping across
the country, as if at steeple chace, he soon found himself walking in a
pretty little garden on Tweedside with the good, worthy, old Mrs
Montgomery and her fair Helen. He called upon none of his other partners
that day at least, and his subsequent asseverations that he had not'
fallen in love became less and less vehement. The truth is,' that he had
fallen in love—that he was desperately enamoured—and being a young man
of ardent feelings and headstrong will, he swore an oath within his
soul, on parting from Helen that forenoon, that, if he could gain her
love, he would make her his wife!
Henry Beaumont was not without pride—indeed it was his besetting sin.
But his heart was full of tenderness, and the situation of Helen Eyre
was such as to bring all that tenderness up from its deepest spring. He
was proud of his ancestry—perhaps of his own accomplishments—of his fine
person—and. of the power of his manners. He had been distinguished at a
great public school, and afterwards at an English University, for the
brilliancy of his talents. He no sooner joined the Guards, than he took
his place, at once, among the most polished and elegant society in the
world. He had met with universal admiration; and all these tilings
together, although he well knew they possessed little intrinsic or
permanent value, could not but influence his temper and disposition,
before the gradually acquired wisdom of riper years had mellowed the
impetuosity of youth, and extended its range of feeling and of thought.
He was, therefore, considered by many a haughty and arrogant young man,
and not altogether unjustly; but the native generosity of his heart was
continually showing itself, and although mere acquaintances or strangers
might be repelled by his demeanour, no man could be more esteemed or
beloved by his friends. Now a new chord was touched in his heart. The
sweet simplicity of Helen Eyre, combined, as it was, with perfect
elegance and gracefulness, took his eye at the first glance —and
although it could not be said to have gamed, yet it certainly at once
touched his affections. As the innocence of her heart and the
intelligence of her mind indicated themselves unconsciously in every
artless, yet well-chasen word, love and admiration of a better kind
stole into his breast; and her exceeding loveliness and beauty gave the
warmth of passion to an attachment which was of rapid growth, and after
a few interviews, was blended vitally with his very heart’s blood. The
tone of her voice now thrilled through every fibre of his frame—her
image, during, absence, haunted him, either sad or smiling alike
irresistible and subduing—and seeing no real obstacle in the way of his
happiness, he thought in his solitary rambles through the woods and over
the hills, (for now he who had hitherto lived constantly in the stir of
life, loved to be alone,) that Providence had kindly sent this angelic
being to bless him as long as he lived on earth. He thought of her—now
in her virgin beauty—now as his bride—now as his wife—now as the mother
of his children—and his heart was sick to his very soul was faint in the
fever of tumultuous passion, till calmed again by solemn thoughts of
eternal union between himself and Helen here and in heaven.
The love which Helen Eyre felt towards him was of a very different kind.
It was utterly hopeless, and therefore it was utterly indulged. She knew
that she never could be his wife—that he would never stoop to marry
her—that Constance even would not like to see her brother forming a
connection below his own rank—and that his mother would rather see her
poisoned or drowned, at least dead and buried, than the wife of her
Henry.. All these convictions gave her little or no distress, for they
were not brought upon her unexpectedly, to damp a heart that had been
warmed by other thoughts—they formed the habitual knowledge of that
humble heart, and they and thoughts like there had been instilled into
her bosom, by her good .and wise guardian, who knew that to save her
from melancholy, it was necessary to show her the truth of life, and to
remove all delusions. Helen Eyre, therefore, allowed her soul to rejoice
within her, in the .agitation of a new and heavenly happiness, whenever
Henry Beaumont appeared with his .smiling countenance, that brightened
up the room, or the fie^d, or the garden, with an effulgence of bliss.
She knew her own innocence—her own resignation—and she knew, that if Mrs
Montgomery, who was now very old, were to die, most solitary would be
her own lot. Therefore, she spoke, smiled, and walked with Henry
Beaumont, as with the only being on earth whom, in the sacred silence of
her soul, she would till her dying hour, perfectly love. He could not
penetrate into her thoughts—he could not look, with these bold bright
beautiful eyes, into the covert of her inner spirit, where they all lay
couched night and day for ever—be would place his love on account on one
of whom he had no cause to be ashamed, and who would be welcomed to the
hall of his .fathers—he would then only bestow a passing smile, or word,
upon the Orphan she, tire Orphan herself, would cherish him m blameless
and indulged passion in her bosom— and call down the blessing of God,
morning and evening, and many a time besides, on the heads of himself, d
d his wife, whoever she might be, and the children that might rise up,
like flowers, around their feet. A love so hopeless—so pure—so
unselfish—and so unknown, it surely could be no sin for her to cherish,
who had no relations of her own, and few friends indeed,—friends doomed,
no doubt, to be fewer still, year after year, till at last she might
have none to comfort her but her sweet Constance, whom other affections
might also keep too often away, and the image of that brother—an image
which, engraven on her heart, could only cease to be, when that heart
was broken, or had wasted and withered away into the dust.
Helen was walking one evening by the river-side, and had descended into
a small green glade on a wooded bank, from which there was a cheerful
and splendid prospect of the town and the rich country round, when Henry
Beaumont was at her side, and taking her hand pressed it to hi a heart,
andthenledher to a stone-seat beside a little spring that bubbled up
through the roots of the trees, and danced its short silvery course down
into the Tweed. Poor Helen’s breath came quickly when he pressed her to
his bosom, and with a few burning kisses and breathing words, declared
his love and passion, and that she must become his wife. A pang of joy
went through her heart, and she could just faintly utter, “Your wife!”
“Yes—my wife—say that it will be so—and may God forget me if I am not
kind to you—my best and most beautiful Helen—all the days of my life!”
“Oh! Sir—you could be unkind to no one—but think—oh think—who I am—unfit
and unworthy to be die wife of Henry Beaumont!” He had an eloquent
tongue—an eloquent eye;—and there was eloquence in the throbbing and
beating of the heart that swelled his manly breast. He held Helen in his
arms, as if she had been a frightened and palpitating dove—and she
wished not to be released from that dear embrace. She, the poor despised
and slighted Orphan, heard herself blessed by him who was the pride and.
flower of Scotland’s youth; his •gentle, and tender, and respectful
kisses stirred up all the holy thoughts that she had hidden in her
heart, that they might lie there unseen for ever—and in that trance of
bliss, they all overflowed—and a few words of confessed affection
escaped her lips. “Yes—I love you beyond life and my own soul—but never,
never, Sir, may I be your wife. Think who you are—and then who am I—and
a voice will tell you that we never can be united. With these words she
broke from his arms, and knelt down, nor was it in his power, so
confounded was he, for a few minutes to lift her up. “ But though I know
you never can marry me, remember—oh ! never never cease to remember that
I fell down on my knees before you—and vowed before that God who has
hitherto preserved me in innocence and peace, to devote my soul
henceforth to your love. Enough will it be for me to cherish your image
for eyer in my heart—to weep with joy when I hear you are happy—never to
repine, nor envy her happiness who may one day lie in your bosom—but
since God .sent me into the world an orphan unhappily born, let me
strive to subdue my soul to an orphan’s fate, and submit quietly and
piously to the solitary years that may be awaiting me, when my mother’s
grey hairs are covered with darkness. Now, Sir—now, my beloved .Henry
Beaumont, let us either part, or walk away in silence, from this spot,
which to me will be for ever a hallowed place—for of love and marriage
never more must our speech be—they are not for us.”
Helen separated from her lover within a mile of her home—and had on her
arrival there sufficiently recovered her self-command to be able to
appear composed before Mrs Montgomery; .but she had never concealed from
her dear mother any incident that' affected her happiness, and she. knew
that it was n6w her duty to make a full disclosure of what had passed.
She did so—and had the satisfaction to find that her conduct brought
tears of joy into her mother’s eyes. The good old Lady assured her that
God would reward her for the high-principled sacrifice she had made
—-and on retiring-to her bed-room at night, she blessed her Orphan with
more than -wonted fervour and solemnity.
No sleep was there-this night for Helen Eyre. She had made a great
sacrifice—and nature now rose up against it. Why should she not become
the wife of Henry Beaumont, if he loved her, as he said, better than all
the world? Ought her 'birth to be a bar between her and a whole life of
bliss? Would she be violating any duty—doing injury or wrong to any
living creature—by yielding herself up in wedlock to the man she so
tenderly loved, and whom, she knew, she could make happy ? Were all the
deepest—holiest —most awful affections of the soul to be denied to him
and to her, merely because their union might offend a prejudice, or at
best a feeling that surely never could be vital, nor set in just
opposition td all that the human soul felt to be sanctified in its
existence? What if his mother were to be offended—might she not be
soothed and reconciled by constant esteem and humble respect, and be
brought at last to look without reproachful eyes on the Orphan who made
her son happy? But then, this prejudice against her she knew to be with
many a second nature and that it could not be rooted out without shaking
perhaps many many other feelings, which, although not necessarily
connected with it, had been so intertwined with it during the progress
of life, that they too might suffer; so that to overcome this sentiment
against her, a radical change of revolution never to be hoped for must
take place in the mind of Mrs Beaumont. She saw too, that Mrs Montgomery
felt as she felt—and had approved of her conduct, solely because she
knew that Henry’s high-born and haughty mother would never acknowledge
her as his bride. So, Helen rose with the light—and as the bright,
cheerful, singing morn advanced, her heart was insensibly restored to
its former serenity—and the Orphan was once more happy and contented
with her lot.
Then, too, she thought what a heartless sin it would be, even if her
marriage with Henry Beaumont could take place, to leave her old mother,
who was now so weak and frail. She had been taken, when a baby only a
few days old, under the protection of that Saint—and would she fly off*
on the wings of a selfish and ungrateful love, and forgetting these
tottering steps and dim eyes, sink into the bosom of one whom she had
known for a few weeks only, and to whom she owed nothing but a few
impassioned words and vows? Such thoughts came across her heart. But she
was no weak enthusiast even in virtue.. And her own pure heart told her,
that though it would never have allowed her to leave her mother who was
much broken down, and too plainly sinking into the grave, yet that she
might, without any violation or forgetfulness of her filial duties, have
given Henry Beaumont a pledge to become his wife, when the event she
feared and shuddered indeed to name, but which every one knew was near,
had taken place. All these were bewildering thoughts—and, when poor
Helen went into her mother’s room, which she did every morning at a
stated hour, her heart was labouring under a heavy load of emotion.
Helen drew the curtains, and was about to kneel down at the bedside, and
bless her aged benefactress in prayer. But it seemed that she had not
yet awoke; and, stooping down, the Orphan affectionately whispered a few
words into her ear, that she might gently dispel the slumber. But that
was a sleep which neither low whisper, nor loud thunder-crash might
disturb. Helen knew that her mother was dead! And, for the first time in
her life, for her heart was the mistress, and not the slave of its
passions, she fainted at the side of the motionless body, with her arms
laid softly over its breast.
Before the sun had reached its meridian, the death of Mrs Montgomery was
known for many miles round the town where she had led more than twenty y
ears of a benign and charitable life. The melancholy tidings soon
reached the Hirst, and Constance Beaumont flew to comfort her dearest
friend. Nor did her mother, who yet knew nothing of Henry’s avowal of
his love to Helen, think of preventing Constance from carrying comfort
to the bereaved Orphan. Hers was a proud but a warm heart; and having
truly loved Mrs Montgomery, it was in tears that she saw Constance
depart to cheer the poor creature who was now sitting by the corpse of
her whom she had loved and respected from childhood, and whom she was,
ere long, to follow to the grave. That thought of their ages being the
same, was at once tender and solemn; and something of the sanctity of
that pure unmingled affection with which she regarded the memory of Mrs
Montgomery, could not but attach to Helen Eyre, who had so long tended
her declining age, and repaid, by the most beautiful constancy of filial
love, the cares which had been lavished in the warmth of nature, and the
charity of Christian faith, upon her Orphan head, Helen knew that
Constance would, immediately on hearing of Mrs Montgomery's death, with
her a letter of tender condolence; but she was riot prepared for such
excessive kindness, when that most amiable girl opened her bed-room door
with her own hand, and with soft steps and streaming eyes went up to her
and kissed her cheek. The Orphan felt, in that embrace, that she was not
yet solitary in the world. There was nothing to break this friendship,
although much to crush that other love, and* she was glad; even in her
sorrow, to know, that through all the changes arid-chances of this life,
she: would still hold a place in the heart of Coristance Beaumont. The
dead stillness of the house was supportable, now that the arm of her
sister was round her neck——and they soon went hand in hand together, and
gazed oh the beautifully serene countenance of her whose spirit was in
heaven; Of the two Constance most loudly wept, for her tears fell more
for the living than the dead. Who in all the world could be more
Solitary than the Orphan Helen Eyre? Yet her brow-—eyes;—cheeks and lips
were all -calm—there was no agitation—nothing like despair in her quiet
motions—arid the light of God’s mercy shone radiantly upon her as she
knelt down to a prayer of thanksgiving iri that desolate house. Never
before had the full perfection of her character been made manifest. Now
it was tried, and met the sudden arid severe demand. Her voice faultered
not, nor did her heart quake. She was alone oir the earth—but God was in
heaven—and with that sublime thought Helen Eyre was now stronger in' her
letter destitution, than, if without it she had been entrenched in the
midst of an host of mortal friends. The spirit of her piety kindled
that, too, of her beloved Coristance and they sat together in the silent
house, or n twilight walked out among the secret trees, perfectly
composed and happy, till the day of the Funeral.
That day was indeed one of sore trial—arid Helen needed the support of
her friend. Often, often-:—on every day since her death, had she stolen
nto the room where her Mother lay, and sat by the bedside as motionless
as the figure that lay there; but the hour was come when these visits
were to end, and the phantom was to be borne olf into the chambers of
decay. In the silence of her darkened bed-room, with Constance sitting
at her couch, the Orphan heard the frequent feet of the company
assembling at the funeral. The friends were silent. At last the funeral
was heard to be departing from-the house. At that moment Helen rose, and
looking through an opening of the darkened’ window, she saw the bier in
motion—slowly borne away up the avenue, how the shadow of the trees; A
tall figure was at the right side of the coffiri —one of the mourners.
If was Henry Beaumont— his head was bowed down, and his face sedate in a
manly sorrow. “See how my brother weeps!” said Constance—and Helen did
not fear then to call down the blessing of God upon his head, and then
turning to Constance, she said, “Happy,'happy art thou to have such a
brother!” And as they were kissing each other, the Funeral disappeared.
Two days after the funeral Mrs Beaumont came for her daughter. She
behaved with the greatest tenderness and sympathy to Helen Eyre, and had
not sat long in company with the Orphan till her soul was even awed by
the sanctity of her resignation. The flowers that the old Lady had so
carefully tended did not miss her hands ; the room bore no marks of the
distraction or forgetfulness of passionate grief; Helen’s dress was
simple and graceful as ever; and except that her face was somewhat wan,
and her voice occasionally tremulous, there were no other outward
symptoms of sorrow. If the Orphan had thought of the future, it was
plain that. she felt that vista to terminate- in the mystery of. a
darkness spread out in mercy from the hollow of God’s awful hand, and
that she was not about to terrify herself with phantoms of her own
creation. If sorrow, sickness, or desertion by friends, were to be her
lot, she would lay her hands upon the Bible, and endure the decree. But
from the mildness of her expressive countenance, it seemed that her
heart was continued chiefly to dreams of the happy past. She had no
sins—and not many frailties with which to reproach herself— for these
her contrition needed not to be bitter—no harsh or hasty words—no
unamiable or unfilial looks had ever past from her towards her
benefactress—and as the humblest are permitted to enjoy the delight of
conscious piety, and of a sincere wish to do well, so was Helen Eyre now
happy in the remembrance of all her affection to her mother, and of
every little daily and hourly act performed, not from duty, but in love.
Mrs Montgomery had bequeathed to the Orphan the pleasant dwelling in
which she had past all her days; and Helen desired no other place of
retirement, till she should be called to the last final and profound
repose. The sacred influence of death had quite suppressed— not
extinguished her pure passion for Henry Beaumont; and, without
agitation, she sat now in the presence of his stately mother, nor feared
ever to deserve her frowns. She had seen Henry walking a weeping mourner
by the side of that coffin—and the remembrance was now sad and
delightful to her soul, nor, if he could be happy without her, did she
wish ever to behold him more. A lonely life needed not to be a
melancholy one—she had stores for though laid up in her heart, young as
it was, and powers of thought, too, confirmed by nature, and
strengthened by contented innocence. And she feared not, when the years
of her youth had glided away in the seclusion of those peaceful shades,
that age would bring its own happiness and its own wisdom, nor was there
any reason to fear even the coming on of feeble footsteps and of grey
hairs. Henry Beaumont’s impassioned vows never could be realized—but
that place where' she had heard them might be visited often and
often—and hers, she knew, was not a weak and repining heart, that would
die of hopeless and unfortunate love.
While they were sitting together calmly and kindly, and the time was
just at hand when Constance was about to give her friend a farewell
kiss, she saw her brother coming down the avenue, and could not but feel
agitated at his approach'. For although Helen had said nothing to her of
the avowal of his sentiments, he had himself told h s sister of all that
had happened, and sworn her for the present to secrecy. He entered the
room—not with the same fervent air and expression, as when they last
met, but with a tenderness that was far more irresistible to poor
Helen’s soul. A visit to an Orphan who had just buried her best— not her
only friend—was not to be a visit of avowed love, but of sympathy and
condolence; and Henry looked upon her with such profound pity, and such
condoling gentleness of eye and voice, that his mother saw and felt that
Helen Eyre was dearer to him than life. That sudden conviction gave her
a pang, and her countenance fell and was darkened. It is a sore
affliction to a mother’s heart to have her fond, and proud, and aspiring
hopes of an only son crushed— and-nothing substituted in their stead,
but what she conceives dishonour and degradation. But she knew the depth
of her son’s affection for Helen Eyre from his anxiety to restrain and
conceal it—-and being well aware of his determined character, she
perceived that there was no chance of averting from her house the stain
of such a marriage, except it were to be found in the quiet and humble
soul of the Orphan,, who might be dissuaded from entering into a family
to which an alliance with her would be considered a disgrace. Mrs
Beaumont’s agitation at last became manifest—and as frequently feelings
are brought to a crisis of a sudden, and by some unexpected movement or
sally of temper, so was it .now—for Henry -discerned what was passing in
his mother's mind—anti from in uncontrollable impulse, avowed his love
for Helen Eyre, and his resolution to make her his wife. “ She has
confessed that she loves me—and no power on earth has a right to keep us
asunder—Mother—I grieve to offend or distress you—but you must receive
Helen Eyre as your daughter.
At any .other time, this bold avowal would have sent .as much anger as
grief into the proud spirit of Mrs Beaumont. But she had loved her dead
friend with exceeding affection—her voice seemed yet to whisper along
the walls—they were all sitting together in deep mourning for her
loss—and the meek face of the guileless Orphan was enough to quiet all
angry emotion, and to inspire something of the same calm spirit with
which it was so serenely suffused. Helen sat almost unmoved, nor did she
utter a word. But Henry’s mood soon changed, and he knelt down at his
mother’s feet, along with the affectionate Constance. Each took hold of
one of her hands, kissed it, and bathed it in tears. “O Mother! withhold
not your blessing from sweet Helen Eyre,” said Constance, with a dewy
voice of supplication.—“You know she will be the blessing of Henry’s
life here, and prepare his soul for Heaven. You know that she will be as
loving and dutiful a daughter, even as myself—you know how your friend
loved her, and blessed her name to you, and wept for the sake of all her
goodness. O Mother! fear not that this marriage wants only your sanction
to make it a happy marriage indeed !” The Lady’s heart was melted within
her, and she said, “Helen Eyre, thou art an Orphan no more —come and
kneel down between my children.’— Helen did so with many sobs of
overwhelming happiness, and bowed down her head almost to the floor. The
Mother of her Lover laid her hand upon that head, and blessed her in
God’s holy name; and then all three rising from their knees, Henry
Beaumont pressed Helen Eyre to his bosom, and kissed away her tears then
and for ever. THE
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