The window of the lonely
cottage of Hilltop was beaming far above the highest birch-wood, seeming
to traveller's at a distance in the long valley below, who knew’ it not,
to be a star in the sky. A bright fire w as in the kitchen of that small
tenement; the floor was washed, swept, and sanded, and not a footstep
had marked its perfect neatness; a small table was covered, near the
ingle, with a snow-white cloth, on which was placed a frugal evening
meal; and in happy, but pensive mood sat there all alone the
Woodcutter’s only daughter, a comely and gentle creature, if not
beautiful; such an one as diffuses pleasure round her in the hay field,
and serenity over the seat in which she sits attentively on the Sabbath,
listening to the word of God, or joining with mellow voice in his praise
and worship. On this night, she expected a visit from her lover, that
they might fix their marriage-day; and her parents, satisfied and happy
that their child was about to be wedded to a respectable shepherd, had
gone to pay a visit to their nearest neighbour in the glen.
A feeble and hesitating knock was at the door, not like the glad and
joyful touch of a lover’s hand; and cautiously opening it, Mary Robinson
beheld a female figure wrapped up in a cloak, with her face concealed in
a black bonnet. The stranger, whoever she might be, seemed wearied and
worn out, and her feet bore witness to a long day’s travel across the
marshy mountains. Although she could scarcely help considering her an
unwelcome visitor at such an hour, yet Mary had too much sweetness of
disposition—too much humanity, not to request her to step forward into
the hut; for it seemed as if the wearied woman had lost her way, and had
come towards the shining window to be put right upon her journey to the
low country.
The stranger took off her bonnet on reaching the ' fire; and Mary
Robinson beheld the face of one whom, in youth, she had tenderly loved;
although for some years past, the distance at which they lived from each
other had kept them from meeting, and only a letter or two, written in
their simple way, had given them a few notices of each other’s
existence. And now Mary had opportunity, in the first speechless gaze of
recognition, to mark the altered face of her friend,—and her heart was
touched with an ignorant compassion. "For‘ mercy's sake! sit down,
Sarah! and tell me what evil has befallen you; for you are as white as a
ghost. Fear not to confide any thing to my bosom : we have herded sheep
together on the lonesome braes-—we have stripped the bark together in
the more lonesome woods;—we have played, laughed, sung, danced
together;—we have talked merrily and gaily; but innocently enough surely
of sweethearts together; and Sarah, graver thoughts, too, have we
shared, for, when your poor brother died away like a frosted flower, I
wept as if I had been his sister; nor can I ever be so happy in this
world as to forget him. "Tell me, my friend, why are you here? and why
is your sweet face so ghastly?”
The heart of this unexpected visitor died within her at these kind and
affectionate inquiries. For. she had come on an errand that was likely
to dash the joy from that happy countenance. Her heart upbraided her
with the meanness of the purpose for which she had paid this visit; but
that was only a passing thought ; for was she, innocent and free from
sin, to submit, not only to desertion, but to disgrace, and not trust
herself and her wrongs, and her hopes of redress to her whom she loved
as a sister, and whose generous nature she well knew, not even love, the
changer of so many things, could change utterly - though, indeed, it
might render it colder than of old to the anguish of a female friend?
"Oh! Mary, I must speak,—yet must my words make you grieve, far less for
me than for yourself. Wretch, that I am,—I bring evil tidings into the
dwelling of my dearest friend! These ribbands—they are worn for his
sake—they become well, as he thinks, the auburn of your bonny hair—that
blue gown is wore to-night because he likes it;—but, Mary, will you
curse me to my face, when I declare before the God that made us, that
that man is pledged unto me by all that is sacred between mortal
creatures; and that I have here in my bosom written promises and oaths
of love from him who, I was this morning told, is in a few days to be
thy husband. Turn me out of the hut now if you choose, and let me, if
you choose, die of hunger and fatigue, in the woods where we have so
often walked together; for such death would be mercy to me, in
comparison with your marriage with. him who is mine for ever, if there
be a God who heeds the oaths of the creatures he has made.”
Mary Robinson had led a happy life, but a life of quiet thoughts,
tranquil hopes, and meek desires. Tenderly and truly did she love the
man to whom she was now betrothed; but it was because she had thought
him gentle, manly, upright, sincere, and one that feared God. His
character was unimpeached,—to her, behaviour, had always been fond,
affectionate, and respectful; that he was a fine-looking man, and could
show himself among the best of the country round at church, and market,
and fair* day, she saw and felt with pleasure and with pride. But in the
heart of this poor, humble, contented, and pious girl, love was not a
violent passion, but an affection sweet and profound. She looked
forwards to her marriage with a joyful sedateness, knowing that she
would have to toil for her family, if blest with children; but happy in
the thought of keeping her husband's house clean,—-of preparing his
frugal meals, and welcoming him when wearied at might to her truthful,
and affectionate, and grateful bosom.
At first, perhaps, a slight flush of anger towards Sarah tinged her
cheek; then followed in quick succession, or all blended together in one
sickening pang, fear, disappointment, the sense of wrong, and the cruel
pain of disesteeming and despising one on whom her heart had rested with
all its best and purest affections; But though there was a keen struggle
between many feelings in her heart, her resolution was formed during
that very conflict; and she said within herself, “If it be even so,
neither will I be so unjust as to deprive poor Sarah of the man who
ought to marry her, nor will I be so mean and low-spirited, poor as I
am, and dear as he lias been unto me, as to become his wife.”
While these thoughts •were calmly passing in the soul of this
magnanimous girl, all her former affection for Sarah revived; and, as
she sighed for herself, she wept aloud for her friend. “Be quiet, be
quiet, Sarah, and sob not so as if your heart were breaking. It need not
be thus with you. Oh! sob not so sair! You surely have not walked in
this one day from the heart of the parish of Montrath?”lf I have indeed
done so, and I am as weak as the wreathed snaw. God knows, little matter
if I should die away; for, alter all, I fear he will never think of me
for his wife, and you, Mary, will lose a husband with whom you would
have been happy. I feel, after all, that I must appear a mean wretch in
your eyes.”
There was silence between them; and Mary Robinson, looking at the clock,
saw that it wanted' only - about a quarter, of an hour from the time of
tryst. “Give me the oaths and promises you mentioned out of your bosom,
Sarah, that I may show them to Gabriel when he comes. And once more I
promise, by. all the sunny and all the snowy days we have sat together
in the same plaid on the .hillside, or. in .the. lonesome charcoal plots
and nests o’ green in the woods, that if my Gabriel,—did I say my
Gabriel?—has forsaken you and deceived me thus, never shall his lips
touch mine again,—never shall he put ring on my finger,—never shall this
head lie in his bosom,—no, never, never; notwithstanding all the happy,
too happy hours and days I have been with him, near or at a distance,—on
the corn-rig,—among the meadow-hay,—in the singing-school,—at
harvest-home,—in this room, and in God’s own house. So, help me God, but
I will keep this vow!”
Poor Sarah told, in a few hurried words, the. story of her love and
desertion,—how Gabriel, whose business as a shepherd often took him into
Montrath parish, had wooed her and fixed every thing about their
marriage, nearly a year ago. But that he had become causelessly jealous
of a young man whom she scarcely knew; had accused her of want of
virtue, and for many months had never once come to see her.
"This morning, for the first time, I heard, for a certainty, from one
who knew Gabriel well, and all his concerns, that the banns had been
proclaimed in the church between him and you; and that, in a day or two,
you were to be married. And though I felt drowning, I determined to make
a struggle for my life,—-for Oh! Mary, Mary, my heart is not like your
heart; it wants your wisdom, your meekness, your piety: and if I am to
lose Gabriel, will I destroy my miserable life, and face the wrath of
God sitting in judgment upon sinners.”
At this burst of passion Sarah hid her face with her hands, as if
sensible that she had committed blasphemy. Mary seeing her wearied,
hungry, thirsty, and feverish, spoke to her in the most soothing manner;
led her into die little parlour called the Spence, then removed into it
the table, with the oaten cakes, butter and milk; and telling her to
take' some refreshment, and then lie down in die bed, but on no account
to leave the room till called for, gave her a sisterly kiss, and left
her. In a few minutes the outer-door opened, and Gabriel entered.
The lover said, “How is my sweet Mary?” with a beaming countenance; and
gently drawing her to his bosom, he kissed her cheek. Mary did not—could
not -—wished not—at once to release herself from his enfolding arms.
Gabriel had always treated her as the woman who was to be his wile; and
though at this time her heart knew its own bitterness, yet she repelled
not endearments that were so lately delightful, and suffered him to take
her almost in his arms to their accustomed seat. He held her hand in
his, and began to speak in his usual kind and affectionate language.
Kind and affectionate it was, for though he ought not to have done so,
he loved her, as he thought, better than his life. Her heart could not
in one small short hour forget a whole year of bliss. She could not yet
fling away with her own hand what, only a few minutes ago, seemed to her
die hope of paradise, Her soul sickened within her, and she wished that
she were dead, or never had been born.
“O Gabriel! Gabriel! well indeed have I loved you; nor will I say, after
all that has passed between us, that you are not deserving, after all,
of a better love than mine. Vain were it to deny my love either to you,
or to my own soul. But look me in the face— be not wrathful—think not to
hide the truth either from yourself or me, for that now is
impossible,—but tell, me solemnly, as you shall answer to God at the
judgment-day, if you know any reason why I must not be your wedded
wife?” She kept her mild moist eyes fixed upon him; but he hung down his
head, and uttered not a word, for he was guilty before her, before his
own soul, and before God.
“Gabriel never could we have been happy, for you often told me, that all
the secrets of your heart were known unto me, yet never did you tell me
this. How could you desert the poor innocent creature that loved you;
arid how could you use me so, who loved you perhaps as well as she, but
whose heart God will teach, not to forget you, for that may I never do,
but to think on you with that friendship and affection which innocently
I can bestow upon you, when you are Sarah’s husband. For, Gabriel, I
have this night sworn, not in anger or passion—no no—but in sorrow and
pity for another’s wrongs—in sorrow also, deny it will not, for my own,
,to look on you from this horn, as on one whose life is to be led apart
from my life, and whose love must never more meet with my love. Speak
not unto me, look not on me with beseeching eyes. Duty and religion
forbid us ever to be man and wife. But you know there is one, besides
me, whom you loved before you loved me, and, therefore, it may be better
too; and that she loves you, and is faithful, as if God had made you
one, I say without fear, I who have known her since she was a child,
although fatally for the peace of us both, we have long lived apart.
Sarah is in the house, and I will bring her unto you in tears, but not
tears of penitence, for she is as innocent of that sin as I am, who now
speak.”
Mary went into the little parlour, and led Sarah forward in her hand.
Despairing as .she had been, yet when she had heard from poor Mary’s
voice speaking so fervently, that Gabriel had come, and that her friend
was interceding in her behalf,—the poor girl had arranged her hair in a
small looking-glass,—tied it up with a ribband which Gabriel had given
her, and put into the breast of her gown a little gilt broach that
contained locks of their blended hair. Pale but beautiful, for Sarah
Pringle was the fairest girl in all the country, she advanced with a
flush on that paleness of reviving hope, injured pride, and love that
was ready to forgive all and-forget all, so that once again she could be
restored to the place in his heart that she had’ lost. "What have I ever
done, Gabriel, that you should fling me from you ? May my soul never
live by the atonement of my Saviour, if I am not innocent of that sin,
yea, of all distant thought of that sin' with which you, even you, have
in your hard-heartedness charged me. Look me in the face, Gabriel, and
think of all I have been into you, and if you say that before God, and
in your own soul, you believe me guilty, then will I go away out into
the dark night, and, long before morning, my troubles will be at end.”
Truth was not only in her fervent and simple words, but in the tone of
her voice, the colour of her face, and the light of her eyes. Gabriel
had long shut up his heart against her. At first, he had doubted her
virtue, and that doubt gradually weakened his affection. At last, he
tried to believe, her guilty, or to forget her altogether, when his
heart turned to Mary Robinson, and he thought of making her his wife.
His injustice—his wickedness—his baseness—which he had so long
concealed, in some measure, from him-set by a dim feeling of wrong done
him," and afterwards by the pleasure of a new love, now appeared to him
as they were, and without disguise. Mary took Sarah’s hand and placed it
w ithin that of her contrite lover, for had the tumult of conflicting
passions allowed him to know his own soul, such at that moment he surely
was; saying with a voice as composed as the eyes with which she looked
upon them, “I restore you to each other; and I already feel the comfort
of being able to do my duty. I will be bride's-maid. And I now implore
the blessing of God upon your marriage. Gabriel, your betrothed will
sleep this night in my bosom. We will think of you, better perhaps, than
you deserve. It is not for me to tell you what you have to repent of.
Let us all three pray for each other this night, and evermore when we
are on our knees before our Maker. The old people w ill soon be at home.
Good night, Gabriel.” He kissed Sarah—and, giving Mary a look of shame,
humility, and reverence, he went home to meditation and repentance.
It was now Midsummer ; and before the harvest had been gathered in
throughout the higher valleys, or the sheep brought from the
mountain-fold, Gabriel and Sarah were man and wife. Time past on, and a
blooming family cheered their board and fireside. Nor did Mary Robinson,
the Flower of the Forest, (for so the Wood-cutter’s daughter was often
called,) pass her life in single blessedness. She, too, became a wife
and mother; and the two families, who lived at last on adjacent farms,
were remarkable for mutual affection, throughout all the parish; and
more than one inter-marrage took place between them, at a time when the
worthy parents had almost entirely forgotten the trying incident of
their youth. |