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soon as the doctors thought it safe for me to speak
to them, the children were brought to see me ; and
you may imagine what joy it gave me to embrace the
little darlings, and to hear them tell me that they
knew I had saved their lives; and that God had
permitted me to save them, because He loved me for
being good. Pretty little creatures ! I shall never
forget how their fond expressions went to my heart.
They were attended by Peggy, who was sent for by my
lady, and taken back into her service as soon as she
learned all the history of the impositions practised
by Dickens to get her away.
1 was, however, grieved by the bad accounts of my
lady's health. She continued poorly, and my lord
thinking she would be better in the country, took a
furnished house at Richmond, about eight miles from
London, where she was shortly afterwards delivered
of a dead child. Her recovery was long doubtful; and
by the doctor's advice, my lord went with her to
spend the summer at Clifton, near the Bristol
hot-wells, which seemed to me like a sentence of
death; for it is there that people who have
consumptions are, if able to afford it, sent to die.
But it pleased God that my lady should not be taken
from her family so soon.
By the time that I was able to go to Clifton, which
was about the middle of July, I found her restored
almost to her usual health. I could then only walk
on crutches, but I was so wearied of doing nothing
that I was very anxious to resume my duty; and as I
had one of my lord's carriages to travel in, I could
suffer nothing from the journey.
I was extremely anxious before leaving London to see
Sally, who had been represented to me as suffering
under all the horrors of remorse, on account of the
misfortunes she had occasioned; but it was not till
after many messages that I could prevail on her to
come to me. She, however, came at length; and began,
as soon as she saw me, to profess her sorrow for
what I had suffered, and to beg my forgiveness. She
wept bitterly ; and, hoping that her heart was
touched by penitence, I endeavoured to comfort her,
by expatiating on the mercies of God, and on the
hopes that were held forth in the gospel to those
who truly repented of their sins.
It was a language she did not understand, for she
had been brought up in deplorable ignorance; and
told me she had never heard anybody speak of such
things, but a neighbour, who was a Methodist, and
that she thought it had been all Tabernacle talk. It
was very melancholy to hear a woman in whom the
greatest of all possible trusts had been reposed,
acknowledge herself thus ignorant of all the
doctrines of Christianity. What wonder that her
moral conduct should have been so bad; for on what
foundation can the moral conduct of one in her
station, or indeed in any station, rest, when you
take away the fear of God?
Hoping that I might by my instructions make some
impression upon her mind, I spared no pains with
this unfortunate creature; and might, I really
believe, have succeeded in confirming her good
resolutions, had she not been laid hold of by some
enthusiasts, who laboured at what they called her
conversion. Before any good habit had been formed,
and while her mind was yet in a state of profound
ignorance, her imagination was so warmed by their
discourses, as to make her boast of being in a state
of grace; and before I left London, her divine
raptures were quoted by some of these pious
visionaries as a proof of saintship. But, alas! the
fire of zeal was soon exhausted; and the poor
creature being destitute of solid principle, and
considering herself in a state of reprobation, flew
to the society of her former associates, as a
resource from thought. The consequences were
dreadful: she was soon plunged into vice, and died
in misery; but this did not come to my knowledge for
several years.
On going to Clifton, I was received by my lord and
lady more like a friend than a servant. They indeed
told me that I was to be as a servant no longer: for
that I was henceforth to be English governess to
their children, with a salary of thirty pounds
a-year. A Swiss governess for the young ladies had
been already some weeks with them ; and though, I
confess, I had a sort of prejudice against her at
first, on account of her being a foreigner, I soon
found that she was a person of great integrity, and
had a truly pious and amiable mind. She was as
agreeably disappointed in me as I was in her; for
she thought it impossible that a person could be so
suddenly raised, without assuming some airs of
arrogance and self-conceit. But I had seen enough of
this to be upon my guard, lest my heart should be
puffed up; and had always thought it a base thing in
persons, who saw themselves regarded more than
others, to take advantage of it for the indulgence
of their own capricious humours. For twelve years
Mademoiselle and I went on hand in hand, labouring
for the good of our pupils; and had the pleasure of
seeing them grow up, under our eyes, promising to be
blessings to the land, and the pleasure and glory of
all their connections.
My lord and lady doated on their children; and well
they might, for never were any like them. The young
ladies, so graceful, so sweet-tempered, and so
accomplished ! and the young gentlemen, so well
behaved, and at the same time so clever, that all
their masters said, they learned better and faster
than any scholars they had. Lady Charlotte was very
handsome, and had many admirers, before she was
eighteen ; but she had no liking to any of them, and
said, she should never marry any one whom she could
not look up to as a friend and guide. She was just
nineteen when young Sir William Bandon came to spend
the Christmas holidays at the Park ; and I soon
perceived, by the -way she spoke of him, that his
attentions were agreeable to her. We went up to
town, and Sir William soon after declared himself.
My lord was highly pleased with his character ; so
that everything was soon agreed on, and the marriage
was to take place at Easter; but, alas ! before
Easter, my lord was carried off by a fever of less
than a fortnight's duration.
By this event, all our joy was changed into
mourning. I could not have felt more if I had lost a
father. He was, indeed, as a father to all his
dependants. A friend to the poor; and in his
conduct, an example to poor and rich. He had great
influence; and he made it his business to exert it
for the glory of God, and the good of society. O
what a change did his death occasion, succeeded as
he was by one so little like himself!
Lord Lintop had indeed never been a comfortable son
to him ; but my lord left him no excuse, for he was
the kindest and best of fathers. My lady, too, had,
from the time he was a boy, done all in her power to
gain his affections; but he had an inveterate
prejudice against her, on account of her being a
stepmother—a prejudice which, I verily believe, was
first sown in the nursery by his maid, Jenny
Thomson, who used always to threaten him with a
stepmother as with a monster—and he never got the
better of the impression. He was indeed of a cold
and reserved temper, and had a very narrow heart.
Much inclined to avarice, except upon his own
pleasures, and they were all of the selfish sort.
As my lord died without a will, Lord Lintop
immediately entered upon possession of all; my lady
having nothing at her disposal but her own fortune,
and her jointure, which was, to be sure, very great;
yet I thought t a sad thing to see her and her
children turned out, as it were, of her own house,
and obliged to go to seek a place to lay her head.
But to her, alas ! it was of no consequence where
she went; the hand of death was on her, and in three
months she followed my lord to the grave.
' I find I must pass over this,' said Mrs Mason,
wiping the tears from her eyes; ' there is no need
of distressing you with an account of all my
sorrows. It was the least of them, that I found
myself without a home ! I had saved of my wages
about one hundred and fifty pounds, which my lord's
steward had placed out for me, at five per cent., in
the public funds. Lady Charlotte, upon her marriage,
presented me with fifty more, and promised to give
me twenty pounds a year, until her own brother, Mr
Merriton, should come of age. I would have refused
the annuity, but she insisted on it, saying, she was
ashamed it was so little; but that Lord Longlands
taking advantage of a clause in her mother's
settlement, had refused paying her fortune till her
brother Edward was of age : and then,' said she, '
Mrs Mason,' throwing her arms affectionately round
my neck, ' then we may all be happy.' She had
written to her brothers, she said ; for I forgot to
mention that they had the year before been sent
abroad on their travels with their tutor, and are
now, I believe, in Switzerland, where Lady Charlotte
and Sir William are to see them in their way to
Italy. They pressed me to accompany them ; but my
lameness was such an obstacle, that I could not
think of going to be a burden to them ; and while I
hoped that Lady Harriet would be left at home, I
wished to stay, that I might be near her, but at
length the guardians consented that she should go
with her sister; so I was at once bereft of them
all.
Thus have I been suddenly, in the course of a few
months, deprived of all my earthly comforts, and
thrown from a state of ease and luxury, into a state
of comparative indigence. But how ungrateful should
I be to God, were I to repine ! How rich would my
poor mother have thought herself with thirty pounds
a year! nay, with the half of that sum. Ill would it
then become me to murmur at the wise dispensations
of Providence, which have doubtless been ordered not
less in wisdom than in mercy. My first thoughts were
to go into a lodging in London, and take in
needlework, by which I should be able to earn a
sufficiency for the supply of all my wants. But,
from being unable to take exercise, good air has
become so essential to my health, that I dreaded the
consequences of being pent up in the unwholesome
atmosphere of that immense place; and I had besides
such a hankering after my native country, that I
wished of all things to return to it.
While I was still hesitating, a young man, who came
up to London to seek a situation as a gardener,
brought a letter to me from a niece of Jackson's,
with whom I had continued to correspond ; and by his
conversation concerning all the friends of my youth,
increased my desire of revisiting scenes that were
still dear to my recollection. He told me of a
cottage near Hill Castle that was now empty, and
advised me to ask it of the young earl, who could
not surely refuse such a trifle to one who had lived
so long in the family, and to whom, as he said, the
family owed such obligation. But he was mistaken. I
petitioned for it, and was refused. Perhaps to
soften the refusal, I was at the same time told that
Lord Longlands had resolved against having any
cottages on the estate, and was to have them all
destroyed.
'True,' said Miss Mary, ' It is very true, indeed.
iMy father was directed to give orders for that
purpose, out took the liberty of remonstrating. All
that he could do, however, was to prevent the poor
cottars from being turned out for another term ; but
they are all to go at Martinmas; and, as fast as
their houses are empty, they are to be thrown down.
The cottage you wish for is already demolished to
the very ground, and has left the place so desolate
! It goes to one's heart to see it. But after
refusing it to you, the owner can have no heart. I
hope you will never ask another favour from him
while you live ?'
'I hope I shall have no need,' replied Mrs Mason. '
But though I should have been thankful for his
granting my request, I have no right to resent his
refusing me.'
'And I shall thank him for refusing you, if it
brings you to live nearer us,' said Miss Mary.
'Though I shall be at double the distance, still it
won't be far,' returned Mrs Mason, ' I am to take up
my residence at Glenburnie.'
'At Glenburnie !' repeated Miss Mary; ' what place
can there be at Glenburnie fit for you to live in?'
'Oh I shall make it fit,' said Mrs Mason ; ' and if
I am so happy as to be useful to the good people
there, I shall think myself fortunate in my choice.
On being refused by Lord Longlands, I gave up all
thoughts of settling on his territories, and made
inquiries in the neighbourhood of Merriton. Through
the friends of the young man I have already
mentioned, I heard that the only relation I have in
the world was married to one of the small farmers in
Glenburnie, and to this couple I applied to take me
as a lodger. I had great difficulty in bringing them
to the point, as they feared I would not be pleased
with the accommodation; but at length I so far
succeeded, that I fixed to live with them three
months upon trial, and that at the end of that time
we should each be at liberty to separate without
offence. From all that I have heard, no situation
could be more suitable to my purpose. In a place
where money is scarce, my income, slender as it is,
may be useful. After a life of full employment I
could not be happy in idleness; and as these good
people have a large family, I shall have among them
constant employment n the way that habit has
rendered most delightful to me, that of training
youth to usefulness and virtue.'
Miss Mary began to express her fears of the trouble
which Mrs Mason was about to bring upon her own
head, when her father entered; and from the way in
which he spoke upon the subject, she soon saw that
he had already discussed it, and knew Mrs Mason's
determination to be unalterable. They, however,
prevailed upon her to remain their guest for another
night; and obtained her promise, that if her
situation at Glenburnie proved uncomfortable, she
would return to Go wan Brae.