Oh! there are some
Can trifle in cold vanity with all
The warm soul's precious throbs—to whom it is
A triumph that a fond devoted heart
Is breaking for them—who can bear to call
Young flowers into beauty, and then crush them.
Landon.
"The Nethertown," where the scene of the following
story of the heart is laid, consists of a moderately extensive farming
establishment, with about twenty low, ill-constructed, old-fashioned
houses standing mostly to the northward of it, some "haflins seen, and
haflins hid." Of the farm it is superfluous to speak: a neat house,
barn, and stables, erected a few years ago, and covered with blue slate,
have made it modern enough, But in the appearance of the other houses,
all the rustic simplicity and rude architecture of an earlier age may
still be traced. After all the innovations and improvements to which the
first thirty years of the nineteenth century gave birth, there they
stood with their low walls, built in some instances with clay instead of
mortar—roofs composed of alternate layers of thatch and
turf—chimney-tops with a rope of twisted straw around them to keep them
together, and doors so low that their inhabitants were obliged to "loot
low " before they could enter. Another feature of days departed was the
little gardens, in which were cultivated small quantities of cabbages
and potatoes surrounded by what, to a stranger's eye, or indeed to any
eye, might seem a nettle bank instead of a wall. The houses were
disposed in no regular order, but stood in groups of two or three
together, generally in the lowest places of an undulating surface, while
the intermediate and higher ground was occupied as gardens in the way
already noticed. Narrow green lanes formed the only communication
between them,—sometimes crooked, sometimes straight, as the fancy of our
forefathers bad been.
To the eastward of the Nethertown the country is
open, and the prospect varied by patches of wood, hedges, farm-steadings,
and little eminences. But, on the west, a continuation of high ground,
which rises at no great distance, and terminates in a precipice of
considerable height, shuts in the view in that direction. These hills
are characterised by that abrupt scenery which marks the boundary of the
Ochils. In one of the ridges there is a deep gorge, or opening, through
which winds a hill road, where, at certain seasons of the year, the
setting sun, striking down between the almost perpendicular banks on
either side, floods with light a long stripe of corn field, stream, and
lake, while the surrounding country is lost in shadows.
At the extremity of the gorge, where "a hamlet
smiles,'' a rough bank slopes to the margin of a gurgling stream, which
wends its way through an adjoining hollow called The Den. Here
the ever-blossoming furze, the wild flowers which shoot forth in all the
luxuriance of uncultivated nature, and the stream, with its struggling
waters more than half-concealed by the matted grass which fringes its
edges, formed a scene perfectly in unison with the rustic habitations
above.
Farther down the Den, and a little to the northward
of the houses, there is a level spot called The Green, where the
waters of the stream were collected in a number of small dams called
demmens, for the purpose of bleaching. And here, on a summer's
evening, while the sun shoots his last red rays from the hollow pass,
are often seen a band of laughing girls from the houses above, with
naked feet of fawn-like lightness—arms bare nearly to the
shoulders—neckerchiefs carelessly thrown aside, or disarrayed in such a
manner as to show the whiteness of necks and bosoms, on which the
noon-day sun was not permitted to look—eyes all bright with the beam of
youth, and locks braided with the greatest care,—gathering in their
linen which had been exposed, during the day, to bleach or dry.
"Where the carcase is, thither shall the eagles be
gathered," is a Scripture apothegm: Where young women are, there
will the youth of the other sex be found also, is an aphorism
scarcely less true. There also might have been seen a band of youngsters
from the neighbouring farms, with faces newly washed from the sweat and
dust of the day. There lurking affection shone out; and while mirth
convulsed the features and shook the nerves of every one present, the
eyes of youth and maiden met with a quick and bright intelligence that
sent the heart's blood dancing to the cheek.
In its own appearance, and the appearance of its
inhabitants, there was much in the Nethertown on which, the eye of the
philanthropist might have rested with pleasure. The groups of young and
happy faces at the Green, the contented looks of the older part of the
community, and the absence of everything like bustle and confusion, gave
an air of quiet happiness to the whole. Amid this scene of rural
simplicity and retirement, men had tenanted the houses where they first
drew breath, till the snows of four-score years had whitened their heads
and bent their bodies. Maids had there become mothers and grandmothers;
and individuals over whose heads nearly a century had passed, had
died in the very bed where their feeble cries were first heard. Indeed,
had it not been for a smithy and Wright's shop, it is highly probable
that the Nether-town would not have received a single new inhabitant in
many years. These, however, served occasionally to introduce a stranger
to this little society, when an additional hand was wanted, or a vacancy
occurred, at either of the establishments. The place seemed a sort of
concealment which poverty had never been able to discover, and its
inhabitants looked like happy fixtures. But to estimate the happiness of
any society, it is necessary that we should be acquainted with the
history and feelings of the individuals who compose it, and such an
acquaintance would, to a certainty, have operated as a sad drawback upon
those romantic visions which the contemplation of such a scene was
calculated to inspire.
This imperfect, and, perhaps, unsatisfactory sketch,
is the result of observations made, during a short period of his life,
which the writer passed in the vicinity of the Nethertown. He was then
an occasional idler at the Green, and sometimes, though seldom, a
listener in the houses. In this way he became acquainted with most of
its inhabitants; but as the heart is often arbitrary in its selections,
there were only two who particularly interested him.
The one was the sewing-mistress, an individual well
down the vale of years. She had married young, and her husband had been
torn from her by death shortly after. In her the influence of years had
mellowed the affections of a heart naturally warm, and that love which
had once been centred in a single object, now took a wider range, and
displayed itself in the tenderest sympathy for the sufferings of her
fellow-creatures, and a kindly deportment to all who came within the
circle of her acquaintance.
The other was a young woman in the last of her
teens, who hitherto had attracted little notice. Her father, in the
prime of life, had been a farm-servant, but from increasing years and
infirmities, he had lately abandoned this employment for the more humble
occupation of a labourer. Her mother was a tall and rather
coarse-looking woman, with nothing to distinguish her from the class to
which she belonged. In their family they had been particularly
unfortunate: some had made early and imprudent marriages; some had
wandered they knew not whither; others were confirmed drunkards; and of
six children, Christina alone, who was the youngest, promised to be the
stay and comfort of their old age. Recent times had made the art of
weaving almost as common among women as it was formerly among men; she
had been taught this art, and as her apprenticeship had expired, she now
lived with her parents, ministering to their increasing wants with her
scanty earnings.
It seemed as if Providence in bestowing her had meant
to compensate for the profligacy of their other children. Her
disposition was gentle and amiable. Filial affection, and a desire to
obliterate from her parents' minds the recollection of their children's
disobedience and misconduct, made her diligent at her work. In winter
her lamp might be seen throwing its cheerful light from the window where
she wrought, and the music of her shuttle heard every morning long
before the other girls of the place had thought of quitting their beds.
At fairs, and other places of resort, she was seldom seen;
gossiping parties she never frequented; even at the Green, that common
haunt of fair faces and happy hearts, she was a rare visitor; and except
at church on Sabbath-day, she was almost never from home.
In person, she was rather under than above the middle
size, but of the most exquisite proportions. Her features were of that
pensive cast which is not incompatible with the play of innocent mirth;
and in the calm of her deep blue and eloquent eyes there was a tender
light which seemed never to have been clouded by angry or tempestuous
passions,—affection, gentleness, and peace dwelt in them. It would be
difficult to convey an accurate idea of her complexion; it could not
properly be classed with either the pale, the brunette, or the florid,
though it certainly approached the first more nearly than either of the
other two. Her being employed mostly in the house had protected her from
that tan which is the consequence of exposure to the sun; and
while the wanderings of the " violet vein" might have been traced along
the transparent whiteness of her brow or cheek, the blood seemed to
mantle beneath a thin veil of snow, slightly tinging the pure covering
with its warm stream. When she was excited by the recital of wrongs
patiently borne, or touched with the tale of joy or sorrow, the inspired
blood appeared to mount, a brighter spirit shone in her eye, the flash
of soul beamed from her whole countenance; and having seen her thus, it
were impossible to form an idea of anything more interesting or more
unaffectedly beautiful. The only young woman in the Nethertown, or near
it, who at all approached her in personal charms, was the shoemaker's
daughter, Jeanie Muir. While some affirmed that she was nearly as fair,
others maintained that she was far behind even in this respect—but all
allowed that she was totally destitute of that inspired beauty which the
heart alone can convey to the countenance.
No one had ever suspected Christina of being in love;
and what was still more strange, no one had ever heard of her having a
lover! She had never once thought of the subject herself. A shrinking
sense of the ill-fame which had fallen on more than one of her brothers,
and a wish to shield her parents from the scathing thought of their
degradation, had hitherto occupied her mind to the almost total
exclusion of anything else. But this could not last: the vivid
expression which at times bright-tened over her countenance proved that
she was made for the extreme of either happiness or misery. There was in
her nature too many of those qualities which constitute the one or the
other, for both spring from* the same source, to admit of » cold
mediocrity. The fate of the fairest was yet in the balance, and
equally poised, but her hour was approaching.
Early in the spring of 1830, a young man called James
Dixon came to the village seeking employment, and the wright engaged
him. "His face was handsome, eyes fine, mouth gracious." That facility
of purpose, and quickness of perception, which are so often found in
youth—a-warm heart, and a wish always to please, formed the basis of his
character. He had, moreover, a sort of natural gallantry and good
humour, which, added to his other qualities, soon made him a great
favourite with the young women of the place. He was violent in his
likings, but inconstant. He spared no pains to gratify the slightest
freak of fancy, but the whim of to-day lost its relish on the morrow.
When the bleaching season arrived, the young wright
became a constant attendant at the Green; and his handsome face, his
smile, his humour, and his wish to please, added a new source of
attraction to the little evening parties which frequently assembled
there. Passing along a green lane on his return home one evening, he
chanced to meet Christina, and tried to detain her a few minutes by
conversation; but she seemed to be in a hurry, and answered him without
stopping -—this was the first time he had seen her.
Some days after this event, her mother being
fatigued, Christina, after her daily toils, went to the Green to "bring
in the claes." Here she found herself in the company of six or eight
young persons of both sexes, and among the rest Jamie the wright.
Upon this occasion he seemed to take no notice of her, but his
pleasantries, and the humorous tricks which he played upon the other
girls, were unceasing. He put two pieces of paper on each side of his
pocket-knife, and by a dexterous sleight, [The trick is performed thus:
wet the blade of a knife, and place two pieces of paper at about an inch
and a-half, or two inches, separate on each side; hold it in your left
hand in a position nearly horizontal, resting the point upon your knee
or on a table, and with the forefingers of your right hand wipe off the
paper which is nearest the point on one side, saying at the same time
"There is one there." Give the knife a sudden turn, but instead of
turning the other side up, turn it quite round, so that the same side
may be uppermost again, and before the deception can be discovered, pass
your fingers quickly over the place from which you had formerly wiped
the paper, saying, as before, "There is one there." Repeat the operation
with the remaining 'paper, changing the words to "There is none there."
You will thus have one side of the knife with two papers on it, and the
other with none, while the onlookers will believe that the whole are
off. Flourish it in the air, putting it over your shoulder, and
whistling at the same time, then bring it down with that side uppermost
on which the two papers are still sticking, and say, "There are two
there." After this yon may amuse onlookers as long as you please by
showing the knife alternately with and without papers, only taking care
to turn it rapidly. Some practice is necessary to enable a person to
perform the trick with dexterity and success.]
made them believe that he wiped them off one by one,
and then brought the whole back and replaced them with a whistle. He
tried to pin bits of brown paper or rags on their backs, and mimicked
their affected wrath when he was discovered. He offered to assist them
in gathering up their clothes, well knowing that his services would not
be accepted, and when they came to drive him away, he fled; while the
offended parties, taking the hint, chased him round the Green, throwing
wet clothes at him as they ran. By these good-humoured oddities, he
succeeded so well in drawing the attention of the spectators, that in a
short time they seemed to have forgotten everything else in laughing at
him. Christina was among those who looked and listened; and oftener than
once she laughed till her eyes filled with tears. The merriment and fun
was kept up till she was ready to depart, when, as if to play a trick on
her, the young wright snatched up her basket and ran off with it. But
instead of running round the Green with it, he carried it directly to
her mother's door, and set it down with the greatest care, then turning
round, held up both his hands, as if to deprecate the wrath of the
panting maiden who followed. Breathless with running, she could scarcely
speak; but instead of teasing her like the others, he had done her all
the service in his power, and she thanked him with a smile. The young
wright felt the power of that smile, and answering it with another, he
ran back to the Green. But his tricks and oddities were over for that
evening; the whole party appeared dull; and after standing for a few
minutes, during which a yawn went rpund, hroke up simultaneously.
"O love! what art thou in this world of ours?"
How simple and almost imperceptible are thy beginnings, and yet what
havoc of peace and happiness hast thou made in many a heart! For the
next five or six days, Christina was not at the Green. But when her
mother's bleaching day again came round, she again came to "bring hame
the claes,"—again she met Jamie Dixon, and again he ran off with her
basket. The unaffected wish to please rarely fails in its effect: again
the artless maiden thanked him with a smile, but on this occasion it was
accompanied with a few words expressive of her gratitude for his
kindness. After this, she went oftener out "to take the air," in the
evening or at mid-day, than was her wont, and as a matter of course, was
oftener in the way of meeting the young wright. At first, a mutual smile
of recognition, and the common observation about the state of the
weather, constituted the whole of their intercourse. But ere another
month had elapsed, they would stand together for a few minutes to tell
or hear some piece of news, and then they would part, as they had met,
with a smile—each turning to take a backward look at the other.
Sometimes it happened that both looked about at the same time, and then
they would smile again. By and by these little conversations became more
frequent and prolonged; they would look around to see if they were
observed, and pass abruptly if any one was near. After this, it was soon
noticed that at the Green and elsewhere, Jamie the wright always
appeared to be happiest and in the highest spirits when Christina was
present, while the smile was oftener upon her cheek when he was near
than at any other time. If he spoke in her praise, she would blush, turn
away her head, pick up a blade of grass, and busy herself iu folding it
up, as if she had not heard him.
In small societies, every trifle becomes the subject
of conversation. Suspicions were now entertained of their being in love;
and those suspicions were confirmed, when, after having gone up the burn
one evening to gather water-cresses, Christina was seen slowly returning
with the supposed object of her affection by her side, and observed to
part from him before they reached the houses, each taking a separate
road. Her neighbours now threw out sly hints in her presence, which
brought the crimson rushing to her cheeks, and put the state of her
affections beyond a doubt.
Her smiles were now entirely suppressed in the
presence of her lover, and if she met him at the Green, or in any of
those little parties which sometimes assembled in the lanes during
leisure hours, the few words she uttered were always addressed to some
other. But if he left the party first, her eye followed him till he
disappeared, and then she sighed deeply. If a footstep were heard
approaching the window when she was at work, she would pause and listen
attentively till the individual passed, and if it chanced to be him, she
would sit for a time apparently absorbed in profound thought, with her
eyes fixed on vacancy, and her hands idly folded across her bosom,
These little occurrences were carefully noted by the
neighbours, and Christina was frequently compelled to hear an account of
her own blushes and sighs, and to be taxed with that affection which she
could so ill conceal. Too modest and timid to confess openly her
feelings, and by far too honest and ingenuous to deny what she secretly
felt to be true, she had no other resource but to bear all in silence,
and labour in future to suppress her sighs, and curb her blushes.
Lovers are objects at whom every one deems himself
entitled to level the shafts of raillery; and the young wright had also
to endure his share; but to him it gave little annoyance. He could make
jests at his own expense, and laugh with those who made them for him.
Sometimes he would deny every thing with humorous effrontery, and at
others he would plead guilty to every charge which was brought against
him. Thus he puzzled and baffled those who wished to tease him; and when
they found that their efforts were ineffectual, they in general soon
gave it up.
Matters thus went on, till new events gave to the
good people of the Nethertown new topics of conversation. Christina and
Jamie Dixon were looked upon as affianced lovers; and though they were
seen together, it was considered merely a thing of course, and scarcely
spoken of. The ramble to the hill for blackberries—the walk up the burn
to gather flowers —and the errand to the town, deferred till evening
that they might go together, continued as before.
The growth of affection is often of such a nature,
that it were difficult even for those who have experienced it in all its
stages to describe it. A look when hundreds are between, and no word can
be spoken—a touch of the hand—a cadence of the voice, even in common
conversation—may make a deep impression on the memory, "and come, and
come again," in moments of solitary musing, till the imagination has
magnified it into an ideal world of tenderness and love. Love is like an
indigenous plant; nature has provided for its growth, and no
extraordinary care or cultivation is required to bring it to maturity.
Thus it was with Christina. Formed by nature for the
most tender and lasting affection, love had opened up to her a new
existence, and supplied her with a new train of thoughts. Her heart no
longer wandered, like the bee, from flower to flower, among that little
round of associations which had formerly occupied it. One image alone
was imprinted upon it —the name of one object was written there; and
these were all in all to her. To recollect every varying shade of his
countenance—to ponder over every word he had spoken—and thence to draw
indications of all those amiable qualities which add to domestic
felicity;—to form excuses for his trifling faults, and in his virtues to
find sure signs of that excellence which, when matured and known, would
draw the esteem of all;—these occupied every hour of her waking time,
and every day added something new, which "lent to loneliness delight!"
Not that fears did not sometimes intrude—for fears and ardent affection
are often married together; but when they were past, they only served to
make the pleasing reflections which followed more pleasant, as pain,
when it is removed, serves to heighten the enjoyment which we derive
from health, while yet the contrast is fresh. Upon the whole, her life
at this period resembled a happy dream, over which hope was the
presiding power, while fears only came occasionally. And in that dream
The summer passed away—the autumn faded into winter—the winter
brightened into spring—and spring was again expanding into
summer—without having produced any material change.
The buds and blossoms were bursting from the trees;
the birds ''made wild music rife" on every common and in every
grove; the Green was again covered with its load of clean-washed linen,
and again at eventide fair forms, happy faces, and hearts full of glee,
flitted round it. At this gay season there is an annual fair at the
little town of N------, and thither, on the appointed day, Christina's
lover easily persuaded her to accompany him. On the road, and in the
crowded marketplace, he treated her with the most sedulous attention. He
took her to see the shows of wild beasts, and the exhibitions of
jugglers; then he led her down to the harbour to " see th>' shipping;"
and while she hung on his arm, he pointed out every novelty which he
supposed worthy of her notice. He was constantly by her side, protecting
her from the pressure, and choosing for her those situations where the
objects of interest might be best seen. "When they had satisfied their
curiosity with these, he led her up to the hill above the town, where
they had an extensive view of the Frith. It was a spring-tide, and its
bosom presented a scene to her so new and striking, that she seemed to
forget all, save the youth by her side, in silent wonder. Far off, amid
the dim haze of the waters, the distant ships might be seen emerging, as
it were, from the clouds, and appearing no larger than so many whit«
specks on the horizon. Somewhat nearer they lay still and motionless,
with all their spread of canvas, like leviathans slumbering on the deep.
Nearer still, or rather immediately below, some were drawing in to the
little port, while others were moving majestically past, with their
white wings spread to catch the breeze—breaking the blue waters into
foam, and leaving a long rippling track behind them.
All this was new to Christina. Her heart was in
unison with the picturesque and beautiful, and she thought she had never
in her life seen any thing half so worthy of admiration. Those who have
looked, for the first time, on a number of new and interesting objects,
in the presence, of the being whom they most love, and felt their
interest increased by the consciousness that that being was
participating the same pleasure, and sharing the same emotions, with
themselves, may perhaps be able to form a better idea of what her
feelings were upon this occasion, than any which words could convey.
The day had been remarkably fine, but toward evening
the sky became cloudy,—-a few peals of distant thunder were heard, and a
rattling shower of rain forced the lovers to hasten to the town, and
take refuge in a close called the Wide Entry. This was nothing
more than a passage through below the houses; and, in a few minutes it
was crowded with people seeking shelter from the shower. "While standing
here a rude fellow, who fancied himself pinched for room, began to
thrust a young woman, who stood next him, out into the rain, by offering
her such indignities, as made her prefer being drenched to the skin to
returning and standing beside him. Christina, who knew the girl,
requested Jamie, in a whisper, to interfere in her behalf. He did so;
and, as several others appeared willing to take her part,, the fellow
was driven forth to seek shelter elsewhere, while she was again received
under the protecting roof, and better accommodated than before.
The violence of the storm had abated, and dwindled
into a drizzling rain; and twilight was begun when the lovers, under the
canopy of a solitary umbrella, set out on their homeward journey.
Neither the inclemency of the weather, nor bad roads, were any
inconvenience to Christina, since they afforded her companion an
opportunity of performing many little acts of kindness and attention,
which enhanced her comfort and happiness. When they were within a mile
of the Nethertown, a small party of acquaintances overtook them, and
some miscellaneous conversation ensued; but the new comers soon passed
on; and, when they were out of hearing, Christina's companion inquired
at her, "who it was that walked on the left hand side of the road?" She
informed him that she was the shoemaker's daughter, and the very woman
on whose behalf he had interfered during the rain; that she had come
from her service to spend the summer half-year with her father; and,
moreover, that she was wont to be considered the bonniest lass about the
Nethertown. She concluded, by artlessly asking again "if he didna ken
her!" "I never saw her afore," was the inconsistent reply, for he
had seen her only a few hours ago: "but I think she is a bonnie
lassie."
The individual spoken of was indeed a dashing
lass—tall, dark-haired, and dark-eyed. Christina knew all this; but when
she heard her lover speak of her beauty, she felt something like a cold
damp at her heart—an involuntary feeling for which she could not
account, and the smile of happiness, which hitherto had brightened her
countenance, forsook it for a season. Perhaps her lover discovered the
change, and what had caused it; for he endeavoured to obliterate both by
increased care and kindness. Her heart was not made for suspicion, and
before they reached her father's door, her confidence—if it had ever
been shaken—was perfectly restored. To the threshold of that door he
accompanied her; and, after shaking her by the hand, and holding it for
a few seconds gently pressed in his own, he bade her good night,
and left her to dream of him and happiness.
During the whole of the next day she did not see him.
This naturally created some alarm, but her heart was fruitful in forming
excuses for his absence. At last evening came, but with it came not her
lover, as was his wont. What could she do? Propriety forbade that she
should ask an explanation. After a restless night, morning dawned—it
passed away, and still she saw him not, though she learned that he had
been out late last night, and even heard herself censured as the cause.
This information fell heavy on her heart; still hope was not extinct,
and throughout the day she tried to comfort herself with the idea, that
something unexpected had prevented him from seeing her. In the evening
of the second day, after finishing her task, she walked out, not perhaps
without the expectation of seeing him. She did see him, but what words
can describe the hopeless and dreary feeling which settled over her at
the sight! He, too, had walked out, though apparently not for the
purpose of seeing her. With him walked the very woman about whom he had
inquired on the road two evenings ago—whom Christina had characterised
as "the bonniest lass about the Nethertown." They paid no attention to
her—they did not even see her. Her situation, however, gave her an
opportunity of marking them too accurately for her own peace. She saw
his eye distinctly, and it seemed to beam with all that tenderness which
it was wont to express when turned upon herself. She saw him smile, and
his smile appeared the same as that which had long been the light of her
eyes—she heard him speak, and in his voice she fancied she could trace
those endearing accents which had so often lulled her into utter
forgetfulness of everything else— she saw and heard all this, and she
was miserable. The scene was too painful to be long endured. Her visions
had vanished, and in hopeless dejection she hurried back to her home,
and threw herself upon her bed, to hide in obscurity her heart's
despair.
In justice to the other, we must now notice the
circumstances which produced the scene narrated above, for as yet his
error was owing to levity and thoughtlessness, rather than to
infidelity. The day after the Fair, he was so busy at the shop that it
was not till evening he could find leisure to see her who anxiously
awaited his coming; and when he did walk out with this intention, before
he had proceeded many steps, he met the dark-eyed dashing Jeanie Muir.
She thanked him, with a host of smiles and blandishments, for the
service he had rendered her on the preceding day, and he could not do
less than listen. She was fair, and forward as she was fair. He had a
sort of natural gallantry, which made him desirous to please; and they
stood together till, thinking it too late to follow out his first
purpose, he abandoned it for the night, without once thinking of the
anxiety which his absence might occasion to one who so tenderly loved
him. On the following evening, as he left the shop, he again met Jeanie.
She felt proud of his acquaintance; and from a wish, no doubt to make
the most of it, she had again thrown herself in his way. She was going
she said to take a walk, and asked him, in a half laughing way, if he
would not accompany her 1 He assented, and chance brought them
where their looks and words were as daggers to the heart of one who was
but ill-prepared for such a scene.
He saw Christina, however, as she was hurrying from a
sight which she could no longer endure. Conscience rebuked him for his
levity ; and, as soon as he could conveniently get away from the other,
he hastened to join her. Even then she did not refuse to see him; but,
believing, as she did, that his affections were estranged, how could she
receive his attentions. She tried to summon a smile to her countenance,
but tears came instead; and, to conceal them, she turned away her face.
She attempted to speak, but her voice was broken, and her words
unconnected. In spite of all her efforts, he saw she was changed; and,
conscience-stricken, he left her without a word. From this night
Christina was visibly altered, though she strove, with all a woman's
wiles, to hide the change. When others were present, she still attempted
to speak and laugh, and appear as cheerful as she had been before. But
the veil was too thin to deceive even a superficial observer.
Ill may a sad heart forge a merry face,
Nor hath constrained laughter any grace.
Her words flowed not from her heart as they were
wont, and her laugh was forced and unnatural. Instead of walking out
when her work was done, she would sit lonely by the fire, twisting and
untwisting a bit of straw; or she would take down her hair, and while it
hung loosely about her face, with her scissors clip the pieces of paper
which held it into strange and fantastic shapes, and then put them into
the fire one by one, and watch them as they blazed. During these
reveries, if she was spoken to by any one, her name had always to be
repeated oftener than once before she could be restored to
consciousness.
This alteration in her manner did not pass without
remark. The gossips, however, only attributed it to one of those casual
coolnesses which are so frequent among lovers, and from which even the
fondest and most faithful are seldom wholly exempt. But in a short time
her mother became anxious for her health ; and thinking that too close
an application to her work might have brought on lowness of spirits, she
earnestly urged her to take a jaunt and see her friends. With her
mother's wishes she readily complied, and was absent for two days, but
returned without any sign of having brought along with her a lighter
heart. It was rather late in the evening before she reached home; and
the next morning, as she was returning from the well with water, some
young people from the houses which she passed stopped her to inquire the
news of her journey. One of them noticed the late hour of her arrival,
and asked if she came without company. She averred that she did; but he
pretended to disbelieve her, and said, that "Jamie Dixon had not been
seen last night till after her return." When the name of her
former lover was mentioned, she tried to smile, but the paleness of
ashes was on her lip—it quivered —the blood forsook her cheek, and she
fell apparently lifeless at their feet! Was she gone? No: a faint
breathing told she was not dead. They raised her up, and sprinkled water
over her deathlike forehead, and into the palms of her hands, and
gradually restored her to consciousness. But the shock she had received
was too violent to be immediately got over; and it was not till
after she had been confined to bed some time, that she was able to
resume her usual occupations.
Here we must once more advert-to her now faithless
lover. Petted by what he was pleased to think her coldness, and pained
by his own reflections, but still disposed to shift the blame from
himself, he hastened back to the very individual who had been the cause
of all. While with her, his manner was uneasy; he appeared, as he
deserved to be, unhappy ; and by either real or well affected concern
for his uneasiness, she succeeded in drawing from him an account of what
had happened. She felt proud of the confidence he had thus reposed in
her; and she professed so much friendship for him, and seemed to
sympathise with him in such a way as to induce him again to seek
consolation, or at least court forgetfulness, in her company. Had he
been left to himself, affection would have soon returned to assert its
sway, for his heart was neither callous nor corrupt. But the time was
critical, and in the freshness of his pique she acquired an influence
over him which she was perfectly willing to exercise for her own
advantage. Facility on the one hand, and rashness on the other, were his
principal errors. He received a letter from an old shop-mate in
Edinburgh, informing him of an opening for him there, with the prospect
of high wages. This information was immediately communicated to his
newly-acquired friend. Art and intrigue are practised in cottages as
well as courts, and there is a rivalry among women when their affections
are engaged, which, though less obvious, is as earnestly pursued as the
more open contentions of men. She urged him to embrace the offer, and,
as an inducement, stated that she had .determined to go there herself in
quest of service. To wean him from any hankerings which he might have
for the place, or any of its inhabitants, she also repeated some tattle
which she had heard about a lad who was said to "be after his auld
sweetheart," and who was supposed to be gone with her to see her
friends. The scheme succeeded; and, on the night on which Christina
returned from her jaunt, the two were together concerting measures for
taking their departure on the following day. Both of them, accordingly,
left the place early next morning, and as they had kept their intention
secret till they were ready to set off, their departure was not
generally known in the Nethertown till after Christina had swooned.
After this, James Dixon never returned to the
Nethertown. Had he stayed there a week longer, his feelings, probably,
would have flowed back to their old channel; but rash and reckless of
consequences, he had exchanged the rural quiet of a country life for the
confusion of a crowded city, and the Nethertown and all it contained, if
not forgotten, might be for a time so confounded with other images as to
leave but a faint impression on his mind. It is, moreover, questionable
if he knew the extent of the misery he had occasioned till it was too
late to remedy it; for if subsequent accounts were true, in six months
after going to Edinburgh, he married Jeanie Muir. But this, it is
believed, was never told to the victim of his former attachment.
It is painful to trace the progress of disappointment
from the first shade of paleness which exhibits itself on the
countenance, through all its future stages,—languor, weariness, and
disease,—till it ends in the darkness of death. But the Fate of the
Fairest must be told ; and if it should be instrumental in teaching
the virtue of constancy to one inconstant lover, or in saving one
gentle heart among the softer sex from the pang which its opposite might
occasion, the writer will account himself amply rewarded.
When hut partially recovered, Christina resumed her
work, and was as diligent as she had been before j but she never
regained her former cheerfulness. By degrees, she began to absent
herself almost entirely from company, always indicating a wish to be
alone. Her colour, too, it was remarked, had never been what it was
previous to her sudden illness, but no one appeared to entertain any
apprehensions for her perfect recovery, and the matrons merely observed,
that "Christina was surely growin' guid noo, for they never saw her at
the Green."
Time stays not his flight for the happy or the
unhappy, though to the latter he may seem to linger; while the former
may fancy him too swift. The fields had exchanged their rich green for
"the hues of coming ripeness," when Christina began to complain of
weariness after her day's work; but still she spoke not of pain,
or any fixed disorder. Harvest came, and she went forth with the
reapers, in the expectation that the fresh air and exercise would he
beneficial to her. But the canker-worm was at her heart, and neither air
nor exercise could scare it away. It was truly touching to see her sit,
during the intervals of rest, with her features composed into the
deepest melancholy, while peals of laughter were ringing around her; and
it was still more touching to see her sometimes attempt to laugh at—she
knew not what. Her strength was unequal to the task, and, after a trial
of two or three days, another took her place, and she returned to her
former employment.
The harvest season passed over; the corn was
secured from coming winter; the sombre hues of autumn were on the naked
fields, and the trees had begun to shed their sere leaves at the summons
of the blast.
A little after daybreak, the east appeared overspread
with clouds—
Which, streak'd with dusky red, portend
The day shall have a stormy end.
They vanished before sunrise, and for two hours after
the morning continued calm and beautiful. It was the Sabbath, and
Christina was preparing herself for church ; her friends would have
dissuaded her from going out in her infirm state of health, but she
wished to go, and they consented. Before the service was concluded,
sleet and rain fell, and the wind blew keenly from the south-east. In
returning, she got slightly wet, and almost immediately on reaching home
complained of unusual weariness, headache, and oppression of the breast.
Pain in her side was the next alarming symptom. Medical assistance was
called in, and succeeded in affording a temporary relief, but there was
no permanent improvement: her strength had departed, and no power of art
could bring it back. Her medical adviser now recommended walking in the
open air when the weather was mild, and cheerful company when it was
not. With these directions she endeavoured to comply ; but her weakness
had increased so much, that her walks in general terminated at the house
of the sewing-mistress, in whose words let what remains of her story be
told.
"When she came to see me," said this kind-hearted
individual, "her conversation was always of a solemn and impressive
nature—death, and the things of another world, were the subjects upon
which it most frequently turned; but not a word did she speak of her
faithless lover, nor did she ever make the slightest illusion to her own
particular case. I frequently attempted to draw her attention to passing
events, and to amuse her by telling cheerful stories; but all was in
vain. Though she appeared willing to listen, her mind soon wandered from
the subject; and when I asked her opinion, I often found that she had
forgotten, or rather never heard, what I had been saying. At last it
occurred to me, that if she could be brought to disclose the story of
her ill-requited affection, it might relieve her sinking spirits, and
even yet give her a chance of recovering. With this idea in my head, I
watched for an opportunity to lead her on to unbosom herself, without
importuning her with questions.
"One day, after we had been speaking of the felicity
of a future state, I remarked that love—overflowing love—would be one of
the principal sources of happiness in heaven: love to God, and love to
each other—a love which could neither be interrupted by accidents, nor
unreturned. At these words, a faint red once more tinged her pale
cheek, she sighed deeply, and I almost trembled to proceed; yet the time
seemed favourable for my purpose, and I went on to say, that the little
unalloyed happiness we could enjoy here would be still Jess, were it not
for those sympathies and affections which Heaven, in mercy, had
vouchsafed us—the love of friends, sisters, brothers, parents, children,
and the yet more tender ties by which young hearts are linked together.
I remarked farther, that those affections from which we derived our
purest enjoyments were, from unavoidable circumstances—the un-worthiness
of their objects, and the imperfections of our fallen nature—sometimes
turned into bitterness, and made the means of poisoning the fountain
which they were intended to purify; but where this was the case, it was
our duty to forget the past is speedily as possible, and in future be
more careful to fix them only on such objects as might be worthy of our
regard.
"As I spoke, I purposely avoided looking at her, lest
she should suspect my intention; but as I concluded, I looked her full
in the face, and I shall never forget the appearance which she at that
moment presented. A bright hectic burned on her cheek; her eye—dry,
feverish, and ' full of fearful meaning,'— was fixed on my countenance,
and her hands were clasped across her bosom. She did not attempt to
speak for some minutes, and fear made me silent also; for I recollected
the soene which had followed the rash mention of her lover's name when
she was much stronger than now, and apprehensive for the same
consequences, I would have given worlds to recall my words. She rose
from her seat, and made an attempt at utterance, but her emotion was
still too strong, and her voice died away in a broken murmur. After
heaving a deep sigh, she was able to articulate,—' Oh,' said she, ' I
would tell you a secret, which you already know—but I know not how it
is, I cannot speak.' I begged her to compose herself, and sit down, and
when she was better, I would be happy to listen to whatever she had to
impart. She sat down accordingly, and tried to calm her feelings and
collect herself for the task, but soon expressed a wish to go home,
saying that she was too much agitated to tell her story distinctly. To
this I did not object, and when she rose to depart, after looking
earnestly at me for a short time, as if to ascertain the extent of what
I felt on her account, she pressed my hand' in her own—thin and shadowy
—and said she would return to-morrow.
"When she returned, the melancholy serenity of her
countenance was restored. She was pale—paler than I had ever seen her
before—but there was no agitation in her manner, and her eye, though it
did not sparkle with health, beamed with a pure seraphic brightness, as
if it looked far beyond the mists of time. She was herself the first to
allude to the subject. With the most perfect composure, she told her
whole story from first to last—from the time she met her faithless lover
at the Green, to their last parting. She said she had often tried to
discover what it was that made him so dear to her, and had as often
fancied that it was merely his kindness and his good humour which she
admired, but that she never knew her own heart till she was shocked with
the idea of being forsaken.
"When she concluded, I said she should try to think
no more of him, or if that were impossible, that it were better to
despise, or even hate him, than thus to wear out her existence in
useless regret and unavailing sorrow.
"'Oh, no !' she replied. 'I do not think of him now
as a lover—that is past—but I can neither despise nor hate him; I could
not do that even in the bitterest moments of disappointment—I love him
still! And oh!' she continued, in an excited tone, 'oh if I could but
meet him in heaven, this—this would more than reward me for all I
have suffered on his account!'
"I was so struck with this instance of pure and
forgiving affection filling the warm heart of the apparently dying girl,
that it was some time before I could answer her, I applauded her
constancy, and that gentleness of heart which sought no revenge—what
else could I do?—and tried to flatter her once more with hopes of
recovery, telling her of others who had been weaker than she was yet,
and who, nevertheless, had lived to a healthy old age; but her only
answer was a monrnful smile. ,
"From this time forward, though the process of decay
went on, her spirits seemed to be relieved of a burden. Gradually and
gently she faded day by day; but death made his approaches in
loveliness, not in terror. As she drew nearer her end, her countenance
assumed an expression of tranquil and almost unearthly beauty; and her
eye, which retained its lustre to the last, seemed to glow with heavenly
light. Sallowness and gloom were not among the symptoms of dissolution;
and on the evening before she died, one would have thought that she
might melt into the essence of a spirit without suffering a single pang.
On the following morning, which was the market day, while her former
companions were preparing themselves to visit those scenes which she had
seen along with them but one short year before, she closed her eyes in a
gentle slumber, and so tranquil were her last moments, and so calm and
bright was her countenance even after the spirit had fled, that it was
with some difficulty those who watched could tell she was dead."
At the Nethertown, and on the Green, she was soon
forgotten by all save a few; and her grave has already sunk nearly to a
level with the grassy heaps which surround it. I have stood over that
grave; and while memory wandered back into the past, and pondered on the
brief career of her whose affections "blighted her life's bloom," the
words of a great delineator of the human heart involuntarily occurred to
my recollection,—"A broken heart is a distemper which kills many more
than is generally imagined, and would have a .fair title to a place in
the bill of mortality, did it not differ in one instance from all other
diseases, namely, that no physician can cure it."
Such was the fate of artless maid,
Sweet flow'ret of the rural shade!