The Moss-Roses are still
clustered in their undecaying splendour above the- Porch of
Calder-Cottage; the bees are murmuring in their joy around the Hive on
its green sward rich with its white and purple clover; the turtle doves
are cooing on the roof, with plumage brightening in the sunshine; while
over all is shed a dim and tender shadow from the embowering Sycamore,
beneath whose shelter was built, many long years ago, the little humble
Edifice. In its low simplicity it might be the dwelling of the poor; but
the heart feels something in its quiet loveliness that breathes of the
spirit of cultivated life. A finer character of beauty pervades the
still seclusion, than the hand of labour ever shed over its dwelling in
the gratitude of its Sabbath-hours; all around seems ministering to the
joy, and not to the necessities of existence; and as the eye dwells on
the gorgeous ornaments which sun, and air, and dew have showered in
profusion over the blooming walls, the mind cannot but think of some
delicate and gentle spirit retired from the world it had adorned, and
enjoying in the twilight of life the sweetness and serenity of Nature.
Such were its inmates a few short months ago. The sound of music was
heard far down the romantic banks of the Calder, when, in the silence of
evening, the harp was touched within these humble walls, or there arose
a mingled voice as of spirits hymning through the woods. But the strings
of the harp are now silent, and the young lips that sung those heavenly
anthems are covered with the dust.
The Lady who lived there in her widowhood was sprung of gentle blood;
and none who had but for a moment looked on her pale countenance, and
her figure majestic even under the burden of pain, could ever again
forget that image, at once so solemn and so beautiful. Although no deep
lines disturbed the meek expression of that fading face, and something
that almost seemed a smile still shone over her placid features, yet had
that Lady undergone m her day hardships, and troubles, and calamities
that might have broken the heart, and laid low the head of manhood in
its sternest pride. She had been with her husband in famine, battle,
arid shipwreck. When his mortal wound came, she sat by his bed-side—her
hand closed his eyes and wrought his shroud,—and she was able to gaze
with a stedfast eye on all the troops marching with reversed arms, arid
with slow step, to melancholy music, when the whole army was drawn up at
his funeral on the field of battle. Perhaps, then, she wished to die.
But two children were at her knees, and another at her bosom; and on her
return to her native country, she found heart to walk through the very
scenes where she had been most blest before these infants were bom, and
to live in the very dwelling to which he who was now buried had brought
her a young and happy bride. Such had been his last request—and
seventeen years of resignation and peace had now passed over the head of
the widow—whose soul was with her husband at morning and at evening
prayers—during hours of the day when there were many present—and during
hours of the night when there were none but the eye of God to witness
her uncomplaining melancholy. Her grief was calm, but it was constant—it
repined not, but it wasted away —and though all called her happy, all
knew that her life was frail, and that one so sad and sorrowful even in
her happiness was not destined by God, for old age. Yet for her none
felt pity—a higher feeling arose in every heart from the resignation so
perfectly expressed in every motion, look, and tone—and beautiful as she
was on earth, there came across the souls of all who beheld her a
thought of one yet more beautiful in heaven.
Her three Daughters, although their health had always been delicate,
were well, cheerful, and happy; but some said, that whenever they were
met walking alone, a solemn, if not a mournful expression was on their
countenances; and whether it was so or not, they certainly shunned
society rather than sought it, and seldom partook of the innocent
amusements natural to youth, and to which youth lends so much grace and
attraction. No one ever saw any of them unamiable, or averse from the
gladness of others; but a shade of sadness was now perceptible over all
their demeanour, and they seemed bound together by some tie even more
strict than that of sisterly affection. The truth was, that they felt
God had given them but a short life, and that when the bier of one was
carried into the church-yard, that of the other would not be long of
following it to the place of rest.
Their Mother died first, and her death had been long foreseen by them;
for they, who spoke together of their own deaths, were not likely to
deceive themselves with respect to that of one so dear to them all. She
was ready and willing to die; but tears were on her cheek only a few
hours before her decease, for the sake of her three daughters, left to
themselves, and to drop away, as she well knew, one after the other, in
that fatal disease which they inherited from their father. Her death was
peaceful—almost happy—but, resigned as she was, it could not but be
afflicting to her parting spirit to see those three beautiful spectres
gliding round her bed-side, with countenances and persons that plainly
told they were fast hastening on to the tomb.
The funeral of the Mother was conducted as it deserved to be—for humble
as she was in heart, yet she had been highly born; and many attended her
body to the grave who had almost forgotten her when alive in her simple
retirement. But these were worldly mourners, who laid aside their sorrow
with their suits of sable— many who had no right to walk near her coffin
felt they had a right to weep over her grave, and for many Sabbaths
after her burial, groupes collected beside the mound, and while many of
them could not but weep, none left it without a sigh and a blessing..
When her three daughters, after the intermission of a few Sabbaths, were
again seen walking, arm in arm, into the church, and taking their seats
in their own pew, the whole congregation may be said to have regarded
the Orphans with a compassion, which was heightened into an (motion at
once overcoming and consoling, when it was visible to all who looked
upon them, that ere long they would be lying side by side near their
Mother’s grave.
After her death, the three Orphans were seldomer seen than before; and,
pale as their sweet faces had seemed when they used to dress in white,
they seemed even paler now contrasted with their black mourning
garments. They received the visits of their few dear friends with
warmest gratitude, and those of ordinary condolement with a placid
content; they did not appear wearied of this world, but resigned to
leave it; smiles and the pressure of affectionate hands were still dear
to them; and, if they kept themselves apart from society, it was not
because they could not sympathize with its hilarity, its amusements, and
its mirth, but because they were warned by feelings close upon their
brain and heart, that they were doomed soon to lay their heads down into
the dust. Some visitors, on first, entering their parlour, in which
every thing was still as elegantly and gracefully arranged as every
wondered why the fair Sisters should so seldom be seen out of their own
dwelling; but not one, even the most thoughtless and unfeeling, ever
left them without far different thoughts, or without a sorrowful
conviction that they were passing, in perfect resignation, the remainder
of their life/ which, in their own hearts, they knew-to be small. So/w
eek after w eek, visits of idle ceremony were discontinued'; and none
now came to Calder-Cottage except those who liad been dear to their dead
Mother, and were dear, e\ en for that reason, had there been no other,
to the dying Orphans.
They sat in their beauty within the shadow of death. But happiness was
hot therefore excluded from Calder-Cottage. It was even a sublime
satisfaction to know that God was to call them away from their mortal
being unsevered; and ’ that while they all three knelt in prayer, it'
was not for the sake of one only who was to leave the survivors in
tears, but for themselves that they were mutually beseeching God, that
he would be pleased to smooth the path by which they were walking hand
in hand to the grave. When the sun shone, they still continued to wander
along the shaded banks of their beloved Calder, and admire its quiet
junction with the wide-flowing Clyde. They did not neglect their
flower-garden, although they well knew that their eyes were not to be
gladdened by the blossoms of another Spring. They,, strewed, as before,
crumbs for the small birds that had built they nests among the roses and
honeysuckles on the w all of their cottage. They kept the weeds from
overgrowing the walks that w ere soon to be trodden by their feet no
more; and they did not turn their eyes away from the shooting flowers
which they knew took another spring to bring them to maturity, and would
be disclosing their fragrant beauty in the sunshine that shone on their
own graves;; Nor did their higher cares lose any of the interest, of
the' charm which they had possessed during their tears of health and
hope. The old people whom their charity supported were received with as
kind smiles as ever, when they came to receive their weekly dole. The
children whom they clothed and sent to school met with the same sweet
voices as before, when on the Saturday evenings the} visited the ladies
of Calder-Cottage; and the innocent mirth of all about the house, the
garden, the fields, or. the adjacent huts, kerned to be pleasant to
their ears, when stealing unexpectedly upon them from happy persons
engrossed with their own joys, and unaware that the sound of their
pastimes had reached those whose own earthly enjoyments were so near a
close.
These were the last lingering shadows and sounds and odours of life; and
the time had not yet come upon either of these Orphans when they could
not be, enjoyed. But they had other comforts; and if it had been ever
most delightful to them to read and study the word of God, when they let
fall upon the holy page eyes bright with the dewy light of health yet
undecaying, it was now more than delightful—it was blessed—to peruse it
now together, when they had to give the Bible by turns into each other’s
hands, that their eye-sight might not get dim, nor their voice falter,
which would have been, had the same dying Christian read aloud one
chapter to the end. When the old Minister visited them, he found them
always cheerful and composed—during his stay they were even joyful in
their resignation; and at parting, if tears were ever shed, it was by
the aged for the young who wept not for themselves, except when they
thought how that benign Old Man had stood by their mother’s death-bed,
and when she had lost her utterance, let her spirit ascend upon his
prayers to heaven.
Caroline was the first to die. Her character, unlike that of both her
sisters, had been distinguished by great spirit and vivacity, and when
they were present, had always diffused something of its own glad light
over the serene composure of the one, and the melancholy stillness of
the other, without seeming ever to be inconsistent with them; nor did
her natural and irrepressible buoyancy altogether forsake her even to
the very last. With her the disease assumed its most beautiful show. Her
light blue eyes sparkled with astonishing brilliancy—her cheeks, that
had always hitherto been pale, glowed with a rose-like lustre—although
she knew that she was dying, and strove to subdue her soul down to her
near fate, yet, in spite of herself, the strange fire that glowed in the
embers of her life, kindled it often into a kind of airy gladness, so
that a stranger would have thought her one on whom opening existence was
just revealing the treasures of its joy, and who was eager to unfold her
wings, and sail on into the calm and sunny future. Her soul, till within
a few days of her death, was gay in the exhilaration of disease; and the
very night before she died, she touched the harp w<th a playful hand,
and warbled, as long as her strength would permit, a few bars of a
romantic tune. No one was with her when she died, for she had risen
earlier than her sisters, and was found by them, when they came down to
the parlour, leaning back with a smiling face, on the sofa, with a few
lilies in her hand, and never more to have her head lifted up in life.
The youngest had gone first, and she was to be followed by Emma the next
in age. Emma, although so like her sister who was now dead, that they
had always been thought by strangers to be Twins, had a character
altogether different. Her thoughts and feelings ran in a deeper channel;
nature had endowed her with extraordinary talents, and whatever she
attempted, serious acquisition or light accomplishment, in that she
easily excelled. Few, indeed, is the number of women that are eminently
distinguished, among their sex, and leave names to be enrolled in the
lists of fame. Some accidental circumstances of life or death have
favoured those few; and their sentiments, thoughts, feelings, fancies,
and opinions, retain a permanent existence. But how many sink into the
grave in all their personal beauty, and all their mental charms, and are
heard of no morel. Of them no bright thoughts axe recorded, 110 touching
emotions, no wild imaginations. All their fine and true perceptions, all
their instinctive knowledge of the human soul, and all their pure
speculation on the mystery of human life, vanish for ever and aye with
the parting breath. A fair, amiable, intelligent young maiden has died
and is buried. That is all. And her grave lies in its unvisited rest.
Such an one was Emma Beatoun. Her mother, her. sisters, and a few dear
friends, knew what treasures of thought were in her soul—what gleams of
genius—and what light of unpretending wisdom. But she tarried up her
pure and high thoughts with her to heaven; nor did any of them survive
her on earth, but a few fragments of hymns set by herself to plaintive
music, which no voice but her own, so deep and yet so sweet, so mellow
yet so mournful, could ever have fitly sung.
The sufferings of this Sister were heavy indeed, and she at last prayed
to be relieved. Constant sickness, interrupted only by fits of racking
pain, kept the fair Shadow for the last weeks of her life to bed, and
nothing seemed to disturb her so much, as the incessant care of her
dying sister, who seemed to forget her own approaching doom in the
tenderest ministrations of love. Emma’s religious thoughts had long been
of an almost dark and awful character, and she was possessed by a deep
sense of her own utter unworthiness in the sight of God. It was feared,
that as her end drew near, and her mind was weakened by continual
suffering, her last hours might be visited with visions too trying and
terrible; but the reverse was the case, and it seemed as if God, to
reward a life of meekness, humility, and wisdom, removed all fear from
her soul, and showed her the loving, rather than the awful mysteries of
her Redeemer. On her dead face there sat a smue, just as pleasant and
serene as that which had lighted the countenance of Carome, when she
fell asleep for ever with the lilies in her hand. The old Nurse, who had
been with them since their infancy, alone observed that she had expired,
for there had been no sigh, and the pale emaciated fingers moved not as
they lay clasped together across her breast.
Louisa, the eldest, was now left alone, and although her health had
always been the most delicate, there seemed, from some of the symptoms,
a slight hope that she might yet recover. That fatal hectic flush did
not stain her cheeks; and her pulse, although very faint, had not the
irregularity of alarming fever. But there are secrets known but to the
dying themselves ; and all the encouraging kindness of friends was
received by her as sweet proofs of affection, but never once touched her
heart with hope. The disease of which both her sisters had died was in
the blood of her father’s family, and she never rose up from her bed, or
her couch, or the grey osier-seat in the sunny garden, without feeling a
deathlike lassitude that could not long endure. Indeed she yearned for
the grave; and hers was a weariness that could only find entire relief
in the perfect stillness of that narrow house. Had Louisa not felt death
within her bosom, there were circumstances that could not have failed to
make her desire life, even after her Mother and Sisters had been taken
away. For she had been betrothed for a year past, to one who would have
made her happy. He received an account of the alarming state of the
Sisters at Pisa, whither he had gone for the establishment of his own
health, and he instantly hurried home to Scotland. Caroline and Emma
were in their graves; but he had the mournful satisfaction to be with
his own Louisa in her last days. Much did he, at first, press her to go
to Italy, as a faint and forlorn hope; but he soon desisted from such
vain persuasions. “ The thought is sweet to lay our bones within the
bosom of our native soil. The verdure and the flowers I loved will
brighten around my grave-— the same trees whose pleasant murmurs cheered
my living ear will hang their' cool shadows over my dust, and the eyes
that met mine in the light of affection will shed tears over the sod
that covers me, keeping my memory green within their spirits!” He who
had been her lover—but was now the friend and brother of her soul, had
nothing to say in reply to these natural sentiments. “After all, they
are but fancies— Henry—but they cling to the heart from which they
sprung—and to be buried in the sweet church-yard of Blantyre is now a
thought most pleasant to my soul.” In dry summer weather, a clear
rivulet imperceptibly shrinks away from its sandy bed, till on some
morning we miss the gleam and the murmur altogether—and find the little
channel dry. Just in this way was Louisa wasting—and so was her life
pure and beautiful to the last. The day before she died, she requested
in a voice that could not be denied, that her Brother would take her
into the church-yard, that she might see the graves of her Mother and
Sisters all lying together, and the spot whose daisies were soon to be
disturbed. She was carried thither in the sunshine, on her sick chair,
for the distance was only a very few hundred yards, and her attendants
having withdrawn, she surveyed the graves with a beaming countenance, in
presence of her weeping Friend. “Methinks,” said she, “I hear a hymn—and
children singing in the church! No—no—it is only the remembered sound of
the psalm I heard the last Sabbath I had strength to go there. Oh! sweet
was it now as the reality itself” He who was to have been her Husband
was wholly overcome, and hid his face in despair. “ I go—my beloved—to
that holy place where there is neither marrying nor giving in
marriage—but we shall meet there, pulled from every earthly stain. Dry
up your tears and weep no more. Kiss—Oh kiss me once before I die!” He
stooped down, and she had just strength to put her arms round his neck,
when, with a long sigh,—she expired. |