Allan Bruce and Fanny
Raeburn were in no respect remarkable among the simple inhabitants of
the village in which they were born. They both bore a fair reputation in
the parish, and they were both beloved by their own friends and
relations. He was sober, honest, active, and industrious,—exemplary in
the common duties of private life,—possessed of the humble virtues
becoming his humble condition, and unstained by any of those gross vices
that sometimes deform the character of the poor. She was modest, good
tempered, contented, and religious—and much is contained in these four
words. Beauty she was not thought to possess—nor did she attract
attention; but whatever charm resides in pure health, innocence of
heart, and simplicity of manners, that belonged to Fanny Raeburn; while
there was nothing either about her face or figure to prevent her seeming
even beautiful in the eyes of a lover.
These two humble and happy persons were betrothed in marriage. Their
affection had insensibly grown without any courtship, for they had lived
daily in each other’s sight; and, undisturbed by jealousy or rivalry, by
agitating hopes or depressing fears, their hearts had been tenderly
united long before then troth was solemnly pledged; and they now looked
forward with a calm and rational satisfaction to the happy years, which
they humbly hoped might be stored up for them by a bountiful Providence.
Their love was without romance, but it was warm> tender, and true; they
were prepared by its strength to make any sacrifice for each other's
sakes; and, had death taken away either of them before the wedding-day,
the survivor might not perhaps have been clamorous in grief, or visited
the grave of the departed with nightly lamentations, but not the less
would that grief have been sincere, and not the less faithful would
memory have been to all the images of the past.
Their marriage-day was fixed—and Allan Bruce had rented a small cottage,
with a garden sloping down to the stream that cheered his native
village. Thither, in about two months, he was to take his sweet and
affectionate Fanny—she was to work with her needle as before—and he in
the fields. No change was to take place in their lives, but a change
from contentment to happiness; and if God prolonged to them the
possession of health, and blessed them with children, they feared not to
bring them decently up, and to afford sunshine and shelter to the living
flowers that might come to gladden their house. Such thoughts visited
the souls of the lovers,—and they were becoming dearer and dearer to one
another every hour that brought them closer to their marriage-day.
At this time Allan began to feel a slight dimness in his sight, of which
he did not take much notice, attributing it to some indisposition
brought on by the severity of his winter’s work. For he had toiled late
and early, during all weathers, and at every kind of labour, to gain a
sum sufficient to furnish respectably his lowly dwelling, and also to
array his sweet bride in wedding-clothes of which she should not need to
be ashamed. The dimness, however, each succeeding day, darkened and
deepened, till even his Fanny’s face was indistinctly discerned by him,
and he lost altogether the smile which never failed to brighten it
whenever he appeared. Then he became sad and dispirited, for the fear of
blindness fell upon him, and he thought of his steps being led in his
helplessness by the hand of a child. He prayed to God to avert this
calamity from him—but if not, to bestow upon him the virtue of
resignation. He thought of the different blind men whom he had known,
and as far as he knew, they all seemed happy. That belief pacified his
soul, when it was about to give way to a passionate despair; and every
morning at sunrise when the fast advancing verdure of spring seemed mote
dim and glimmering before his eyes, he felt his soul more .and more
resigned to that final extinction of the day’s blessed light, which lie
knew must be his doom before the earth was covered with the flowers and
fragrance of June.
It was as he had feared; and Allan Bruce was now stone-blind. Fanny’s
voice had always been sweet to his ear, and now it was sweeter still
when heard in the darkness. Sweet had been the kisses which breathed
from Fanny’s lips, while his eyes delighted in their rosy freshness. But
sweeter were they now when they touched his eyelids, and he felt upon
his cheeks her fast trickling tears. She visited him in his father’s
house, and led him with her gently guiding hands into the adjacent
fields, and down along the stream which he said he liked to hear
murmuring by; and then they talked together about themselves, and on
their knees prayed to God to counsel them what to do in their distress.
These meetings were always happy meetings to them both, notwithstanding
the many mournful thoughts with which they were necessarily attended;
but to Allan Bruce they yielded a support that did not forsake him in
his hours of uncompanioned darkness. His love, which had formerly been
joyful in the warmth of youth, and in the near prospect of enjoyment,
was now chastened by the sad sense of his unfortunate condition, and
rendered thereby a deep and devout emotion which had its comfort in its
own unwitnessed privacy and imperishable truth. The tones of his Fanny’s
voice were with him on his midnight bed, when his affliction was like to
overcome his fortitude; and to know that he was still tenderly beloved
by that gentle and innocent friend, was a thought that gave light to
darkness, and suffered sleep to fall balmily on lids that shut up eyes
already dark as in profoundest slumber. The meek fold of her pitying
embrace was with him in the vague uncertainty of his dreams; and often
he saw faces in his sleep beaming consolation upon him, that always
assumed at last Fanny’s features, and as they grew more distinct,
brightened up into a perfect likeness of his own faithful and
disinterested maiden. Fie lay down With her image, because it was in his
evening prayers; he rose up with her image, or it came gliding in upon
him, as he knelt do And at his bed-side in the warm beams of the unseen
morning light.
Allan and Fanny were children of poor parents; and when he became blind,
they and indeed all their friends and relations, set their faces against
this marriage. This they did in kindness to them both, for prudence is
one of the best virtues of the poor, and to indulge even the holiest
affections of our nature, seems to them to be sinful, if an infliction
from God’s hand intimates that such union would lead to sorrow and
distress. The same thoughts had taken possession of Allan's own soul;
and loving Fanny Raeburn, with a perfect affection, why should he wish
her, in the bright and sunny days of her youthful prime, to become
chained to a Blind Man’s steps, kept in constant poverty and drudgery
for his sake, and imprisoned in a lonesome hut, during the freedom of
her age, and the joyfulness of nature ringing over the earth? "It has
pleased God,” said the Blind Man to himself “that our marriage should
not be. Let Fanny, if she chooses, some time or other, marry another,
and be happy.” And as the thought arose, he felt the bitternest of the
cup, and wished he might soon be in his grave.
For, while his eyes were not thus dark, he saw many things which gave
him pleasure, besides his Fanny, well as he loved her; nor had his been
an absorbing passion, although most sincere. He had often, been happy at
his work, with his companions, in the amusements of his age and
condition, with the members of his own family, without thinking, even of
his dear Fanny Raeburn. She was not often, to be rare, entirety out of
his thoughts, for the consciousness of loving her, and of being beloved,
accompanied his steps, although be scarcely knew it, just as one who
lives an a lake side, or by the murmur of a stream, may feel the
brightness and the shadows of the one, and here the constant music of
the other mingling as a remembrance or a dream with the impressions,
thoughts, passions, and feelings of his ordinary human life. But now,
what had been less pleasant or necessary to him all faded away, and he
saw in his darkness one image only—Fanny Raeburn—he heard in his
darkness one sound only—Fanny Raeburn’s voice. Was she to smile in
another man's house? Surely, that could not be; for her smiles were his,
and to transfer them to another, seemed to him to be as impossible, as
for a mother to forget her own children, and pour with equal fondness
her smiles upon the face of another who belonged not to her blood. Yet
such transference, such forgetfulness, such sad change had been, that he
well knew, even in “the short and simple annals of the poor,” which
alone he had read; and who would blame, who would pity, who would
remember the case of the deserted, and forsaken poor Blind Man?
Fanny Raeburn had always been a dutiful child, and she listened to the
arguments of her parents with a heavy but composed heart. She was
willing to obey them in all things in which it was her duty to obey— but
here she knew not what was her duty. To give up Allan Bruce was a
thought far worse to her than to give up life. It was to suffer her
heartstrings to be hourly torn up by the roots. If the two were willing
to be married, why should any one else interfere? If God had stricken
Allan with blindness after their marriage, would any one have counselled
her to leave him? Or pitied her because she had to live with her own
blind husband? Or would the fear of poverty have benumbed her feelings?
Or rather would it not have given new alacrity to her hands, and new
courage to her heart?. So she .resolved, meekly and calmly, to tell
Allan that she would be his wife, and that she believed that such was,
in spite of this infliction, the will of God.
Allan Bruce did not absent himself, in his blindness, from the House of
God. One Sabbath, after divine service, Fanny went up to him in the
church-yard, and putting her arm in his, they walked away together,
seemingly as cheerful as the rest of the congregation, only with
somewhat slower and more cautious steps. They proceeded along the quiet
meadow-fields by the banks of the stream, and then across the smooth
green braes till they gently descended into a holm, and sat down
together in a little green bower, which a few hazels, mingling with one
tall weeping birch, had of themselves framed; a place where they had’
often met before Allan was blind, and where they had first spoken of a
wedded life. Fanny could have almost wept to see the earth, and the sky,
and the whole day, so beautiful, now that Allan’s eyes were dark; but he
whispered to her, that the smell of the budding trees, and of the
primroses that he knew were near his feet, was pleasant indeed, and that
the singing of all the little birds made his heart dance within him—so
Fanny sat beside her blind lover in serene happiness, and felt
strengthened in her conviction that it was her duty to become his wife.
“Allan—I love you so entirely—that to see you happy is all that I desire
on earth. Till God made you blind—Allan—I knew not how my soul could be
knit unto yours—I knew not the love that was in my heart. To sit by you
with my work—to lead you out thus on pleasant Sabbaths—to take care that
your feet do not stumble—and that nothing shall ever offer violence to
your face—to suffer no solitude to surround you—but that you may know,
in your darkness, that mine eyes, which God still permits to see, are
always upon you—for these ends, Allan, will I marry thee, my
beloved—thou must not say nay—for God would not forgive me if I became
not thy wife.” And Fanny fell upon his neck and wept.
There was something in the quiet tone of her voice —something in the
meek fold of her embrace—something in the long weeping kiss that she
kept breathing tenderly over his brow and eyes—that justified to the
Blind Man his marriage with such a woman. “Let us be married, Fanny, on
the day fixed before I lost my sight. Till now I knew not fully either
your heart or my own—now I fear nothing. Would—my best friend—I could
but see thy sweet face for one single moment now—but that can never
be!”—All things are possible to God—and although to human skill your
case is hopeless—it is not utterly so to my. heart—yet if ever it
becomes so, Allan, then will I love thee better even than I do now, if
indeed my heart can contain more affection than that with which it now
overflows.”
Allan Bruce and Fanny Raeburn were married. And although there was felt,
by the most careless heart, to be something sad and solemn in such
nuptials, yet Allan made his marriage-day one of sober cheerfulness in
his native village. Fanny wore her white ribbands in the very way that
used to.be pleasant to Allan’s eyes; and blind as he now was, these eyes
kindled with a joyful smile, when he turned the clear sightless orbs
towards his bride, and saw her within his soul arrayed in the simple
white dress which he heard all about him saying so well became her sweet
looks. Her relations and his own partook of the marriage-feast in their
cottage and there was the sound of music and dancing feet on the little
green plat at the foot of the garden, by the river’s side—-the bride’s
youngest sister, who was henceforth to be au inmate in the house,
remained when the party went away in the quiet of the evening—and peace,
contentment, and love, folded their wings together over that humble
dwelling.
From that day Allan and his wife were perfectly happy—and they could not
help wondering at their former fears. There was, at once, a general
determination formed all over the parish to do them every benefit.
Fanny, who had always been distinguished for her skill and fancy as a
seamstress, became now quite the fashionable dress-maker of the village,
and had more employment offered than she could accept. So that her
industry alone was more than sufficient for all their present wants. But
Allan, though blind, was not idle. He immediately began to instruct
himself in various departments of a blind man’s work—
A loom was purchased; and in a few weeks he was heard singing to the
sound of his fly-shuttle as merry as the bull-finch in the cage that
hung at the low window of his room. He was not long in finding out the
way of plaiting rush-rugs and wicker-baskets— the figures of all of
which were soon, as it were, visible through his very fingers; and
before six months were over, Allan Bruce and his wife were said to be
getting rich, and a warm blessing broke from every heart upon them, and
their virtuous and unrepining industry.
Allan had always been fond of music, and his voice was the finest tenor
in all the kirk. So he began in the evenings of winter to teach a school
for sacred music—and thus every hour was turned to account. Allan
repined not now—nay at times he felt as if his blindness were a
blessing—for it forced him to trust to his own soul—to turn for comfort
to the best and purest human affections—and to see God always.
Whatever misgivings of mind Allan Bruce might have experienced—whatever
faintings and sickenings and deadly swoons of despair might have
overcome his heart,—it was not long before he was a freedman from all
their slavery. He was not immured, like many as worthy as he, in an
Asylum; he was note incumbranced upon a poor father, sitting idle and in
the way of others, beside an ill-fed fire, and a scanty board; he was
not forced to pace step by step along the lamp-lighted streets and
squares of a city, forcing out beautiful music to gam a few pieces of
coin from passers by entranced for a moment by sweet sounds plaintive or
jocund; he was not a boy-led beggar along the high-way under the
sickening sunshine or the chilling sleet, with an abject hat abjectly
protruded with a cold heart for colder charity;—but he was, although he
humbly felt and acknowledged that he was in nothing more worthy than
these, a man loaded with many blessings, warmed by a constant ingle,
laughed round by a flock of joyful children, love-tended and
love-lighted by a wife who was to him at once music and radiance,—while
his house stood in the middle of a village of which all the inhabitants
were his friends, and of all whose hands the knock was known when it
touched his door, and of all whose voices the tone was felt when it
kindly accosted him in the wood, in the field, in the garden, by the
river’s side, by the hospitable board of a neighbour, or in the
Churchyard assemblage before entering into the House of God.
Thus did years pass along. Children were born to them—lived—were
healthy—and well-behaved. A blessing rested upon them and all that
belonged to them, and the name of “Blind Allan” carried with it far and
near an authority that could belong only to v irtue, piety, and faith
tried by affliction and found to stand fast.
Ten years ago, when they married, Allan Bruce anti Fanny Raeburn were
among the poorest of the poor, and had it pleased God to .send sickness
among them, hard had been their lot. But now they lived in a better
house—with a larger garden—and a few fields, with two cows of their
own—Allan had workmen under him, a basket-maker now on a considerable
scale— and his wife had her apprentices too, the best dressmaker all the
country round. They were rich. Their children were at school,—and all
things, belonging both to outer and inner life, had prospered to their
hearts desire. Allan could walk about many familiar places unattended;
but that seldom happened, for while his children were at school he was
engaged in his business; and when they came home, there was always a
loving contest among them who should be allowed to take hold of their
father’s hand when he went out on his evening walk. Well did he know the
tread of each loving creature’s footstep—their very breath when their
voices were silent. One touch of a head as it danced past him, or
remained motionless by his side—one pressure of an arm upon his knee—one
laugh from a corner, was enough to tell him which of his children was
there; and in their most confused noise and merriment, his ear would
have known if one romping imp had been away. So perfectly accustomed had
he long been to his situation, that it might almost be saul that he was
unconscious of being blind, or that he had forgotten that his eyes once
saw. Long had Allan Bruce indeed been the happiest of the blind.
It chanced at this time, that, among a party who were visiting his straw
manufactory, there was a surgeon celebrated for his skill in operations
upon the eye, who expressed an opinion that Allan’s sight might be at
least partially restored, and offered not only to perform the operation,
but if Allan would reside for some weeks in Edinburgh, to see him every
day, till it was known whether his case was or was not a hopeless one.
Allan’s circumstances were now such as to make a few weeks, or even
months confinement of no importance to him; and though he said to his
wife that he was averse to submit to an operation that might disturb the
long formed quiet and contentment of his mind by hopes never to be
realized, yet those hopes of once more seeing Heaven’s dear light
gradually removed all his repugnance. His eyes were couched, and when
the bandages were removed, and the soft broken light let in upon him,
Allan Bruce was no longer among the number of the blind.
There was no uncontrollable burst of joy iii the soul of Allan Bruce
when once more a communication was opened between it and the visible
world. For he had learned lessons of humility and temperance in all his
emotions during ten years of blindness, in which the hope of light was
too faint to deserve the name. He was almost afraid to believe that his
sight was restored. Grateful to him was its first uncertain and wavering
glimmer, as a draught of water to a wretch in a crowded dungeon. But he
knew not whether it was to ripen into the perfect day, or gradually to
fade back again into the depth of his former darkness. But when his
Fanny—she on whom he had so loved to look when she was a maiden in her
teens, and who would not forsake him in the first misery of that great
affliction, but had been overjoyed to link the sweet freedom of her
prime to one sitting in perpetual dark —when she, now a staid and lovely
matron, stood before him with a face pale in bliss, and all drenched in
the floodlike tears of an unsupportable happiness— then truly did he
feel what a heaven it was to see! And as he took her to his heart, he
gently bent back her head, that he might devour with his eyes that
benign beauty which had for so many years smiled upon him unbeheld, and
which now that he had seen once more, he felt that he could even at that
very moment die in peace.
In came with soft steps, one after another, his five loving children,
that for the first time they might be seen by their Father. The girls
advanced timidly, with blushing cheeks and bright shining hair, while
the boys went boldly up to his side, and the eldest, looking in his
face, exclaimed with a shout of joy, “Our Father sees!—our Father
sees!”—and then checking his rapture, burst into tears. Many a vision
had Allan Bruce framed to himself of the face and figure of one and all
of his children. One, he had been told, was like himself—another the
image of its mother—and Lucy, he understood, was a blended likeness of
them both. But now he looked upon them with the confused and bewildered
joy of parental love, seeking to know and distinguish in the light the
separate objects towards whom it yearned; and not till they spoke did he
know their Christian names. But soon, soon, did the sweet faces of all
his children seem, to his eyes, to answer well, each in its different
loveliness, to the expression of the voices so long familiar to his
heart.
Pleasant, too, no doubt, was that expansion of heart, that followed the
sight of so many old friends and acquaintances, all of whom, familiar as
he had long been with them in his darkness, one day’s light now seemed
to bring farther forward in his affection. They came towards him now
with, brighter satisfaction— and the happiness of his own soul gave a
kinder expression to their demeanour, and represented them all as a host
of human beings rejoicing in the joy of one single brother. Here was a
young man, who, when he saw him last, was a little school-boy—here a man
beginning to be bent with toil, and with a thoughtful aspect, who had
been one of his own joyous and laughing fellow-labourers in field or at
fair—here a man on whom, ten years before, he had shut his eyes in
advanced but vigorous life, now sitting, with a white head, and
supported on a staff—all this change he knew before, but now he saw it;
and there was thus a somewhat sad, but an interesting, delightful, and
impressive contrast and resemblance between the past and the present,
brought immediately before him by the removal of a veil. Every face
around him— every figure—was instructive as well as pleasant; and humble
as his sphere of life was, and limited its range, quite enough of chance
and change w as now submitted to his meditation, to give his character,
which had long been thoughtful, a still more solemn cast, and a temper
of still more homely and humble wisdom.
Nor did all the addition to his happiness come from human life. Once
more he saw the heavens and the earth. By men in his lowly condition,
nature is not looked on very often perhaps with poetical eyes. But all
the objects of nature are in themselves necessarily agreeable and
delightful;' and the very colours and forms he now saw filled his soul
with bliss. Not for ten dark years had he seen a cloud, and now they
were piled up like castles in the summer heaven. Not for ten dark years
had he seen the vaulted sky, and there it - w as now, bending
majestically in its dark, deep, serene azure, full of tenderness,
beauty, and power. The green earth, with all its flowers, was now
visible beneath his feet. A hundred gardens blossomed—a hundred
hedge-rows ran across the meadow and up the sides of the hills— the dark
grove of sycamore, shading the village church on its mount stood tinged
with a glitter of yellow light—and from one extremity of the village to
the other, calm, fair, and unwavering, the smoke from all its chimneys
went up to heaven on the dewy morning-air. He felt all this just by
opening his eye-lids. And m his gratitude to God he blessed the thatch
of his own humble house, and the swallows that were twittering beneath
its' eaves.
Such, perhaps, were some of the feelings which Allan Brace experienced
on being restored to sight. But faint and imperfect must be every
picture of man’s inner soul. This, however, is true, that Allan Bruce
now felt that his blindness had been to him, in many respects, a
blessing. It had touched all hearts with kindness towards him and his
wife when they were’ poor—it had kept his feet within the doors of his
house, or within-the gate of his garden, often when they might otherwise
have wandered into less happy and innocent places—it turned to him the
sole undivided love of his sweet contented Fanny—it gave’-to the filial
tenderness of his children something of fondest passion—and it taught
him moderation in all things, humility, reverence, and perfect
resignation to the Divine Will. It may, therefore, be truly said, that
when the blameless man once more lifted up his seeing eyes, in all
things he beheld God.
Soon after this time, a small Nursery-garden between Roslin and Lasswade,—a
bank sloping down gently to the Esk—was on sale, and Alan Bruce was able
to purchase it. Such an employment seemed peculiarly fitted for him, and
also compatible with his other profession. He had acquired, during his
blindness, much useful information from the readings of his wife or
children; and having been a gardener in his youth, among his many other
avocations, he had especially extended his knowledge respecting flowers,
shrubs, and trees. Here he follows that healthy, pleasant, and
intelligent occupation. Among his other assistant Gardeners there is one
man with a head white as snow, but a ruddy and cheerful countenance,
who, from his self-importance, seems to be the proprietor of the garden.
This is Allan’s Father, who lives in a small cottage adjoining—takes
care of all the gardening tools—and is master of the bee-hives. His old.
mother, too, is sometimes seen weeding; but oftener with her
grandchildren, when in the evenings, after school, they are playing on
the green plat by the Sun Dial, with flowers garlanded round their
heads, or feeding the large trout in the 'clear silvery well near the
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