It was on a fierce and
howling wintef day, that X was crossing the dreary moor of Auchindown,
on my way to the Manse of that parish, a solitary pedestrian. The snow,
which had been incessantly falling for a week past, was drifted into
beautiful but dangerous wreaths, far and wide over the melancholy
expanse, and the scene kept visibly shifting before me, as the strong
wind that blew from every point of the compass struck the dazzling
masses, and heaved them up and down in endless transformation. There was
something inspiriting in the labor with which, in the buoyant strength
of youth, I forced my way through the storm; and I could not but enjoy
those gleamings of sun-light that ever and anon burst through some
unexpected opening in the sky, and gave a character of cheerfulness, and
even warmth, to the sides or summits of the stricken hills. Sometimes
the wind stopped of a sudden, and then the air was as silent as the
snow, not a murmur to be heard from spring or stream, now all frozen up
over those high moorlands. As the momentary cessations of the sharp
drill allowed my eyes to look onwards and around, I saw here and there
up the little opening valleys, cottages just visible beneath the black
stems of their snow-covered clumps of trees, or beside some small spot
of green pasturage kept open for the sheep. These intimations of life
and happiness came delightfully to me in the midst of the desolation ;
and the barking of a dog, attending some shepherd in his quest on the
hill, put fresh vigor into my limbs, telling me that, lonely as I seemed
to be, I was surrounded by cheerful though unseen company, and that I
was not the only wanderer over the snows.
As I walked along, my mind was insensibly filled with a crowd of
pleasant images of rural winter-life, that helped me gladly onwards over
many miles of moor. I thought of the severe but cheerful labors of the
barn, the mend-ding of farm-gear by the fireside; the wheel turned by
the foot of old age, less for gain than as a thrifty pastime; the
skilful mother, making “auld claes look amaist as weeks the new,"— the
ballad unconsciously listened to by the family all busy at their own
tasks round the singing maiden; the old traditionary tale told by some
wayfarer hospitably housed till the storm should blow by; the unexpected
visit of neighbors on need or friendship, or the footstep of lover
undeterred by snow-drifts that have buried up his flocks; — but, above
all, I thought of those hours of religious worship that have not yet
escaped from the domestic life of the peasantry of Scotland; of the
sound of psalms that the depth of snow cannot deaden to the ear of Him
to whom they are chanted, and of that sublime Sabbath-keeping, which, on
days too tempestuous for the kirk, changes the cottage of the shepherd
into the temple of God.
With such glad and peaceful images in my heart, I travelled along that
dreary moor, with the cutting wind in my face, and my feet sinking in
the snow, or sliding on the hard blue ice beneath it, as cheerfully as 1
ever walked on the dewy warmth of a summer morning, through fields of
fragrance and of flowers. And now I could discern, within half an hour’s
walk, before me, the spire of the church, close to which stood the Manse
of my aged friend and benefactor. My heart burned within me as a sudden
stream of stormy sunshine tipt it with fire; and I felt, at at moment,
an inexpressible sense of the sublimity of the character of that
grey-headed shepherd, who had, for fifty years, abode in the wilderness,
keeping together his own happy little flock.
As I was ascending a knoll, I saw before me on horseback an old man,
with his long white hairs beating against his face, who nevertheless
advanced with a calm countenance against the hurricane. It was no other
than vny father, of whom I had been thinking; for my father had I called
him for many years; and for many years my father had he truly been. My
surprise at meeting him on such a moor, on such a day, was but
momentary, for I knew that he was a shepherd who cared not for the
winter’s wrath. As he stopped to take my hand kindly into his, and to
give his blessing to his long-expected visitor, the wind fell calm ; the
whole face of the sky was softened, and brightness, like a smile, went
over the blushing and crimsoned snow. The very elements seemed then to
respect the hoary head of four-score ; and after our first greeting was
over, when I looked around, in my affection, I felt how beautiful was
winter.
“I am going,” said he, “to visit a man at the point of death; a man whom
you cannot have forgotten — whose head will be missed in the kirk next
Sabbath by all my congregation, a devout man, who feared God all his
days, and whom, on this awful trial, God will assuredly remember. I am
going, my son, to the Hazel-Glen.”
I knew well in childhood that lonely farm-house so far off among the
beautiful wild green hills — and it was not likely that I had forgotten
the name of its possessor. For six years’ Sabbaths I had seen the Elder
in his accustomed place beneath the pulpit; and with a sort of solemn
fear, had looked on his steadfast countenance during sermon, psalm, and
prayer. On returning to the scenes of my infancy, I now met the pastor
going to pray by his death-bed, and with the privilege which nature
gives us to behold, even in their last extremity, the loving and the
beloved, I turned to accompany him to the house of sorrow, resignation,
and death.
And now, for the first time, I observed, walking close to the feet of
his horse, a little boy of about ten years of age, who kept frequently
looking up in the pastor’s face, with his blue eyes bathed in tears. A
changeful expression of grief, hope, and despair, made almost pale,
cheeks that otherwise were blooming in health and beauty; and I
recognized, in the small features and smooth forehead of childhood, a
resemblance to the aged man whom we understood was now lying on his
death-bed. “They had to send his grandson for me through the snow, mere
child as he is"said the minister to me, looking tenderly on the boy;
“but love makes the young heart bold; and there is One who tempers the
wind to the shorn lamb.” I again looked on the fearless child with his
rosy cheeks, blue eyes, and yellow hair, so unlike grief or sorrow, yet
now sobbing aloud as if his heart would break. “I do not fear but that
my grandfather will yet recover, soon as the minister has said one
single prayer by his bed-side. 1 had no hope or little, as I was running
by myself to the Manse over hill after hill, but I am full of hopes now
that we are together; and oh! if God suffers my grandfather to recover,
I will lie awake all the long winter nights blessing him for his mercy.
I will rise up in the middle of the darkness, and pray to him in the
cold on my naked knees!” and here his voice was choked, while he kept
his eyes fixed, as if for consolation and encouragement, on the solemn
and pitying countenance of the kind-hearted pious old man.
We soon left the main road, and struck off through scenery, that,
covered as it was with the bewildering snow, 1 sometimes dimly and
sometimes vividly remembered; our little guide keeping ever a short
distance before us, and with a sagacity like that of instinct, showing
us our course, of which no trace was visible, save occasionally his own
little foot-prints as he had been hurrying to the Manse.
After crossing, for several miles, morass, and frozen rivulet, and
drifted hollow, with here and there the top of a stone-wall peeping
through the snow, or the more visible circle of a sheep-bught, we
descended into the Hazel-Glen, and saw before us the solitary house of
the dying Elder.
A gleam of days gone by came suddenly over my soul. The last time that 1
had been in this glen was on a day of .June, fifteen years before, a
holiday, the birth-day of the king. A troop of laughing schoolboys,
headed by our benign pastor, we danced over the sunny braes, and
startled the linnets from their nests among the yellow broom. Austere as
seemed to us the Elder’s Sabbath-face, when sitting in the kirk, we
schoolboys knew that it had its week-day smiles; and we flew on the
wings of joy to our annual festival of curds and cream in the farmhouse
of that little sylvan world. We rejoiced in the flowers and the leaves
of that long, that interminable summer-day; its memory was with our
boyish hearts from June to June; and the sound of that sweet name, “
Hazel-Glen,” often came upon us at our tasks, and brought too brightly
into the school-room the pastoral imagery of that mirthful solitude.
As we now slowly approached the cottage, through a deep snow-drift,
which the distress within had prevented the household from removing, we
saw, peeping out from the door, brothers and sisters of our little
guide, who quickly disappeared; and then their mother showed herself in
their stead, expressing, by her raised eyes and arms folded across her
breast, how thankful she was to see, at last, the pastor, beloved in joy
and trusted in trouble.
Soon as the venerable old man dismounted from his horse, our active
little guide led it away into the humble stable, and we entered the
cottage. Not a sound was heard but the ticking of the clock. The matron,
who had silently welcomed us at the door, led us, with suppressed sighs
and a face stained with weeping, into her father’s sick room, which even
in that time of sore distress was as orderly as if health had blessed
the house. I could not help remarking some old china ornaments on the
chimney-piece; and in the window was an ever-blowing rose-tree, that
almost touched the Jowly roof, and brightened that end of the apartment
with its blossoms. There was something tasteful in the simple furniture;
and it seemed as if grief could not deprive the hand of that matron of
its careful elegance. Sickness, almost hopeless sickness, lay there,
surrounded with the same cheerful and beautiful objects which health had
loved; and she, who had arranged and adorned the apartment in her
happiness, still kept it from disorder and decay in her sorrow.
With a gentle hand she drew the curtain of the bed, and there) supported
by pillows as white as the snow that lay without) reposed the dying
Elder. It was plain that the hand of God was upon him, and that his days
on the earth were numbered.
He greeted his minister with a faint smile, and a slight inclination of
the head, for his daughter had so raised him on the pillows, that he was
almost sitting up in his bed. It'was easy to see that he knew himself to
be dying, and that his soul was prepared for the great change; jet,
along with the solemn resignation of a Christian, who had made his peace
with God and his Saviour, there was blended on his white and sunken
countenance an expression of habitual reverence for the minister of his
faith; and I saw that he could not have died in peace without that
comforter to pray by his death-bed.
A few words sufficed to tell who was the stranger, and the dying man,
blessing roe by name, held out to me his cold, shrivelled hand in token
of recognition. I took my seat at a small distance from the bed-side,
and left a closer station foe. those who were more dear. The pastor sat
down near his head; and by the bed, leaning on it with gentle hands,
stood that matron, his daughter-in-law; a figure that would have graced
and sainted a higher dwelling, and whose native beauty was now more
touching in its grief. But religion upheld her whom nature was bowing
down; not now for the first time were the lessons taught by her father
to be put into practice, for I saw that she was clothed in deep
mourning; and she behaved like the daughter of a man whose life had not
been only irreproachable, but lofty, with fear and hope fighting
desperately but silently in the core of her pure and pious heart.
While we thus remained in silence, the beautiful boy, who, at the risk
of his life, had brought the minister of religion to the bed-side of his
beloved grandfather, softly and cautiously opened the door, and, with
the hoar-frost yet unmelted on his bright glistening ringlets, walked up
to the pillow, evidently no stranger there. He no longer sobbed — he no
longer wept — for hope had risen strongly within his innocent heart,
from the consciousness of love so fearlessly exerted, and from the
presence of the holy man in whose prayers he trusted, as in the
intercession of some superior and heavenly nature. There he stood, still
as an image in his grandfather’s eyes, that, in their dimness, fell upon
him with delight. Yet, happy as was the trusting child, his heart was
devoured by fear, and he looked as if one word might stir up the flood
of tears that had subsided in his heart. As he crossed the dreary and
dismal moors, he had thought of a corpse, a shroud, and a grave. He had
been in terror, lest death should strike in his absence the old man,
with whose gray hairs he had so often played ; but now he saw him alive,
and felt that death was not able to tear him away from the clasps, and
links, and fetters of his grandchild’s embracing love.
“If the storm do not abate,” said the sick man, after a pause, “it will
be hard for my friends to carry me over the drifts to the kirk-yard.”
This sudden approach to the grave, struck, as with a bar of ice, the
heart of the loving boy; and, with a long and deep sigh, he fell down
with his face like ashes on the bed, while the old man’s palsied right
hand had just strength enough to lay itself upon his head. “Blessed be
thou, my little Jamie, even for his own name’s sake who died for us on
the tree f ” The mother, without terror, but with an averted face,
lifted up her loving-hearted boy, now in a dead fainting fit, and
carried him into an adjoining room, where he soon revived : but that
child and that old man were not to be separated. In vain was he asked to
go to his brothers and sisters; —pale, breathless, and shivering, he
took his place as before, with eyes fixed on his grandfather’s faee, but
neither weeping nor uttering a word. Terror had frozen up the blood of
his heart; but his were now the only dry eyes in the room; and the
pastor himself wept, albeit the grief of fourscore is seldom vented in
tears.
“God has been gracious to me, a sinner,” said the dying man. "During
thirty years that I have been an Elder in your kirk, never have I missed
sitting there one Sabbath. When the mother of my children was taken from
me — it was on a Tuesday she died — and on Saturday she was buried. We
stood together when my Alice was let down into the narrow house made for
all living.
On the Sabbath I joined in the public worship of God — she commanded me
to do so the night before she went away. I could not join in the psalm
that Sabbath, for her voice was not in the throng. Her grave was covered
up, and grass and flowers grew there; so was my heart; but thou, whom,
through the blood of Christ, I hope to see this night in paradise,
knowest, that from that hour to this day never have I forgotten thee! ”
The old man ceased speaking, and his grandchild, now able to endure the
scene — for strong passion is its own support — glided softly to a
little table, and bringing a cup in which a cordial had been mixed, held
it in his small soft hands to his grandfather’s lips. He drank, and then
said — “Come closer to me, Jamie, and kiss me for thine own and thy
father’s sake; and as the child fondly pressed his rosy lips on those of
his grandfather, so white and withered, the tears fell over all the old
man’s face, and then trickled down on the golden head of the child at
last sobbing in his bosom.
“Jamie, thy own father has forgotten thee in thy infancy, and me in my
old age; but, Jamie, forget not thou thy father nor thy mother, for that
thou knowest and feel-est is the commandment of God.”
The broken-hearted boy could give no reply. He had gradually stolen
closer and closer unto the loving old man, and now was lying, worn out
with sorrow, drenched and dissolved in tears, in his grandfather’s
bosom. His mother had sunk down on her knees, and hid her face with her
hands. “Oh! if my husband knew but of this, he would never, never desert
his dying father! ” —and I now knew that the Elder was praying on his
death-bed for a disobedient and wicked son.
At this affecting time the minister took the family Bible on his knees,
and said, “ Let us sing to the praise and glory of God, part of the
fifteenth Psalm,” and he read, with a tremulous and broken voice, those
beautiful verses:
Within thy tabernacle, Lord,
Who shall abide with thee?
And in thy high and holy hill
Who shall a dweller be?
The man that walketh uprightly,
And worketh righteousness,
And as he thinketh in his heart,
So doth he truth express.
The small congregation sung the noble hymn of the Psalmist to the
“Plaintive martyrs, worthy of the name.” The dying man himself, ever and
anon, joined in the holy music; and when it feebly died away on his
quivering lips, he continued still to follow the tune with the motion of
his withered hand, and eyes devoutly and humbly lifted up to heaven. Nor
was the sweet voice of his loving grandchild unheard; as if the strong
fit of deadly passion had dissolved in the music, he sang with a sweet
and silvery voice that to a passer by had seemed that of perfect
happiness — a hymn sung in joy upon its knees in gladsome childhood
before it flew out among the green hills, to quiet labor or gleesome
play. As that sweetest voice came from the bosom of the old man, where
the singer lay in affection, and blended with his own so tremulous,
never had I felt so affectingly brought before me the beginning and end
of life — the cradle and the grave.
Ere the psalm was yet over, the door was opened, and a tall,
fine-looking man entered, but with a lowering and dark countenance,
seemingly in sorrow, in misery, and remorse. Agitated, confounded, and
awe-struck by the melancholy and dirge-like music, he sat down on a
chair, and looked with a ghastly face towards his father’s death-bed.
When the psalm ceased, the Elder said, with a solemn voice, “My son —
thou art come in time to receive thy father’s blessing. May the
remembrance of what will happen in this room, before the morning again
shines over the Hazel-Glen, win thee from the error of thy ways. Thou
art here to witness the mercy of thy God and thy Saviour, whom thou hast
forgotten.”
The minister looked, if not with a stern, yet with an upbraiding
countenance, on the young man, who had not recovered his speech, and
said, “William! for three years past your shadow has not darkened the
door of the house of God. They who fear not the thunder, may tremble at
the still small voice — now is the hour for repentance — that your
father’s spirit may carry up to heaven tidings of a contrite soul saved
from the company of sinners! ”
The young man, with much effort, advanced to the bed-side, and at last
found voice to say, “Father, I am not without the affections of nature,
and I hurried home soon as I had heard that the minister had been seen
riding towards our house. I hope that you will yet recover; and, if ever
I have made you unhappy, I ask your forgiveness; for though I may not
think as you do on matters of religion, I have a human heart. Father, I
may have been unkind, but I am not cruel. I ask your forgiveness.”
“Come nearer to me, William; kneel down by the bed-side, and let my hand
find the head of my beloved son — for blindness is coming fast upon me.
Thou wert my first-born, and thou art my only living son. All thy
brothers and sisters are lying id the church-yard, beside her whose
sweet face thine own, William, did once so much resemble. Long wert thou
the joy, the pride of my soul — ay, too much the pride; for there was
not in all the parish such a man, such a son, as my own William. If thy
heart has since been changed, God may inspire it again with right
thoughts. Could I die for thy sake— could I purchase thy salvation with
the outpouring of thy father’s blood — but this the Son of God has done
for thee, who hast denied him 1 I have sorely wept for thee — ay,
William, when there was none near me — even as David wept for Absalom —
for thee, my son, my sonI”
A long, deep groan was the only reply; but the whole body of the
kneeling man was convulsed; and it was easy to see his sufferings, his
contrition, his remorse, and his despair. The pastor said, with a
sterner voice and austerer countenance than were natural to him, “Know
you whose hand is now lying on your rebellious head? But what signifies
the word father to him who has denied God, the Father of us all?” “Oh!
press him not so hardly,” said the weeping wife, coming forward from a
dark corner of the room, where she had tried to conceal herself in
grief, fear, and shame; “Spare, Oh spare my husband — he has ever been
kind to me;” and with that she knelt down beside him, with her long,
soft, white arms, mournfully and affectionately laid across his neck.
“Go thou, likewise, my sweet little Jamie,” said the Elder, “go even out
of my bosom, and kneel down beside thy father and thy mother, so that I
may bless you all at once, and with one yearning prayer.” The child did
as that solemn voice commanded, and knelt down somewhat timidly by his
father’s side: nor did that unhappy man decline encircling with his arm
the child too much neglected, but still dear to him as his own blood, in
spite of the deadening and debasing influence of infidelity.
“Put the Word of God into the hands of my son, and let him read aloud to
his dying father the 25th, 2(kh, and 27th verses of the eleventh chapter
of the Gospel according to St. John.” The pastor went up to the
kneelers, and with a voice of pity, condolence, and pardon, said, “There
was a time when none, William, could read the Scriptures better than
couldest thou, — can it be that the son of my friend hath forgotten the
lessons of his youth?” He had not forgotten them — there was no need for
the repentant sinner to lift his eyes from the bed-side. The sacred
stream of the Gospel had worn a channel in his heart, and the waters
were again flowing. With a choked voice he said, “Jesus said unto her, I
am the resurrection and the life; he that believeth in me, though he
were dead, yet shall he live : And whosoever liveth, and believeth in
me, shall never die. Believest thou this? She saith unto him, Yea, Lord:
I believe that thou art the Christ, the Son of God, which should come
into world.”
“That is not an unbeliever’s voice,” said the dying man, triumphantly;
“nor, William, hast thou an unbeliever’s heart. Say that thou believest
in what thou hast now read, and thy father will die happy!” “I do
believe ; and as thou forgivest me, so may I be forgiven by my Father
who is in heaven.”
The Elder seemed like a man suddenly inspired with a new life. His faded
eyes kindled — his pale cheeks glowed — his palsied hands seemed to wax
strong — and his roice was clear as that of manhood in his prime, “Into
thy hands, Oh God, I commit my spirit:” and so saying, he gently sunk
back on his pillow; and I thought I heard a sigh. There was then a long
deep silence, and the father, and mother, and child, rose from their
knees, The eyes of us all were turned towards the white placid face of
the figure now stretched in everlasting rest; and without lamentations,
save the silent lamentations of the resigned soul, we stood around the
death-bed of the Elder. |