“The silent earth
Of what it holds shall speak, and every grave
Be as a volume, shut, yet capable
Of yielding its contents to ear and eye.”—Wordsworth.
In the woods to the east
of Cromarty, occupying the summit of a green insulated eminence, is the
ancient burying-ground and chapel of St. Regulus. Bounding the south
there is a deep narrow ravine, through which there runs a small tinkling
streamlet, whose voice, scarcely heard during the droughts of summer,
becomes hoarser and louder towards the close of autumn. The sides of the
eminence are covered with wood, which, overtopping the summit, forms a
wall of foliage that encloses the burying-ground except on the east,
where a little opening affords a view of the northern Sutor over the
tops of trees which have not climbed high enough to complete the fence.
In this burying-ground the dead of a few of the more ancient families of
the town and parish are still interred; but by far the greater part of
it is occupied by nameless tenants, whose descendants are unknown, and
whose bones have mouldered undisturbed for centuries. The surface is
covered by a short yellow moss, which is gradually encroaching on the
low flat stones of the dead, blotting out the unheeded memorials which
tell us that the inhabitants of this solitary spot were once men, and
that they are now dust—that they lived, and that they died, and that
they shall live again.
Nearly about the middle
of the burying-ground there is a low flat stone, over which time is
silently drawing the green veil of oblivion. It bears date 1690, and
testifies, in a rude inscription, that it covers the remains of Paul
Feddes and his son John, with those of their respective wives.
Concerning Paul, tradition is silent; of John Feddes, his son, an
interesting anecdote is still preserved. Some time early in the
eighteenth century, or rather perhaps about the close of the
seventeenth, he became enamoured of Jean Gallie, one of the wealthiest
and most beautiful young women of her day in this part of the country.
The attachment was not mutual; for Jean’s affections were already fixed
on a young man, who, both in fortune and elegance of manners, was
superior, beyond comparison, to the tall red-haired boatman, whose chief
merit lay in a kind brave heart, a clear head, and a strong arm. John,
though by no means a dissipated man, had been accustomed to regard money
as merely the price of independence, and he had sacrificed but little to
the graces. His love-suit succeeded as might have been expected; the
advances he made were treated with contempt; and the day was fixed on
which his mistress was to be married to his rival. He became profoundly
melancholy; and late on the evening which preceded the marriage-day, he
was seen traversing the woods which surrounded the old castle;
frequently stopping as he went, and, by wild and singular gestures,
giving evidence of an unsettled mind. In the morning after he was
nowhere to be found. His disappearance, with the frightful conjectures
to which it gave rise, threw a gloom over the spirits of the
town’s-folk, and affected the gaiety of the marriage party; it was
remembered, even amid the festivities of the bridal, that John Feddes
had had a kind warm heart; and it was in no enviable frame that the
bride, as her maidens conducted her to her chamber, caught a glimpse of
several twinkling lights that were moving beneath the brow of the
distant Sutor. She could not ask the cause of an appearance so unusual;
her fears too surely suggested that her unfortunate lover had destroyed
himself, and that his friends and kinsfolk kept that night a painful
vigil in searching after the body. But the search was in vain, though
every copse and cavern, and the base of every precipice within several
miles of the town, were visited; and though, during the succeeding
winter, every wreath of sea-weed which the night-storms had rolled upon
the beach, was approached with a fearful yet solicitous feeling scarcely
ever associated with bunches of sea-weed before. Years passed away, and,
except by a few friends, the kind enterprising boatman was forgotten.
In the meantime it was
discovered, both by herself and the neighbours, that Jean Gallie was
unfortunate in her husband. He had, prior to his marriage, when one of
the gayest and most dashing young fellows in the village, formed habits
of idleness and intemperance which he could not, or would not shake off;
and Jean had to learn that a very gallant lover may prove a very
indifferent husband, and that a very fine fellow may care for no one but
himself. He was selfish and careless in the last degree; and
unfortunately, as his carelessness was of the active kind, he engaged in
extensive business, to the details of which he paid no attention, but
amused himself with wild vague speculations, which, joined to his habits
of intemperance, stripped him in the course of a few years of all the
property which had belonged to himself and his wife. In proportion as
his means decreased he became more worthless, and more selfishly bent on
the gratification of his appetites; and he had squandered almost his
last shilling, when, after a violent fit of intemperance, he was seized
by a fever, which in a few days terminated in death. And thus, five
years after the disappearance of John Feddes, Jean Gallie found herself
a poor widow, with scarce any means of subsistence, and without one
pleasing thought connected with the memory of her husband.
A few days after the
interment, a Cromarty vessel was lying at anchor, before sunrise, near
the mouth of the Spey. The master, who had been one of Feddes’s most
intimate friends, was seated near the stem, employed in angling for cod
and ling. Between his vessel and the shore, a boat appeared in the grey
light of morning, stretching along the beach under a tight, well-trimmed
sail. She had passed him nearly half a mile, when the helmsman slackened
the sheet, which had been close-hauled, and suddenly changing the tack,
bore away right before the wind. In a few minutes the boat dashed
alongside. All the crew, except the helmsman, had been lying asleep upon
the beams, and now started up alarmed by the shock. “ How, skipper,”
said one of the men, rubbing his eyes, “ how, in the name of wonder,
have we gone so far out of our course? What brings us here?” “You come
from Cromarty,” said the skipper, directing his speech to the master,
who, starting at the sound from his seat, flung himself half over the
gunwale to catch a glimpse of the speaker. “John Feddes,” he exclaimed,
“by all that is miraculous!” “You come from Cromarty, do you not?”
reiterated the skipper; “Ah, Willie Mouat! is that you?”
The friends were soon
seated in the snug little cabin of the vessel; and John, apparently the
less curious of the two, entered, at the others’ request, into a detail
of the particulars of his life for the five preceding years. “ You know,
Mouat,” he said, “ how I felt and what I suffered for the last six
months I was in Cromarty. Early in that period I had formed the
determination of quitting my native country for ever; but I was a weak
foolish fellow, and so I continued to linger, like an unhappy ghost,
week after week, and month after month, hoping against hope, until the
night which preceded the wedding-day of Jean Gallie. Captain Robinson
was then on the coast unloading a cargo of Hollands. I had made it my
business to see him; and after some little conversation, for we were old
acquaintance, I broached to him my intention of leaving Scotland. It is
well, said he; for friendship sake I will give you a passage to
Flushing, and, if it suits your inclination, a berth in the privateer I
am now fitting out for cruising along the coast of Spanish America. I
find the free trade doesn’t suit me ; it has no scope. I considered his
proposals, and liked them hugely. There was, indeed, some risk of being
knocked on the head in the cruising affair, but that weighed little with
me j I really believe that, at the time, I would as lief have run to a
blow as avoided one ;—so I closed with him, and the night and hour were
fixed when he should land his boat for me in the hope of the Sutors. The
evening came, and I felt impatient to be gone. You wonder how I could
leave so many excellent friends without so much as bidding them
farewell. I have since wondered at it myself; but my mind was filled, at
the time, with one engrossing object, and I could think of nothing else.
Positively, I was mad. I remember passing Jean’s house on that evening,
and catching a glimpse of her through the window. She was so engaged in
preparing a piece of dress, which I suppose was to be worn on the
ensuing day, that she didn’t observe me. I can’t tell you how I
felt—indeed, I do not know; for I 'have scarcely any recollection of
what I did or thought until a few hours after, when I found myself
aboard Robinson’s lugger, spanking down the Firth. It is now five years
since, and, in that time, I have both given and received some hard
blows, and have been both poor and rich. Little more than a month ago, I
left Flushing for Banff, where I intend taking up my abode, and where I
am now on the eve of purchasing a snug little property.” “Nay,” said
Mouat, “you must come to Cromarty.” “To Cromarty! no, that will scarcely
do.” “But hear me, Feddes—Jean Gallie is a widow.” There was a long
pause. “Well, poor young thing,” said John at length with a sigh, “I
should feel sorry for that; I trust she is in easy circumstances?” “You
shall hear.”
The reader has already
anticipated Mouat’s narrative. During the recital of the first part of
it, John, who had thrown himself on the back of his chair, continued
rocking backwards and forwards with the best counterfeited indifference
in the world.
It was evident that Jean
Gallie was nothing to him. As the story proceeded, he drew himself up
leisurely, and with firmness, until he sat bolt upright, and the motion
ceased. Mouat described the selfishness of Jean’s husband, and his
disgusting intemperance. He spoke of the confusion of his affairs. He
hinted at his cruelty to Jean when he squandered all. John could act no
longer—he clenched his fist and sprang from his seat. “Sit down, man,”
said Mouat, “and hear me out—the fellow is dead.”—“And the poor widow?”
said John. “Is, I believe, nearly destitute;—you have heard of the box
of broad-pieces left her by her father?—she has few of them now.” “Well,
if she hasn’t, I have; that’s all When do you sail for Cromarty?”
“To-morrow, my dear fellow, and you go along with me; do you not?”
Almost any one could
supply the concluding part of my narrative. Soon after John had arrived
at his native town, Jean Gallie became the wife of one who, in almost
every point, of character, was the reverse of her first husband; and she
lived long and happily with him. Here the novelist would stop; but I
write from the burying-ground of St. Regulus, and the tombstone of my
ancestor is at my feet. Yet why should it be told that John Feddes
experienced the misery of living too long —that, in his ninetieth year,
he found himself almost alone in the world ?^ for, of his children, some
had wandered into foreign parts, where they either died or forgot their
father, and some he saw carried to the grave. One of his daughters
remained with him, and outlived him. She was the widow of a bold
enterprising man, who lay buried with his two brothers, one of whom had
sailed round the world with Anson, in the depths of the ocean; and her
orphan child, who, of a similar character, shared, nearly fifty years
after, a similar fate, was the father of the writer.
A very few paces from the
burying-ground of John Feddes, there is a large rude stone reared on two
shapeless balusters, and inscribed with a brief record of the four last
generations of the Lindsays of Cromarty—an old family now extinct. In
its early days this family was one of the most affluent in the burgh,
and had its friendships and marriages among the aristocracy of the
country; but it gradually sank as it became older, and, in the year
1729, its last scion was a little ragged boy of about ten years of age,
who lived with his widow mother in one of the rooms of a huge
dilapidated house at the foot of the Chapel hill. Dilapidated as it was,
it formed the sole remnant of all the possessions of the Lindsays.
Andrew, for so the boy was called, was a high-spirited, unlucky little
fellow, too careless of the school and of his book to be much a
favourite with the schoolmaster, but exceedingly popular among his
playfellows, and the projector of half the pieces of petty mischief with
which they annoyed the village. But, about the end of the year 1731, his
character became the subject of a change, which, after unfixing almost
all its old traits, and producing a temporary chaos, set, at length,
much better ones in their places. He broke off from his old companions,
grew thoughtful and melancholy, and fond of solitude, read much in his
Bible, took long journeys to hear the sermons of the more celebrated
ministers of other parishes, and became the constant and attentive
auditor of the clergyman of his own. He felt comfortless and unhappy.
Like the hero of that most popular of all allegories, the Pilgrim’s
Progress, “ he stood clothed in rags, with his face from his own house,
a book in his hand, and a burden on his back. And opening the book, he
read thereon, and, as he read, he wept and trembled, and, not being able
to contain himself, he broke out into a lamentable cry, saying, What
shall I do ?” Indeed, the whole history of Andrew Lindsay, from the time
of his conversion to his death, is so exact a counterpart of the journey
of Christian, from the day on which he quitted the City of Destruction
until he had entered the river, that, in tracing his course, I shall
occasionally refer to the allegory; regarding it as the well-known chart
of an imperfectly known country. All other allegories are mere mediums
of instruction, and owe their chief merit to their transparency as such;
but it is not thus with the dream of Bunyan, which, through its
intrinsic interest alone, has become more generally known than even the
truths which are couched under it.
Some time in the year
1732, a pious Scottish clergyman who resided in England—a Mr. Davidson
of Denham, in Essex, visited some of his friends who lived in Cromarty.
He was crossing the Firth at this time on a Sabbath morning, to attend
the celebration of the Supper in a neighbouring church, when a person
pointed out to him a thoughtful-looking little boy, who sat at the other
end of the boat. “It is Andrew Lindsay,” said the person, “a poor young
thing seeking anxiously after the truth.” “I had no opportunity of
conversing with him,” says Mr. Davidson in his printed tract, “but I
could not observe without thankfulness a poor child, on a cold morning,
crossing the sea to hear the Word, without shoe or stocking, or anything
to cover his head from the inclemency of the weather.” He saw him again
when in church—his eyes fixed steadfastly on the preacher, and the
expression of his countenance varying with the tone of the discourse.
Feeling much interested in him, he had no sooner returned to Cromarty
than he waited upon him at his mother’s, and succeeded in engaging him
in a long and interesting conversation, which he has recorded at
considerable length.
“How did it happen, my
little fellow,” said he, “that you went so far from home last week to
hear sermon, when the season was so cold, and you had neither shoes nor
stockings?” The boy replied in a bashful, unassuming manner, That he was
in that state of nature which is contrasted by our Saviour with that
better state of grace, the denizens of which can alone inherit the
kingdom of heaven. But, though conscious that such was the case, he was
quite unaffected, he said, by a sense of his danger. He was anxious,
therefore, to pursue those means by which such a sense might be awakened
in him; and the Word preached was one of these. For how, he continued,
unless I be oppressed by the weight of the evil which rests upon me, and
the woe and misery which it must necessarily entail in the future, how
can I value or seek after the only Saviour? “ But what,” said Mr.
Davidson, “if God himself has engaged to work this affecting sense of
sin in the heart?”—“Has he so promised?” eagerly inquired the boy. The
clergyman took out his Bible, and read to him the remarkable text in
John, in which our Saviour intimates the coming of the Spirit to
convince the world of sin, of righteousness, and of judgment. Andrew’s
countenance brightened as he listened, and, losing his timidity in the
excitement of the moment, he took the book out of Mr. Davidson’s hand,
and, for several minutes, contemplated the passage in silence.
“Do you ever pray?”
inquired Mr. Davidson; Andrew shut the book, and, hanging down his head,
timidly replied in the negative. “What! not pray ! Do you go so far from
home to attend sermons, and yet not bow the knee to God in prayer?”
—“Ah!” he answered, “I do bow the knee perhaps six or seven times a day,
but I cannot call that praying to God—I want the spirit of prayer ; I
often ask I hardly know what, and with scarce any desire to receive; and
often, when a half sense of my condition has compelled me to kneel, a
vicious wandering imagination carries me away, and I rise again, not
knowing what I have said.”—“Oh!” rejoined the clergyman, “only persist
But tell me, was it your ordinary practice, in past years, to attend
sermons as you do now?” “No, sir, quite the reverse; once or twice in a
season, perhaps, I went to church, but I used to quit it through
weariness ere the service was half completed.”—“And how do you account
for the change?” “I cannot account for it; I only know, that formerly I
had no heart to go and hear of God at any time, and that now I dare not
keep away.” Mr. Davidson then inquired whether he had ever conversed on
these matters with Mr. Gordon, the minister of the parish; but was asked
with much simplicity, in return, what Mr. Gordon would think of a poor
boy like him presuming to call on him? “I have many doubts and
uncertainties,” said he, “but I am afraid to ask any one to solve them.
Once, indeed, but only once, I plucked up resolution enough to inquire
of a friend how I might glorify God. He bade me obey God’s commandments,
for that was the way to glorify Him, and I now see the value of the
advice; but I see, also, that only through faith in Jesus Christ can
fallen man acquire an ability to profit by it.”
“This last answer, so
much above his years,” says Mr. Davidson, “occasioned my asking him how
he had become so intimately acquainted with these truths? He modestly
answered, ‘I hear Mr. Gordon preach,’ as if he had said, My knowledge
bears no proportion to the advantages I enjoy.” And thus ended the
conference; for, after exhorting him to be much in secret prayer, and to
testify to the world the excellence of what he sought after, by being a
diligent scholar and a dutiful son, Mr. Davidson bade him farewell. The
poor little fellow was wandering, at this period, over that middle space
which lies between the devoted city and the wicket gate ; struggling at
times in the deep mire of the slough, at times journeying beside the
hanging hill. He had received, however, the roll from Evangelist, and
saw the shining light of the wicket becoming clearer and brighter as he
advanced.
About half a year from
the time of this conversation, Mr. Davidson had again occasion to visit
Cromarty; he called on Andrew, and Was struck, in the moment he saw him,
by a remarkable change in his appearance. Formerly, the expression of
his countenance, though interesting, was profoundly melancholy ; it was
now lighted up by a quiet tranquil joy; and, though modest and
unassuming as before, he was less timid.
He had passed the wicket.
He felt he had become one of the family of God; and found a new
principle implanted within him, which so operated on his affections,
that he now hated the evil he had previously loved, and was enamoured of
the good he had formerly rejected. Standing, as Bacon has beautifully
expressed it, on the “ vantage ground of truth,” he could overlook the
windings of the track on which he had lately journeyed, not knowing
whither he went. “ I see,” said he to Mr. Davidson, “ that the very bent
of my mind was contrary to God— especially to the way of salvation by
Christ—and that I could no more get rid of this disposition through any
effort of my own, than I could pull the sun out of the heavens. I see,
too, that not only were all my ordinary actions tainted by sin, but that
even my religious duties were sins also. And yet, out of these actions
and duties, was I accumulating to myself a righteousness which I meant
to barter for the favour of God; and, though he was at much pains with
me in scattering the hoard in which I trusted, yet, after every fresh
dispersal, would I set myself to gather anew.”—When passing the wicket,
he had been shot at from the castle. He was conscious that a power,
detached from his mind, had been operating upon it; for, as it
fluctuated on its natural balance between gaiety and depression, he had
felt this power weighing it into despair as it sunk towards the lower
extreme, and urging it into presumption as it ascended towards the
upper. He had seen, also, the rarities at the house of the Interpreter.
Religion had communicated to him the art of thinking. It first inspired
him with a belief in God, and an anxious desire to know what was his
character; and, as he read his Bible, and heard sermons, his mental
faculties, like the wheels of a newly-completed engine, felt for the
first time the impulse of a moving power, and began to revolve. It next
stirred him up to stand sentinel over the various workings of his mind,
and, as he stood and pondered, he became a skilful metaphysician,
without so much as knowing the name of the science. As a last step in
the process, it brought him acquainted with those countless analogies by
which the natural world is rendered the best of all commentaries on the
moral. “ I am unable,” said he to his friend the clergyman, " to
describe the state of my soul as I see it, but I am somewhat helped to
conceive of it by the springs which rise by the wayside, as I pass
westward from the town, along the edge of the bay. They contain only a
scanty supply of water, and are matted over with grass and weeds ; but
even now in August, when the fierce heat has dried up all the larger
pools, that scanty supply does not fail them. On disentangling the weeds
I see the water sparkling beneath. It is thus, I trust, with my heart.
The life of God is often veiled in it by the rank luxuriance of evil
thoughts, but, when a new manifestation draws these aside, I can catch a
glimpse of what they conceal. I can hope, too, that as the love of
Christ is unchangeable, this element of life will continue to spring up
in my soul, however dry and arid the atmosphere which surrounds it.”
Bunyan has described a
green pleasant valley, besprinkled with lilies, which lies between the
palace of the virgins and the valley of the shadow of death. “It is
blessed,” says he, “with an exceedingly fertile soil, and there have
been many labouring men who have been fortunate enough to get estates in
it.” Andrew was one of these. He was humble and unobtrusive, and but
little confident in himself—a true freeman of the valley of humiliation.
Though no longer the leader of his school-fellows—for he had now so
little influence among them, that he could not prevail on so much as one
of them to follow him—he was much happier than before. Leaving them at
their wild games, he would retire to his solitudes, and there hold
converse with the Deity in prayer, or seek out in meditation some of the
countless parallelisms of the two great works which had been spread out
before him—Creation and the Bible. He was no longer a leader even to
himself. “I have been taught,” said he, “by experience, that my heart is
too stubborn a thing for my own management, and so have given it up to
the management of Christ.” Mr. Davidson saw him, for the last time,
about the beginning of the year 1740, when he complained to him of being
exposed to many sore temptations. He had met with wild beasts, and had
to contend with giants—he had been astonished amid the gloom .of the
dark valley, and bewildered in the mists of the enchanted ground. The
interesting little tract from which I have drawn nearly all the
materials of my memoir, and which at the time of its first appearance
passed through several editions, and was printed more recently at
Edinburgh by the publishers for the Sabbath-schools, concludes with a
brief notice of this conference. The rest of Andrew’s story may be told
in a few words. He lived virtuously and happily, supporting himself by
the labour of his hands, without either seeking after wealth or
attaining to it; he bore a good name, though not a celebrated one, and
lived respected, and died regretted. It is recorded on his tombstone, in
an epitaph whose only merit is its truth, that he was truly pious from a
child—his whole life and conversation agreeable thereto and that his
death took place in 1769, in the fiftieth year of his age.
I am aware that, in thus
tracing the course of my townsman, I lay myself open to a charge of
fanaticism. I shall venture, however, on committing myself still
further.
One night, towards the
close of last autumn, I visited the old chapel of St. Regulus. The moon,
nearly at full, was riding high overhead in a troubled sky, pouring its
light by fits, as the clouds passed, on the grey ruins, and the mossy,
tilt-like hillocks, which had been raised ages before over the beds of
the sleepers. The deep, dark shadows of the tombs seemed stamped upon
the sward, forming, as one might imagine, a kind of general epitaph on
the dead, but inscribed, like the handwriting on the wall, in the
characters of a strange tongue. A low breeze was creeping through the
long withered grass at my feet; a shower of yellow leaves came rustling,
from time to time, from an old gnarled elm that shot out its branches
over the burying-ground—and, after twinkling for a few seconds in their
descent, silently took up their places among the rest of the departed ;
the rush of the stream sounded hoarse and mournful from the bottom of
the ravine, like a voice from the depths of the sepulcure ; there was a
low, monotonous murmur, the mingled utterance of a thousand sounds of
earth, air, and water, each one inaudible in itself; and, at intervals,
the deep, hollow roar of waves came echoing from the caves of the
distant promontory, a certain presage of coming tempest. I was much
impressed by the melancholy of the scene. I reckoned the tombs one by
one. I pronounced the names of the tenants. I called to remembrance the
various narratives of their loves and their animosities, their joys and
their sorrows. I felt, and there was a painful intensity in the feeling,
that the gates of death had indeed closed over them, and shut them out
from the world for ever. I contrasted the many centuries which had
rolled away ere they had been called into existence, and the ages which
had passed since their departure, with the little brief space
between—that space in which the Jordan of their hopes and fears had
leaped from its source, and after winding through the cares, and toils,
and disappointments of life, had fallen into the Dead Sea of the grave ;
and as I mused and pondered—as the flood of thought came rushing over
me—my heart seemed dying within me, for I felt that, as one of this
hapless race, vanity of vanity was written on all my pursuits and all my
enjoyments, and that death, as a curse, was denounced against me. But
there was one tomb which I had not reckoned, one name which I had not
pronounced, one story which I had not remembered. I had not thought of
the tomb, the name, the story of that sleeper of hope, who had lived in
the world as if he were not of the world, and had died in the full
belief that because God was his friend, death could not be his enemy. My
eye at length rested on the burial-ground of the Lindsays, and the
feeling of deep despondency which had weighed on my spirits was
dissipated as if by a charm. I saw time as the dark vestibule of
eternity;—the gate of death which separates the porch from the main
building, seemed to revolve on its hinges, and light broke in as it
opened ; for the hall beyond was not a place of gloom and horror, nor
strewed, as I had imagined, with the bones of dead men. I felt that the
sleeper below had, indeed, lived well; the world had passed from him as
from the others, but he had wisely fixed his affections, not on the
transitory things of the world, but on objects as immortal as his own
soul; and as I mused on his life and his death, on the quiet and comfort
of the one, and the high joy of the other, I wondered how it was that
men could deem it wisdom to pursue an opposite course.—I could not, at
that time, regard Lindsay as a fanatic, nor am I ashamed to confess that
I have not since changed my opinion. |